Subliminal Talk

When my wife got home, she told me that she had had a meeting with her new boss. She said that she might be in danger of losing the job she just got because they don’t think she’s picking it up fast enough. She also said that the boss had slowly walked her through what she is supposed to do, and she’d gotten it, so this may be nothing.
Before, I’d have had at least a little time feeling seriously stressed out and envisioning a major disaster where we lose everything. Not this time though. My first thought when I heard this was that if it happens I will find a way through, and I’m quite confident that I would.
That lead me to think about how much stronger I am now than I was a year and a half ago when our financial troubles started and I started getting us out of it. Things have tried to go all the way south on us so many times during that period that I’ve lost count. The thing I realized is that I always found a way to salvage the situation. That is both before and especially after I started USLM. I was extremely frustrated that I seem to be stuck in survival mode and responding to crisis after crisis. Now I realize that that’s really driven me to level up as a person, and in a way I’m greatful for that. If this happens it happens (dear universe, I would greatly prefer that things went smoothly) and I’ll succeed through it. I am a badass solution finder.
I also know that soon the treading water and struggling to avoid sinking phase will be over, and I can use that strength (and the USLM luck) to move life forward in big ways.
Did I mention that I noticed that my attitude is a tad more positive? ?

I’m still having those anger episodes I keep mentioning, but they’re a bit less all consuming and I’m able to analyze them a bit. Perhaps violent fantasies is a more accurate way of describing them. I’ve figured out some what seems to trigger them. I’m not going to go into the specifics here, but there are just certain subjects that if I think about them I’ll start to think about scenarios that cause me a surge of anger, and the visualizations get pretty violent from there. Now, I can be detached enough to pick up on some of the themes, and can even get a hint at some of the reasons that these things trigger negative emotions.
I was kind of expecting this sub to just kind of make these things fade away, but it seems to be bringing some underlying issues into my conscious awareness instead.

(03-27-2019, 09:00 PM)Paul1131 Wrote: [ -> ]When my wife got home, she told me that she had had a meeting with her new boss.  She said that she might be in danger of losing the job she just got because they don’t think she’s picking it up fast enough.  She also said that the boss had slowly walked her through what she is supposed to do, and she’d gotten it, so this may be nothing.  
Before, I’d have had at least a little time feeling seriously stressed out and envisioning a major disaster where we lose everything.  Not this time though.  My first thought when I heard this was that if it happens I will find a way through, and I’m quite confident that I would.
That lead me to think about how much stronger I am now than I was a year and a half ago when our financial troubles started and I started getting us out of it.  Things have tried to go all the way south on us so many times during that period that I’ve lost count.  The thing I realized is that I always found a way to salvage the situation.  That is both before and especially after I started USLM.  I was extremely frustrated that I seem to be stuck in survival mode and responding to crisis after crisis.  Now I realize that that’s really driven me to level up as a person, and in a way I’m greatful for that.  If this happens it happens (dear universe, I would greatly prefer that things went smoothly) and I’ll succeed through it.  I am a badass solution finder.  
I also know that soon the treading water and struggling to avoid sinking phase will be over, and I can use that strength (and the USLM luck) to move life forward in big ways.  
Did I mention that I noticed that my attitude is a tad more positive?  ?

Dang Paul!! Fu*king AWESOME Man...flippin' awesome!! more power to ya!! whew!! powerful stuff this LTU5 and your applicable progress with it!!  Good Man,good show of it!!

Thanks! This thing is exceeding my expectations at every turn. I hope UMS does as well for you.

(03-27-2019, 03:52 PM)Paul1131 Wrote: [ -> ]Still on ASRB break.  Today was a bit strange.

-I noticed that I was kind of arguing with myself.  I have some old issues related to stuff that happened in my childhood.  My childhood was shall we say, less than idelic, so there are more than a couple of issues from it.  I was kind of  takking to myself, (I know this is going to sound nuts, it’s not, but this is the only way I can think to describe it.). One me said “it’s really time that you let all that go””.”.  The other me said something like “We can’t let that go, we’ve been defining ourselves by it all of our lives.”  I got a strong feeling of attachment to the old traumas, and a fear of letting them go.  Kind of like I’d be letting go of all the good things that were kind of attached to them.  No, I’m not actually hearing voices, and there really is only one me.  I’m sure that this argument has been running in my subconscious for a while now, I was just able to “hear” it today.  Neither of the voices seemed to be “the real me” just (I guess) parts of me.  

-At the store today, I actually naturally made eye contact with random people and smiled at them.  My posture was great, I’m walking like I own the place, and I actively felt GOOD in a crowded public place.  This is borderline miraculous.

 THats awesome Paul !!

(03-29-2019, 12:54 PM)Paul1131 Wrote: [ -> ]Thanks!  This thing is exceeding my expectations at every turn.  I hope UMS does as well for you.

