Day 28 - Sunday 14th Oct 2018
(Time: 4.38pm) - (Cycle 4 - Day 1 - Start of 2nd cycle using 5 Loops)
I want to say thank you to those of you that read and help me out with youtube recommendations and things to do. I appreciate the support and try to give back if and when I can so know I value you and this forum alot. - Thank you All.
Dreams:
Nothing has changed for me so far however last night I had I think 2 maybe 3 big dreams.
I wish I could remember the last 2 but I cannot.
The only 1 dream that I can remember I believe was the first dream of the night (I could be wrong) and i will try to explain it as best as I can from what I remember.
I was in a car and I was driving in the UK.
Ahead the road I was on split into 3 lanes approaching traffic lights; 1 traffic light on each of these 3 lanes.. Maybe you guys call them other things such as signal lights or traffic signals or something but in the UK we have them as RED, AMBER (yellow) and green.
The lane I wanted to take and would take is the 3rd, the far right lane.
For some reason I was approaching fast and felt in control however as I got closer I realised I had far far too much speed and was unable to slow the car down to get into the 3rd lane. My car was approaching the centre/2nd lane. As I tried to turn the wheel to go to the 3rd lane the car was veering itself to the first lane.
I was slamming the breaks because I needed to slow down so that I could get it to the 3rd lane but the car even with slowing down was still too fast and now approaching the first lane.
I was shitting bricks cos I was approaching red lights I think, since the feeling I had inside of me was that the cars driving left-right across must be green light. I was slamming the breaks and still I wasnt stopping.
I went through the lights and across the road that was left - right and luckily hit no cars.
I was still hitting the brakes and still slowing down but too slowly.
I then was approaching I think either some road bollards (please google to see what these are) or a wall. I honestly cant remember but I am 60-80% it was bollards not a wall.
Again I was shitting bricks lol I should point out I wasnt terrified I dont think, it wasnt as if I was the scarediest (is this a word?) that I have every been yet I was scared I was going to hit the bollards and the feelings I had were the same I had when I hit my car as a new driver onto some raised pavement/paving. It was of some fear and embarrassment too and im not saying these were at the most level, of say 10, but maybe around 5-6.
Anyway as I got over the road and approached the bollards, the car was slowing down but still too far.
At the last moment, I managed to stir and skid the car to the left (90 degrees to the left) so that it stopped right against the bollards, parallel to them, with the right side of the car just touching them.
I havent ever done a skid in my life so in my dream I must be michael knight (knight rider tv show for any millennials here) lol
Anyway I think someone outside tells me that I scratched the side of my car, or I came out and saw. I was scared of what my father or family might say I had done to the car I think as this relates to the same feelings I had when I had done this as an early driver, as mentioned above.
Anyway then the dream ended.
Im not sure at all if I have shared this accurately in regards to my feelings, as im adding that to give you the sense of how the dream was but it was a dream I remember since the moment I woke and needed to share to see what anyone including @
Shannon makes of this.
I wouldnt call this particular dream a very bad or scary nightmare, it was negatively exhilarating to some degree but it wasnt one of intense fear but some fear and apprehension. I didnt wake up from it or from my sleep thinking wow I had a nightmare, simply a dream that was new to me and one to be shared so Im glad I remember the main points.
If this is just a dream then so be it as I havent noticed any change in my behaviour as yet or thoughts etc but if this is UMOP then its hopefully a positive sign.
thank you
to me your bad sleeping schedule is just another form od procrastination. If you don't go to sleep on time or wake up on time then you lose a half a day so you "can't" get anything done. If you sleep only 5 hours then you're tired so you again can't get anything done.
