I didn't completely manage it without interruptions, but I did the best I could to keep it running at max volume on my phone using ultrasonic at all times. I spend a lot of time in bed, with my laptop charging and on and with my phone charging on my laptop.
I dunno if it's healthy, but it's the most extreme way I can think of to get my subconcious to get with the program.
Carpet bombing is over. Bloom begins now.
(11-01-2019, 08:33 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: [ -> ]Carpet bombing is over. Bloom begins now.
I'm really intrigued now. Let's see how that bloom goes!
Me too. I shall do what Shannon recommends and repeat my goal CONSTANTLY.
Day 2 of bloom. Let's see what happens.
Dealing with healing pains over friendship breakup/heartbreak. Lots of pain. Lots of regret. But mostly, just... pain. And sadness. A little shame.
My thoughts then turn to how quickly, easily and brutally people judge each other on this planet. More sadness.
I'm in a bad place right now.
It seems UMSv1 is currently focusing my subconscious primarily on the E3 aspects. Still, I got my absurdly large financial goal written in pen on blank sheet of paper, taped to the side of the hutch in my room, facing my bed, so when I look at it, I am reminded of my financial goal, which I repeat to myself often each day. Hope this all helps me get there and get me healed.
Day 3 of bloom. Had a not-so-subtle dream last night explicitly warning me that my apathy would inevitably lesd to catastrophe. Huh.
Day 4 of bloom. Nothing observed so far at this point. Feeling disappointed.
As was the case yesterday, it seems the E3 portion of UMS is probably working through some issues. Take a guess which kind? **sigh** I'm tired of feeling this way, tired of having these issues, tired of not seeing any financial gain or opportunities for it, B*tch b*tch b*tch. moan moan whine. I just fell worthless, and like I'm making no progress. Not saying that's what I BELIEVE, just that's how I FEEL. Prolly the E3. Hopefully that's the E3 doing it's thing, and not just me having issues.
Tiredness would hopefully imply that you're finally, at some level, getting fed up with the way things are, and will soon start taking proper conscious and unconscious action to change this!
I hope so. Thanks for the encouragement, Have at Ye.
Day 5 of bloom. I'm still not really noticing anything. I wrote my goal down and taped it to the side of thepiece of furniture right in front of my so I can see it laying down in bed (which I do a lot) and I constantly remind myself by repeating my goal. Still, nothing seems to be happening. I wonder: If I use UMS for a whole year, will anything happen to help me achieve UMS or will I have just wasted a whole damn year and $115?