Apex-Predator Evolutionary Log - AM6 RE-RUN Stage 2 - Letting go

[Dee]

I have been clearing money issues relating to the differences between wealthy people and myself and why I would not deserve to be wealthy too. I also spent some time in the bath working on my need to compete with people and at the same time be normal/fit in vs what I really want and who I really want to be or think that I am, it was really nice doing that one. I think I will continue tapping on trusting me self for the rest of the week and been free from the past or future just before I go to bed.

Short Term Goal #1 – Early Riser

I have managed to fall asleep earlier than I have before since starting stage two, also I managed to get up at 8.30 the time of my second alarm today. I thought It would be easy to change my body clock buts it harder that I expected.

I will have to wake up even earlier if I am to get all the things in my daily ritual done without affecting my work hours. It’s easier getting up early when you work for someone else that’s for sure.

Deadline: 2nd of February

Short Term Goal #2 – Brain Reboot (127 days left)

I can feel the progress am making, I am starting to get erections from just thinking about sex.

Short Term Goal #3 – Week Day Ritual

I am struggling to fit everything in time as I take too long on some tasks. I may read a book for 30 mins longer because I find it interesting then that fucks everything up or get a call and speak to too long. I like the fact I have structure in my life now whereas before I would just do whatever and never make drastic progress in my life.

I know that when I habituate this ritual I will be able to do and learn everything I never wanted in my past 25 years of living in the next 5 years of my life. Just by making small steps towards my goals daily with my new ritual. I may have to change it as I move out of home but it’s okay at present.

SEX GOALS

I have been working on my sex goals and as I think about it more I realize that what I thought I wanted before I didn’t really want. The more clear I get, the more happy I seem to be; wanting to chase all those club girls knowing that’s not my cup of tea caused more tension than needed.

Knowing what I really want is making me more optimistic as the change will be delightful because the end result or reward will be something I desire from the deep inside. I am not judging club/party girls but they seem to lack a depth I desire.

"Beauty without virtue is like a rose without scent." The Wise King of legend with 700 wives and 300 concubines