AM6 STAGE 1 - Day 7
Dream journal.
These subs are messing my up sleep. I tossed and turned all night long. It like having a constant steam of thoughts and even though I may fall into theta I still feel “awake”. Anyway I still had a few dreams. COOL dreams. I was in my primary school class and I couldn’t find my bag, it was almost home or break time, I stood at the door and I told the class no one is leaving until they found my bag. Then some of the popular guys at the school came at my and a beat up a lot of them. The teacher was like give him his bag, I was awesome. I once did something like that as a teen when I lost my phone at a party, someone found it, I was drunk and didn’t give a …..
Anyway months ago I used to dream of running away, running away from animals, police, gangsters and so on, it seems that was my automatic reaction to stuff, always avoiding confrontation. Now am fighting back and taking more control of my dreams.
Other than that, didn’t get to do my approaching excises, or break more barriers as my nephew and brother are around for a few days. I when on a walk with my nephew, I think I can ditch him today and go for a jog I feel the urge to.
Porn fantasy into reality
My mums mate is coming over as well for a few days (they met as UNI so she’s not as old), she’ll be staying over. She’s in to me, she even brought her sister from Czech republic to “see” me. Her sister couldn’t speak English so I don’t know how it was supposed to work. Anyway, we were watching some romantic movies with sex scenes and all in dark some time ago when my parents stepped out the house for a while.
I was a p*ussy so I didn’t bother making any moves, I got drunk once and made a terrible try. I’ve been thinking to testing my new found balls and trying something, I don’t think she’ll tell my mum if she rejects me, that would be awkward. If we ever get time together then it’s on, I just know it’s not going to be smooth but it needs to be done. I can think of it as a porn fantasy to motivate myself, banging your mum’s friend. NICE. Wish me luck. Truth is I won’t know how to escalate it, it maybe a bad idea.
Dream journal.
These subs are messing my up sleep. I tossed and turned all night long. It like having a constant steam of thoughts and even though I may fall into theta I still feel “awake”. Anyway I still had a few dreams. COOL dreams. I was in my primary school class and I couldn’t find my bag, it was almost home or break time, I stood at the door and I told the class no one is leaving until they found my bag. Then some of the popular guys at the school came at my and a beat up a lot of them. The teacher was like give him his bag, I was awesome. I once did something like that as a teen when I lost my phone at a party, someone found it, I was drunk and didn’t give a …..
Anyway months ago I used to dream of running away, running away from animals, police, gangsters and so on, it seems that was my automatic reaction to stuff, always avoiding confrontation. Now am fighting back and taking more control of my dreams.
Other than that, didn’t get to do my approaching excises, or break more barriers as my nephew and brother are around for a few days. I when on a walk with my nephew, I think I can ditch him today and go for a jog I feel the urge to.
Porn fantasy into reality
My mums mate is coming over as well for a few days (they met as UNI so she’s not as old), she’ll be staying over. She’s in to me, she even brought her sister from Czech republic to “see” me. Her sister couldn’t speak English so I don’t know how it was supposed to work. Anyway, we were watching some romantic movies with sex scenes and all in dark some time ago when my parents stepped out the house for a while.
I was a p*ussy so I didn’t bother making any moves, I got drunk once and made a terrible try. I’ve been thinking to testing my new found balls and trying something, I don’t think she’ll tell my mum if she rejects me, that would be awkward. If we ever get time together then it’s on, I just know it’s not going to be smooth but it needs to be done. I can think of it as a porn fantasy to motivate myself, banging your mum’s friend. NICE. Wish me luck. Truth is I won’t know how to escalate it, it maybe a bad idea.
If you can't manage the little you have now, who will trust you with more, if you can't control yourself long can you rule over others for? Its easier for a king to rule a kingdom than himself and who does want an empire? Being unconquerable lies with yourself!