 Rock N' Roll,Baby!!  I shure hope so too...NOT down playing any or all of the good stuff thats gonna go into UMS,but the FRM 4.5 will be worth the price of admission in and of itself!! Mix that with the Magnus Engine and the possible "Auric Shielding" on top of Money making/attracting/manifesting...dang winning combo,to say the least. keep striding the stride Paul. this thang LTU5, Man you seem to be quantum jumpin' !! Good Saturday to yawl. Keith

Happy Saturday yourself!  I definitely agree that the combination of this sub and genuinely being ready to make some changes has been amazing for me.    

-We had a good day today.  After I woke up, we went out and looked at a car for my wife.  We aren’t looking for now, but after we finish getting out of financial trouble later this year, I want her to have something with the blind spot alarm thingy and some of the other high tech gizmos because she’s blind out of one eye from the ;&:$? MS.  .  We found something that she liked, and were planning to get it in due time.  I’m mentioning this because I’m now seeing an improvement in our financial condition as an inevitability.  Last year, USLM1 did wonders, but it seemed like I had to fight against the malstorm every stem of the way. This one feels like it’s just letting me guide us to success, and will give me the chance to brush past any problems that present themselves without getting my blood pressure up about it.  
Then we went and looked at some housing developments in a better town and school system.  We’re planning on making a move in about a year after we get our debt problem solved.  Once again I was thinking of it as something that will definitely happen.  
-I noticed that the pressure from the car salesman didn’t make me feel pressured at all.  I think that was some aura shield action, and I think I was able to sort of extend it to protect my wife who is pretty susceptible to that type of pressure.  I didn’t really know how much of persuasion happened on that level.  Well, I did, but I have a bit more insight now.  I really wish this had existed back when I was doing corrections work.  I think it might have made that a hell of a lot less uncomfortable.  

-I’ve been a lot more relaxed all of the time.  Even when I have a stressful day it’s better than a moderately good day was before.

-I’m still having those internal anger episodes, but they are decreasing in frequency and intensity.  The funny thing is, this all feels so natural that I really have to think back to how intense they used to be and how often they happened in order to realize how much more under control it is now.  I think that they’ll be gone entirely within a few more weeks.  It seems that I have to make a decision for something like that, but as soon as I do, my subconscious backs me fully.  

-I’ve killed off another nervous tick.  I’ve been clenching my teeth in a way that makes one of them pop for years.  This evening I just decided to stop, and it’s just like that weird abdominal clenching.  It felt perfectly natural not to do it anymore from the second I made the decision.  I feel a very muted urge to do it, but it’s done.  For a guy whose been a ball of nervous habits for years, this is amazing.  

-I noticed that my body language continues to be more and more relaxed and masculine, and I’m starting to notice others reacting to me differently.

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While I was driving home from work this morning the corners of my mouth started turning upward. I have heard of that before, I think people call it smiling. In all seriousness, in a moment, the default setting on my face changed from a slight frown or scowl to a mild smile. I was still doing it when I woke up and have been all day.
We were looking at houses again all today. This afternoon, it occurred to me that I felt REALLY good. I had felt genuinely happy all day, and I also realized how long it had been since I’ve felt that way for a full day.

Awesome report Paul...I have heard from some Master Teacher's in years past that our natural state of 'reality' ,of living is = Joy & Bliss. that infact the real purpose of this life experience is supposed to be Joy & Love and all the variations on a theme of just that ...Joy Love and Bliss. keep rockin' it Paul this is amazing to witness,to speak. Keith.

Every time I go to a public place I have a better experience. This last time I was walking upright with my chest out and my head up like I was the king of everywhere I walked into I really felt like it too.. I had the odd sense that I was pushing something invisible in front of my chest. I can only assume that has something to do with the auric shield. People were moving out of my way too. Not like they were afraid of me, but either with a seeming sense of deference or they just sort of naturally drifted out of the way without even noticing.
I have been acutely aware of my energy field this week. I seem to be able to feel it expanding further and further from my body, and I’m able to consciously feel when it hits an object or someone else’s field sometimes.
I have felt consistently good for at least the last week, and I am taking it as a fact that I will meet the two major goals I’m focusing on right now.

One more thing. Those anger episodes I keep mentioning often take the form of revenge fantasies. You know, getting back at people who’ve wronged me in the past. Well, I had a couple this week, but the hot visceral anger that goes with it wasn’t there. I just had the fantasy, and stayed perfectly calm. Those things seem to be on their way out.
And there is another dead nervous habit too. I used to kind of roll my eyes when they itched even slightly. Once I started I couldn’t stop. I don’t remember the last time I did that. I am feeling calmer all the time.

