(11-05-2019, 06:13 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: [ -> ]Day 5 of bloom. I'm still not really noticing anything. I wrote my goal down and taped it to the side of thepiece of furniture right in front of my so I can see it laying down in bed (which I do a lot) and I constantly remind myself by repeating my goal. Still, nothing seems to be happening. I wonder: If I use UMS for a whole year, will anything happen to help me achieve UMS or will I have just wasted a whole damn year and $115?
Your honesty is appreciated EP! Plz keep going,Man!
Thanks. Yeah. I still intend to keep moving. We'll see when this starts paying out...
EP,
I'm finding UMS focusing on the roadblocks in my head--heavily. The money is the goal, but if it finds a inner "NO!" in our beliefs, it goes to them first. Shannon said that in my journal.
What's being "picked" at right now? You mentioned your ex-friend a few days ago (you held back, but you referred to the "same old" issues). Anything which might need clearing BEFORE big money revelations come?
Work with UMS. That's how it makes progress, and how you will too. Keep your focus on what UMS deems important. You are strong enough to face these issues, or you'd not still be around, that's for sure. You're doing a great job
Thanks Findingme, I needed to hear that
Can't wait to overcome this crap and MAKE SOME G****** MONEY!
Day 6 of bloom btw. Nothing new so far.
Welp! Day 7 of bloom amd so far, nothing. I don't know what to make of this. Maybe it really is just UMS working on my friendship breakup issues, bit I haven't really spent most of my time thinking abput that subject, so who knows?
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Shannon What do you think about these results (or lack thereof) in this 7 day bloom, after a 24/7 week of carpetbombing? What does this suggest? Does this suggest I need to carpetbomb less? Does this mean I should change my patterns with programming and blooming? What do you think I should do looking at these posts? You're the expert here and I honestly feel incompetent to make heads or tales of what tje most recent data suggests I should do regarding my UMSv1 usage. I'm hoping you might be able to look at the results and be able to tell if any changes to my UMS usage need to be made. If you can't do that or don't have the time/energy, I understand. I'm just asking because it is my hope that you can help me make heads or tails about this issue.
Side note: Just had a weird dream last night. In it, I go to a bar woth my brother and friends and order a beer that isnt too strong. Then I get a "Japanese" beer that's in a mug so ridiculously tall, that it's higher than I can reach the rim. Think AT LEAST 8 feet. Then I somehow drinl it all anyway, black out, and find out the next day that I kept drinking liters of beer after that and acted like a supreme drunken douchebag and have SERIOUSLY made myself and to a lesser extent, my brother and friends, look VERY bad in the process, for which I feel guilty. I then get called an alcoholic by my brother in the dream. I should point out that IRL I am by no means an alcoholic. I do drink, but not every day and not to the point of black out drunkeness and am not dependant on alcohol. Anyway, so afterwards, I'm STILL drinking beer. And I decide at some point to sneakilly top off some of mine with my brother's after a bit of drinking
Problem is, his has ice cubes in it for some reason, melting and watering it down, it's bitter and he has some sort of rose petals in it adding a weird florescent flavour. I steal only a little, but he finds out because of of his florescent petals ends up in my beer. Gets amgry with me. Says I can make up for it by making him some waflles which I go off to do, but proptly forget.
So basically, I'm wondering id there is ANYBODY HERE who is good at dream interoretation and can make heads or tails of what thatbdream was about?
Probably not, but just in case there is, I'm hoping someone cam help me out there.
Anyway thanks everyone for your support and encouragement.
Update: in Psyche Stats class. Can't concentrate. Can only focus on thoughts and fantasies centered around themes of love, compassion, patience, empathy, wrath, anger, darkness, light, painful experience, healing, growth, evolution, a sense of conflict between legitimate positivity and legitimate negativity, etc. I think this is likely E3 working on some stuff in me.
I have begun carpetbombing again. About an hour and a half ago. Without knowing what to do different based on the results, I've decided to just begin carpetbombing now, and keep carpetbombing constantly for a week.
I am trying to let go of the self imposed limitation of needing to "convince" myself and others that I am worthy of being seen as a viable mating partner. To replace my need for external validation with internal validation that requires nothing to exist. To simply believe that I AM worthy of romantic and sexual attraction, as I am, without having to meet some sort of self imposed criteria and creating self limitations in the process. This is a work in progress, but I am confident that I can reach a point of self esteem that becomes internally generated. That is a goal of mine. Once this is accomplished, the external mirrors the internal. The question is: what stands in the way of achieving this goal? What is preventing me from letting these self limiting beliefs just fall away, as no longer being necessary?
I am also looking into transcendental meditation. Hopefully this practice (along with subliminal affirmation software and loving kindness/metta meditation) can help me achieve this state. Then, the external shall mirror the new internal state, and sexual and romantic abundance shall naturally come.
Question is: What's stopping me from making this change to myself?
Fear perhaps? If so, what can be done to end that?
I realize how important to changing EVERYTHING ELSE it is for me to find my passion. I need a vision for life. I need a vision to move towards. An HONEST vision. Free of limitation. As a creator and a financially successful man who is highly attractive to high value women. I need to come up with a dedicated vision and work towards it in earnest. But WHAT IS my vision? There are infinite realities with infinite versions of myself. What version of myself do I choose to be?
(11-07-2019, 04:41 PM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: [ -> ]I am trying to let go of the self imposed limitation of needing to "convince" myself and others that I am worthy of being seen as a viable mating partner. To replace my need for external validation with internal validation that requires nothing to exist. To simply believe that I AM worthy of romantic and sexual attraction, as I am, without having to meet some sort of self imposed criteria and creating self limitations in the process. This is a work in progress, but I am confident that I can reach a point of self esteem that becomes internally generated. That is a goal of mine. Once this is accomplished, the external mirrors the internal. The question is: what stands in the way of achieving this goal? What is preventing me from letting these self limiting beliefs just fall away, as no longer being necessary?
I am also looking into transcendental meditation. Hopefully this practice (along with subliminal affirmation software and loving kindness/metta meditation) can help me achieve this state. Then, the external shall mirror the new internal state, and sexual and romantic abundance shall naturally come.
Question is: What's stopping me from making this change to myself?
Fear perhaps? If so, what can be done to end that?
I’m finding it useful to figure out WHY I have each fear/self lie/limiting belief. I’m looking at them in detail and saying “well that’s crap” and it seems to be sticking.
That's a good idea.
I think it would also be good though to figure out a vision of the self I want to be and then be that.
Day 1 of carpetbombing: Nothing to note.
Day 2 of carpetbombing. Nothing to note just yet...
Honestly I don't know what to tell you. I don't understand why you are getting the results you are either.
(11-09-2019, 11:33 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Honestly I don't know what to tell you. I don't understand why you are getting the results you are either.
What results do you notice? It seems to me my results are primarilly E3 based, which may be because this is a blockage needing clearance before monetary results come in. That's my best guess. What's your observation of my results?