06-24-2019, 02:52 PM
(This post was last modified: 06-24-2019, 02:54 PM by EvolvingPhoenix.)
I feel a deep sense of rage. Rage and despair. This doesn't feel like I'm healing. It feels like I'm getting worse. I feel suicidal. I feel hateful. Resentful. Deeply hurt. I feel like lashing out at the universe. I feel like destroying myself. I feel like crying, but I also feel like going completely numb. I feel like giving up. I feel like going down a dark path. I feel misunderstood. I feel I've been wronged. I feel alone. I feel hopeless. I feel afraid. I feel abandoned. I feel like I've been badly kicked while I was down. I feel desperate. I feel like I'm drowning... again. I feel like I've regressed. I'm beginning to wonder if any of that progress was for real?
Today is not a good day. And I doubt tomorrow will be either.
Is this a problem beyond E3's scope? I dunno. Only time will tell I guess. I'm going back to sleep, if I can. I've been sleeping all day. And I feel like sleeping the rest of the day.
Today is not a good day. And I doubt tomorrow will be either.
Is this a problem beyond E3's scope? I dunno. Only time will tell I guess. I'm going back to sleep, if I can. I've been sleeping all day. And I feel like sleeping the rest of the day.