01-28-2014, 04:03 AM
UPDATE:
The presenter from yesterday had mentioned us doing meditations before the next event next month in the text she sent after the meeting and the negative voice in my head convinced me that it was a general thing she sent to everyone.
But I received a call today I did recognised nor answer and it was from her she left a voice mail about meeting up for meditation, I assume it will be at her place. And I am not motivated to call her back and speak on it, am in my introverted moods today.
Plus a part of me is avoiding the pain of my inner critic again pounding me to the ground plus am afraid I’ll ruin it somehow like in the past, ARRRRRRRRR someone needs to invent a pill that removes negativity and fear from the body, I don’t care even if it’s made of sugar as long as it works.
The presenter from yesterday had mentioned us doing meditations before the next event next month in the text she sent after the meeting and the negative voice in my head convinced me that it was a general thing she sent to everyone.
But I received a call today I did recognised nor answer and it was from her she left a voice mail about meeting up for meditation, I assume it will be at her place. And I am not motivated to call her back and speak on it, am in my introverted moods today.
Plus a part of me is avoiding the pain of my inner critic again pounding me to the ground plus am afraid I’ll ruin it somehow like in the past, ARRRRRRRRR someone needs to invent a pill that removes negativity and fear from the body, I don’t care even if it’s made of sugar as long as it works.
If you can't manage the little you have now, who will trust you with more, if you can't control yourself long can you rule over others for? Its easier for a king to rule a kingdom than himself and who does want an empire? Being unconquerable lies with yourself!
