Day 4 of bloom. Waking up feeling not very well rested. This could have to do though with waking up in the midlle of the night and having a hard time getting back to sleep. ALthgough I DO think I've gotten at least 8 hours sleep. But eh, it's not unnormal for somebody first waking up to feel groggy. Otherwise, not noticing much. I AM dealing with past issues regarding the friendship breakup I thought were behind me. Looks like I haven't FULLY healed yet. But I am healing.
This is very revealing.
The program is designed to seek out whatever is preventing its execution and focus on that, while executing to whatever degree is possible otherwise. It would seem that this friendship issue, and whatever is underneath it, are what you need to deal with before getting anything else done.
You are executing during bloom.
That's wonderful news! I shall deal with this issue and whatever's behind it as best I can! I am currently looking to metta meditation to help me find resistance in my heart chakra and release it, so I can open it up and live from the heart. As these emotions come up, I try to feel them as fully as possible without identifying with them, and continue saying "I love you" to both my friend and myself. My intention is to let go of these feelings of shame, inadequacy and pain, and instead maintain a feeling of love. So I feel the emotions fully to release them, doing my best not to identify with them, and direct as much love as I can to the issue. Hopefully this helps.
Just listened to this meditation:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3UtIskoV36c
Cried really hard throughout the whole thing. Hopefully that helped me get closer to releasing whatever pain keeps my heart closed off and achieving what this meditation aims at.
Trying to watch South Park. Can't. I feel better right now, nut my mind is still on resolving this issue. Although I think back to what my online mentor said: "You create the problem by trying to solve it in the first place"
Day 5 of bloom. Not noticing much, but dad just offered me 20 bucks to walk the dog. Something I normally do for free. I'm wondering if that's a part of UMS?
(10-07-2019, 08:44 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: [ -> ]Day 5 of bloom. Not noticing much, but dad just offered me 20 bucks to walk the dog. Something I normally do for free. I'm wondering if that's a part of UMS?
Yes. Go read the description.
Sweet! Can't wait until an opportunity arrives to make LOTS of money!
(10-07-2019, 08:58 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: [ -> ]Sweet! Can't wait until an opportunity arrives to make LOTS of money!
Last night, Dreamed I was more than a Millionaire, twice( had two different dreams about the same thing! money honey-money,money!!) that was a first.
One of the biggest stumbling blocks for people in achieving their goals... is believing those goals to be possible. Not just consciously, not just superficially, but deeply, at all levels, and fully.
(10-07-2019, 09:29 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]One of the biggest stumbling blocks for people in achieving their goals... is believing those goals to be possible. Not just consciously, not just superficially, but deeply, at all levels, and fully.
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Shannon
Reading this made me think when I ran EIP in 4G. Are you considering making this sub in 5.75G? I really think this is such a foundational aspect of achieving your goals.
(10-07-2019, 09:31 AM)THolt Wrote: [ -> ] (10-07-2019, 09:29 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]One of the biggest stumbling blocks for people in achieving their goals... is believing those goals to be possible. Not just consciously, not just superficially, but deeply, at all levels, and fully.
@Shannon
Reading this made me think when I ran EIP in 4G. Are you considering making this sub in 5.75G? I really think this is such a foundational aspect of achieving your goals.
It isn't necessary. The parts that try to stop execution try to do so not because they don't believe it is possible to achieve the goal, but because they do. The achievement of the goal is perceived to be a threat, and they try to avoid that threat. The fundamental thing we need to do is not making you believe it is possible to achieve the goals anymore, in 99% of cases. It's making the subconscious understand that achieving the goal isn't a threat.
Fortunately, it seems I'm executing the goals, soit seems my subconscious is being convinced! Looking forward to making serious money off of it.
Based on your responses and results it looks to me like you are dealing with a LOT of fear at a deep level. However, as you can see, given enough exposure and enough bloom time, the latest generation of programs does still work. Just be patient with this process, since you are apparently starting from a highly traumatized place.