Subliminal Talk

Hahaha I haven't seen that before but I love it.

Back to the sub:
Yesterday was probably the worst day since starting v3.1.

Looks like quite a few people were out to attack me (figuratively speaking) and were trying to unsettle me. Not sure what it's because of. Also, the morning was ok, but I have been feeling very exhausted in the evening.

No noticeable interest from girls. In fact, two girls I was talking to on Tinder went silent today. There's a 3rd one who I don't find attractive at all (I must have accidentally right swiped her)... she seems keen on wanting to talk to me. First the old ladies, now this one...

Looks like I'm gaining weight again too Just a kilo. Lost a kilo after starting v3.1 and now it's back.

The headache started today. Wonder what's being resisted.

@Shannon:
A girl I've been talking to mentioned that she's been feeling low and cancelled our date. Do you think it could be resistance on part of the affected? [resistance to accepting the programming, just like the users of dmsi feel low when they resist]

Day 16
Feeling a bit relaxed and chilled out today. Phew! What a week this had been.

The feeling of anxiety and stress has gone down significantly. At home today, so probably won't have much to report in terms of interactions IoIs etc.

(03-17-2017, 12:29 PM)hunk Wrote: [ -> ]The headache started today. Wonder what's being resisted.

@Shannon:
A girl I've been talking to mentioned that she's been feeling low and cancelled our date. Do you think it could be resistance on part of the affected? [resistance to accepting the programming, just like the users of dmsi feel low when they resist]

I don't know. This would be the first time anyone reported such a thing if it is.

Day 17
I most definitely need to change my listening time again. I've been listening to the sub during my sleep and I'd normally wake up at the end of second loop.

For last few days, I've been waking up as soon as the first loop starts and I haven't been able to sleep during the loops. This has meant waking up tired. Essentially, two hours' less sleep every day.

Other than that, woke up mentally relaxed (albeit tired because of lack of sleep) but with elevated heart beat - no idea why. I could have been dreaming of something that I did not remember after waking up.

Day 19
Things have changed a lot in last few days.

Internally, feeling a little anxious for no reason at all. Not as bad as last week, but that feeling is still there. I can also feel my heart beat faster many times during the day. It's a bit weird as the first week or so on v3.1 was rock solid.

For last two days, I've been feeling a little cocky and have a little bit of an attitude when I stand up and walk. Also, feeling a little irritated by tiny things. Have been waking up after about 3-4 hours of sleep at night and the last 3 hours of sleep are spent in a very light sleep - almost awake with eyes shut and phasing in/out of dream states.

This has resulted in being exhausted by late afternoon. I also noticed that I'd been avoiding talking to and looking at some of the girls I was interested in a few weeks ago.

Externally: girls on apps have been unmatching me and running away from me... Not sure why. This is happening even in person e.g. the Tinder girl cancelling our date because she was feeling low. She hasn't responded to my last message. I'm not sure if I should message her again to set up a date.

Older women are still nice and chatty to me. That feeling that people are out to get me has reduced, but I still feel a weird feeling as if some people have something on their minds and they're not just sharing it.

I noticed the same as you reported: fluctuations in results. My conclusions are more anecdotal and not scientific since I don't use Tinder, but it was noticeable and I was wondering if anyone else experienced the same. It seems like things bounce back up again for me after about 5 days of negative results (not neutral, but outright negative results) on MSI. I struggle to see why it is the case, since I see MSI working as in "gradually going up in power and gradually less resistance"

Keep going.

Peel back the layers of an onion and you get a different set of cells every layer, with a different size and shape.

Peel back the layers of a person, and you get a different set of challenges every layer, with different causes and different solutions necessary.

It's just a sign that the healing and clearing is doing it;s job, and you're growing into a new reality.

(03-21-2017, 12:48 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Peel back the layers of an onion and you get a different set of cells every layer, with a different size and shape.

Peel back the layers of a person, and you get a different set of challenges every layer, with different causes and different solutions necessary.

It's just a sign that the healing and clearing is doing it;s job, and you're growing into a new reality.

Thanks Shannon for your response. I'll stay the course.

Day 19 (contd.)

Weird day today. Felt exhausted most of the day today because of lack of sleep. Was grumpy and a little irritated at times. Head down, bum up... worked till late afternoon. After about an hour or so of leaving work, I was hit with euphoria - that feeling of excitement. Felt like singing and dancing.

Had a sandwich on my way home from work. The girl at the sandwich place seemed very nice to me. No freebies or anything, though... Lol.

That feeling lasted for a couple of hours and now I feel like I'm coming down from that euphoria - as in getting to normal. Not too tired, but need to get some sleep. Have already accumulated some sleep debt this week.

Day 20
Another day full of ups and downs. Can't believe how my mood has been fluctuating throughout the day. I don't know if it's increased sensitivity or something else. Things are hitting me harder than usual.

For example, I have been getting happy very easily and I have been getting sad very quickly as well.

The guy at the pizza cart recognised me while I was passing by and whilst talking to a customer waved to me and nodded hello. That alone gave a mini euphoria for about 10 minutes or so. Lol... I don't get that happy with something this small usually. I felt like I'm appreciating connection with a certain kind of people more than ever.

Then less than an hour later, the Tinder girl rejected me and it felt like a sharp pain in my body. My head is still hurting - about an hour after that.

Day 21

Woke up feeling relaxed - in the body, my mind was still awake and racing thinking of thoughts. Felt a little fear/anxiety this morning for no good reason at all. At times I have thoughts of increasing the number of loops I listen to per day to expedite things.

Not sure if that's going to be a good idea - wondering if that'll hit me hard.

For the time being, I think I'll take it easy. Keep myself occupied and let this pass.

Noticing a lack of motivation to shave or put effort in the way I look. I don't think that's a good thing. I'll let it slide for now, but maybe pull back on the weekend.

Don't feel like looking at dating apps either. I feel like the returns are not as great - although they do allow for interacting with the kind of women I'd probably never come across in real life. (Because of nature of work, jobs, ages etc.)

Maybe it's just a phase where I am feeling a lack of motivation in general. Haven't change the hours I listen to the subs yet. Maybe that's a change I need to make to be able to sleep better and feel better.

Day 21 (contd.)

Sadness all the way today. No euphoria, no happiness. Deep sadness. Had a feeling that my heart was pierced. I hope it's some sort of healing and I'll come out better on the flip side.

Have been eating emotionally and have been tired/exhausted. Stuffing myself with food even though I'm not hungry. Not sure if it's resistance or reality bending like 'eternity' mentioned in his thread.

[If it is reality bending, could someone please explain to me what it means for the user?]

Going to catch up on my sleep and I think I'm going to change my listening times over the weekend as well to see if that helps with exhaustion and tiredness.

Have a good weekend everyone.