Apex-Predator Evolutionary Log - AM6 RE-RUN Stage 2 - Letting go

[Dee]

STAGE 4 COMPLETED

What can I say, it’s been a confusing month.

I went from been afraid of women the more attractive the women the more fear I felt. Like I said before even reading “How to be an Alpha Male” made me feel anxious, now that’s all gone. Ave also noticed that all the girls I approach have a huge smile and are inviting, the ones that reject me , well I don’t take it personally there’s always a good reason.

I have listened to the audio book of “How to be an Alpha Male” many times now and it seems a different mind-set from what I had before.
Which begs the question from just following the advice from the book the subs can just be an empty tone that would get all the credit, my paranoia has spoken.

Internal Motivation

So I went from been hungry to approach women to feeling as though there are more or other important things in life than women. It’s like spending those 384 hours going out 4 days a week, for 6 months could be put to better use at this point in my life.

It would seem to me that if am successful doing what I love to do I would naturally attract good people (women, friends etc) and thing into my life, gather than been needy putting my happiest and self-worth on whether or not I can pull women or on external factors.

Superiority and What others think

I used to feel inferior to people but now that gone too, I also feel a dominating male energy over women in general. Before I gave them so much power over me and now I have taken that back. I still seem to care what guys think of me tho, and people in general.

I have a hard time approaching women where other people are close, like on buses, trains etc. I have always put too much value on the opins of others. Last week I tried to speak t this girl on the bus and she ignored me and all I could worry about is what the other people in the bus where thinking, I didn't care much about been ignored/rejected.

Stage 5

Hopely Stage 5 will deal with that. Also I finally have begun working out a little at home with kettle bell routines and an ad toner.

Stage 5 tonight new patterns tomorrow.

See you on the other side : )