I’ve officially been on LTU for a month. Im now starting ASRB break #5.As far as new stuff, I’m getting the near euphoric bursts of positivity and optimism that I was having on USLM1. They’re happening both while I’m running the program, and at random times while I’m not, on run days and break days. These are usually coupled with a very vivid visualization of having one of my major goals accomplished or some good thing in the future after it’s accomplished. There is no negative voice saying that this may not be accomplished accompanying it. Sometimes though, I just feel really good suddenly and for no reason.
Quick recap of the effects so far.
-Three lifelong serious nervous habits (twitches, tics, tooth grinding) gone.

-Major decrease in the frequency and intensity of almost dissociative anger episodes (usually revenge fantasies or something like that that really pull me out of the present moment and involve a serious anger reaction). I don’t think I’ve had one for a few days, and the last few I’ve had didn’t cause jaw clenching, muscle tightening, or anything, they were just vivid thoughts. This is major progress, these used to be a multiple times daily occurrence.

-Parinoia and twitchyness in crowded places is gone. This used to be a real problem. I COULD stand trips to a store or whatever, but it was unpleasant and exhausting. Lately I’ve actually been feeling good there.

-My relationship with my wife has improved. She still takes her bad moods out on me occasionally, but it doesn’t get under my skin nearly as much. I recognize that it’s her somewhat disfunctional way of dealing with stress, frustration, fear and physical pain. It’s a problem with her not me, and it’s up to her to solve it. Also she’s been doing it less. Though she does seem a little confused that she can’t get a rise out of me anymore.

-Massive boost in self confidence. At least as far as knowing I can handle any challenge that life throws my way goes. I’m in a rough situation now, but I’m coming to the end of it, and once things are back on track, I can level life up in a lot of different ways.

-I have stopped drinking soda. I didn’t really plan on it, I just switched to sparkling water.

-Aches and pains that I felt on waking up are gone.

-Increased energy on waking up.

-Increased productivity toward my goals.

-Fear of failing in my job search because of past failures gone.

-The default setting on my face went from slight hostile scowl to slight smile.

-I am calmer all the time and in all things.

-My wife has noticed and commented that I am different in a good way.

I am quite impressed.

Awesome man!

(04-05-2019, 10:48 PM)Paul1131 Wrote: [ -> ]I’ve officially been on LTU for a month.  Im now starting ASRB break #5.As far as new stuff, I’m getting the near euphoric bursts of positivity and optimism that I was having on USLM1.  They’re happening both while I’m running the program, and at random times while I’m not, on run days and break days.  These are usually coupled with a very vivid visualization of having one of my major goals accomplished or some good thing in the future after it’s accomplished.  There is no negative voice saying that this may not be accomplished accompanying it.  Sometimes though, I just feel really good suddenly and for no reason.
Quick recap of the effects so far.
-Three lifelong serious nervous habits (twitches, tics, tooth grinding) gone.

-Major decrease in the frequency and intensity of almost dissociative anger episodes (usually revenge fantasies or something like that that really pull me out of the present moment and involve a serious anger reaction). I don’t think I’ve had one for a few days, and the last few I’ve had didn’t cause jaw clenching, muscle tightening, or anything, they were just vivid thoughts.  This is major progress, these used to be a multiple times daily occurrence.

-Parinoia and twitchyness in crowded places is gone.  This used to be a real problem.  I COULD stand trips to a store or whatever, but it was unpleasant and exhausting.   Lately I’ve actually been feeling good there.

-My relationship with my wife has improved.  She still takes her bad moods out on me occasionally, but it doesn’t get under my skin nearly as much. I recognize that it’s her somewhat disfunctional way of dealing with stress, frustration, fear and physical pain.  It’s a problem with her not me, and it’s up to her to solve it.  Also she’s been doing it less.  Though she does seem a little confused that she can’t get a rise out of me anymore.  

-Massive boost in self confidence.  At least as far as knowing I can handle any challenge that life throws my way goes.  I’m in a rough situation now, but I’m coming to the end of it, and once things are back on track, I can level life up in a lot of different ways.

-I have stopped drinking soda.  I didn’t really plan on it, I just switched to sparkling water.  

-Aches and pains that I felt on waking up are gone.

-Increased energy on waking up.

-Increased productivity toward my goals.

-Fear of failing in my job search because of past failures gone.

-The default setting on my face went from slight hostile scowl to slight smile.

-I am calmer all the time and in all things.  

-My wife has noticed and commented that I am different in a good way.  

I am quite impressed.

 Paul you're bad ass man. rockin it like a Boss. more power to ya man. what an encouragement to read,your shft in one month is incredibley credible. wow! I've so much to look forward to when the time comes for my introvenious LTU5 line into the stream of my Life. have a great and awesome ;one',I know you will,Paul!! Keith