02-22-2014, 09:31 AM
STAGE 2: DAY 22
PLAY TIME: at least 13 hours day
TRACKS: i alternate ocean and stream night time + 2-4 hours ultrasonic day time
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metamorphosis?
so, normally, i am an outgoing person socially.
and i can steal the attention and be the life of the party.
but in most recent days, i kinda dont give a fvck.
like today, i went to a wedding and although i was socially pleasant and present, i did not do my normal social queues.
i did not go out of my way to voice opinion as much nor do storytelling.
it is like i was socially awkward (because i felt like an outsider -- not the "loser" type of outsider)...
it just that i did not give a fvck to really engage people or talk about myself.
i let people do most of the talking.
i am less talkative.
not sure if this is normal, but this is what i noticed most lately.
ALSO i kinda feel a bit more "superior" than in the past.
now after tonight, i seem to want the validation of my old social butterfly self.
but i also think i am going through a metamorphosis now like i really dont give a fvck socially anymore.
--
anyone experience this or is this normal?
PLAY TIME: at least 13 hours day
TRACKS: i alternate ocean and stream night time + 2-4 hours ultrasonic day time
-
metamorphosis?
so, normally, i am an outgoing person socially.
and i can steal the attention and be the life of the party.
but in most recent days, i kinda dont give a fvck.
like today, i went to a wedding and although i was socially pleasant and present, i did not do my normal social queues.
i did not go out of my way to voice opinion as much nor do storytelling.
it is like i was socially awkward (because i felt like an outsider -- not the "loser" type of outsider)...
it just that i did not give a fvck to really engage people or talk about myself.
i let people do most of the talking.
i am less talkative.
not sure if this is normal, but this is what i noticed most lately.
ALSO i kinda feel a bit more "superior" than in the past.
now after tonight, i seem to want the validation of my old social butterfly self.
but i also think i am going through a metamorphosis now like i really dont give a fvck socially anymore.
--
anyone experience this or is this normal?
