08-12-2015, 04:44 PM
So ,
i am in the process of closing down the company I started this journey on, I am about £60,000 in debt, managed a test run and we made over £20,000 in 29 days, so the future was looking good and my world travels were a possibility.
But then again the suppliers started send out packages late, and the shipping company (DHL) starting diverging the orders late, customers feedback suffered accounts were closed and I had enough.
I think I am a strong guy considering that every thing that can go bad did, I fucked up a lot I know, but still, but things are just beyond any one persons control.
Regardless the past two years of my experience most of everyone has let me down! It like if I don't do it my self I wont get down and self reliance of HUGE for me now.I framed all my let downs as a lesson from life her self to me to learn this, as feeling like a have bad luck or that humans are unrealable as I gave up hope on humanity after thinking maybe it was a select race of people and worked with all the races from the world over and found teh same trait.
So I figure that's how simple is it to succeed, just do a little extra than every one else.
Where it kicks is that I cant rely on my self, so I spend the whole day in bed. Whats funny is every time I want to feel sorry for my self I feel as though its a childish behavior, am more of just stuck as I dropped out of my MBA course and all my future plans seem like a fantasy now that I cant get people to do work for me correctly and I cant do it my self.
That's fucked up is I believe that no one can help me, even my Dr and Adhd specialist let me down, my coach failed to inspired and Self Reliance is hurdle now.
I wonder........................................
i am in the process of closing down the company I started this journey on, I am about £60,000 in debt, managed a test run and we made over £20,000 in 29 days, so the future was looking good and my world travels were a possibility.
But then again the suppliers started send out packages late, and the shipping company (DHL) starting diverging the orders late, customers feedback suffered accounts were closed and I had enough.
I think I am a strong guy considering that every thing that can go bad did, I fucked up a lot I know, but still, but things are just beyond any one persons control.
Regardless the past two years of my experience most of everyone has let me down! It like if I don't do it my self I wont get down and self reliance of HUGE for me now.I framed all my let downs as a lesson from life her self to me to learn this, as feeling like a have bad luck or that humans are unrealable as I gave up hope on humanity after thinking maybe it was a select race of people and worked with all the races from the world over and found teh same trait.
So I figure that's how simple is it to succeed, just do a little extra than every one else.
Where it kicks is that I cant rely on my self, so I spend the whole day in bed. Whats funny is every time I want to feel sorry for my self I feel as though its a childish behavior, am more of just stuck as I dropped out of my MBA course and all my future plans seem like a fantasy now that I cant get people to do work for me correctly and I cant do it my self.
That's fucked up is I believe that no one can help me, even my Dr and Adhd specialist let me down, my coach failed to inspired and Self Reliance is hurdle now.
I wonder........................................
If you can't manage the little you have now, who will trust you with more, if you can't control yourself long can you rule over others for? Its easier for a king to rule a kingdom than himself and who does want an empire? Being unconquerable lies with yourself!
