01-30-2014, 06:06 AM
I can’t speak for everyone but I am beginning to believe that every single person on this earth can have their hearts desire. Matter a fact I would go as far as to say every person on this earth gets opportunities to grab they magic lamp and have they wishes come true fear and other beliefs get in the way.
Now that I know more about the mind and thoughts relation to the physical world and other people I reflected on my past and I few interesting things came up.
A few stories
In primary school (age unknown) there was this one girl that was so beautiful I would drop the ball and stop playing with other kids just to look and admire her.
Her silky straight black hair, her fair smooth complexion and bright blue eyes, the also divine like proportions of her facial features, word cannot describe much beauty.
leepy:
This mixed race girl should have had a halo around her head if Da Vinci ever had the pleasure of painting her. I was a kid so it wasn’t anything intentionally “sexual” but I just felt good looking at her for some reason.
Note: A psychologists that am planning to work on a project with told me that a man’s 1st crush influences his tastes from then on wards and it seems like I’ve always been looking for a girl like her since. I know his theory is right.
Anyway years later in a different school our teacher didn’t attend on that day or something happened and the school was short staffed am not sure, but the grade 7 kids had just done there final primary school exams so we spend the day in the older kids class just fooling around and doing nothing.
Now what’s profound was at that age we were more aware of dating, sex and all that other stuff and in that same class there she was, the essence of perfection looking at me with her captivating blue eyes.
But I had my school related self-esteem issues and I was younger than her, way shorter plus there were other guys in the class room older and “better” than me etc and with every excuse I gave my energy deceased to the point I just vanish from visibility.
I Let The Opportunity Passed
Then the grade 7 kids left for high school and I never ever saw my dream girl again, the most beautifulest (is that a word?) girl I have ever seen in my entire life, still to be rivalled up to this day.
I now know that subconsciously am attracted to girls that remind me of her or of how I felt and the same pattern repeats when they show me interest, 1000 energy draining, depression inducing excuses on replay. So I “hate me self” In those situations when your prize is staring you in the face with an inviting smile and you have no energy to walk up and claim it.
AM5 is powerful
Am still paranoid that Shannon might be a CIA handler and we all been programmed to be sleeper cells awaiting activation or his using us as experiments for some government related secret research. But I must admit this program is making me deal with issues I would had lived a full life without ever addressing.
The world is only a messed up place because of peoples fear, my world is a messed up place because of my fears and when you combine another 7 billion people’s fears you have a planet called earth.
The rest of the quote in my signature:
“You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Am grateful to have the opportuny to face all my fears with the encouragement of these subs and forum members and with the support of my coaches.
My imagination is limited by fear so I can’t even imagine the kind of person I will be in a few years. Thanks though
Now that I know more about the mind and thoughts relation to the physical world and other people I reflected on my past and I few interesting things came up.
A few stories
In primary school (age unknown) there was this one girl that was so beautiful I would drop the ball and stop playing with other kids just to look and admire her.
Her silky straight black hair, her fair smooth complexion and bright blue eyes, the also divine like proportions of her facial features, word cannot describe much beauty.
leepy:This mixed race girl should have had a halo around her head if Da Vinci ever had the pleasure of painting her. I was a kid so it wasn’t anything intentionally “sexual” but I just felt good looking at her for some reason.
Note: A psychologists that am planning to work on a project with told me that a man’s 1st crush influences his tastes from then on wards and it seems like I’ve always been looking for a girl like her since. I know his theory is right.
Anyway years later in a different school our teacher didn’t attend on that day or something happened and the school was short staffed am not sure, but the grade 7 kids had just done there final primary school exams so we spend the day in the older kids class just fooling around and doing nothing.
Now what’s profound was at that age we were more aware of dating, sex and all that other stuff and in that same class there she was, the essence of perfection looking at me with her captivating blue eyes.
But I had my school related self-esteem issues and I was younger than her, way shorter plus there were other guys in the class room older and “better” than me etc and with every excuse I gave my energy deceased to the point I just vanish from visibility.
I Let The Opportunity Passed
Then the grade 7 kids left for high school and I never ever saw my dream girl again, the most beautifulest (is that a word?) girl I have ever seen in my entire life, still to be rivalled up to this day.
I now know that subconsciously am attracted to girls that remind me of her or of how I felt and the same pattern repeats when they show me interest, 1000 energy draining, depression inducing excuses on replay. So I “hate me self” In those situations when your prize is staring you in the face with an inviting smile and you have no energy to walk up and claim it.
AM5 is powerful
Am still paranoid that Shannon might be a CIA handler and we all been programmed to be sleeper cells awaiting activation or his using us as experiments for some government related secret research. But I must admit this program is making me deal with issues I would had lived a full life without ever addressing.
The world is only a messed up place because of peoples fear, my world is a messed up place because of my fears and when you combine another 7 billion people’s fears you have a planet called earth.
The rest of the quote in my signature:
“You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Am grateful to have the opportuny to face all my fears with the encouragement of these subs and forum members and with the support of my coaches.
My imagination is limited by fear so I can’t even imagine the kind of person I will be in a few years. Thanks though
If you can't manage the little you have now, who will trust you with more, if you can't control yourself long can you rule over others for? Its easier for a king to rule a kingdom than himself and who does want an empire? Being unconquerable lies with yourself!
