12-16-2014, 05:01 AM
Stage 3 currently 2 weeks in
Stage 2 and now stage 3 was kinda interesting and different from most of others people journals and my personal experiences during AM5.
First of all all the anger, frustration is easy to control. At least I dont feel like running psychomaniac like I did in AM5 then I was fighting everybody around me no matter if they were family, friends or enemies. The only hard to control frustration I felt was during week one of Stage 2 and week one of Stage 3 which I can relate to resistance and exhaustion.
I don't know if this means I have nothing to be angry at.. Or I just now understand that for everything I am responsible myself. But this is quite strange because I was ready to go on psicho mode
... Would like to hear here from SHANNON if you are reading this 
Another interesting thing is I feel happy and social, totally different than during AM5 then I was feeling isolated, hard to relate to people, hard to talk and having nothing to say. It feel more like during LTU 3.1 (did it for 6 months few months before AM) than AM5.
Now moving to other topics I have decided to take up martial arts classes to have some fun, socialize and open up the circle of friends I have to new people. Pretty much now I am feeling not that bad as I would have expected from my past run and other peoples journals. The only thing I have hard time letting go is neediness for girls in my life. Let's hope AM will fix it in further stages
Stage 2 and now stage 3 was kinda interesting and different from most of others people journals and my personal experiences during AM5.
First of all all the anger, frustration is easy to control. At least I dont feel like running psychomaniac like I did in AM5 then I was fighting everybody around me no matter if they were family, friends or enemies. The only hard to control frustration I felt was during week one of Stage 2 and week one of Stage 3 which I can relate to resistance and exhaustion.
I don't know if this means I have nothing to be angry at.. Or I just now understand that for everything I am responsible myself. But this is quite strange because I was ready to go on psicho mode
... Would like to hear here from SHANNON if you are reading this Another interesting thing is I feel happy and social, totally different than during AM5 then I was feeling isolated, hard to relate to people, hard to talk and having nothing to say. It feel more like during LTU 3.1 (did it for 6 months few months before AM) than AM5.
Now moving to other topics I have decided to take up martial arts classes to have some fun, socialize and open up the circle of friends I have to new people. Pretty much now I am feeling not that bad as I would have expected from my past run and other peoples journals. The only thing I have hard time letting go is neediness for girls in my life. Let's hope AM will fix it in further stages
