Apex-Predator Evolutionary Log - AM6 RE-RUN Stage 2 - Letting go

[Dee]

Day 14 of AM5 Stage 5

Time flies , I was like yesterday I was on here introducing my self, I feel like i could have done so much more in the time i was in, even thought be Alpha will create a lifestyle that many will not experience in many life times.

NEW ATTITUDES

Ok, so the story goes ……. I have been buying monthly packages for coaching, I received the packages at half price which I thought was great. As extras the coach was to record and send over an mp3 of every session as well as create a custom recording every month the coaching was going for and give product bonuses for every $ spent on coaching.

So here’s the kicker, it took six weeks to get the first custom recording, and the coach stated that she couldn't record the sessions for some nonsense reason (during Stage 1-2 of my AM5 journey) and I been the beta male that I was said nothing, I justified to me self as “well am paying half price anyway, how can I demand more than am getting".

DOMINANT ATTITUDES

The coach has stated that the coaching could be locked into that discount for 3-6 months, at month 3 (during Stage 3-4 of AM5) I started to push for the recording of the session and got them recorded twice, my thinking changed to “ well am paying half the price as a discount, not for half the service but half price for the full service”. My domience increased and I hated the thought of getting taken for a ride especially by a women.


I had cash-flow issues on the 4th month and I wanted to freeze the coaching for a while, as my business if draining my juice. She says it’s cool, but then I ask for the 3 custom recording and other bonuses offered and she refused stated that I can’t break of a six month agreement, a lot of polite emails down the line I had enough of her unreasonably arguments and requests. The old me would have let it go and justified it somehow to save my ego the shame of it all, but this time I wasn’t having it. So after telling her all the things I could do as a buyer and my rights and all, I contacted PayPal and I have just received a refund, The coach says she will send over the bonuses too as been an internet marketer I was going to run a PuaFraud.com type campaign on her and ensure people in her niche where somehow exposed to my review/story.

Accepting the Alpha Within

Now I feel bad somehow, I mean I stood up for myself, whereas the old me wouldn’t have let up. I am replaying the events in my mind and reading the email dialog trying to convince myself I did a good thing. Am starting to feel like an asshole even with the tech team an working with , it took them more time than required on the last project and now every time they set a deadline and miss it or miss a meeting am on their asrses for it. I then project myself into them sometimes and feel bad, as though am the bad guy.

The guilt of been an Alpha Male

I think Christianity as made me weak,

38 “You have heard that it was said, ‘Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.’[a] 39 But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to them the other cheek also.40 And if anyone wants to sue you and take your shirt, hand over your coat as well. 41 If anyone forces you to go one mile, go with them two miles. 42 Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.

Now it seems I have to deal with the guilt of been an Alpha Male. There no way I can twist those words above and do the opposite without feeling like am doing something wrong.

HELP!!!!!