01-28-2014, 03:43 AM
AM5 Stage 2 - Mental Renovation #Day 16 – 19
I failed to get up at 6am on weekdays but managed on weekends, which really screwed with my head. I felt like there was some external force messing up my plans and toying with me. Then after a few days I managed to get up early and begin my daily ritual but I failed to get any of the “work” I needed done, I had planned to do some training on the business skills I was lacking in but I never found time even thought I had like 8 hours uninterrupted.
So I lost my motivation, it’s cool thought this time I did not fall into depression like before, now I was just looking for another way I could use my strengths to get people to do some work that I am not able too. I guess if I focus on been an eutripertune and just pulling the right people together and finding funding it could work, as I like to think I have charisma. I can work on not comparing myself to others and I might raise in self-esteem. Anyway I spend the day listening to motivational stuff and tapping at the same time (I thought of alcohol but it was faint), in the past I would have used that time to in put more negativity by listening to sad music and thinking about my problems.
I have decided to get a dyslexic business coach, I found a few to help me through cause my whole life no one as understood and most people saw it as I was trying to make excuses for myself or my laziness. I also searched for support groups, that would be valuable. This one time I was on a low with my business and stressed out at the amount of paper work needed and I watched “JOBS” the movie and I felt like it’s a challenging that many people have overcome, I mean Steve Jobs was dyslexic but his still considered a genius. So a support group or coach is like constant positive input like that movie but once a week or more.
I failed to get up at 6am on weekdays but managed on weekends, which really screwed with my head. I felt like there was some external force messing up my plans and toying with me. Then after a few days I managed to get up early and begin my daily ritual but I failed to get any of the “work” I needed done, I had planned to do some training on the business skills I was lacking in but I never found time even thought I had like 8 hours uninterrupted.
So I lost my motivation, it’s cool thought this time I did not fall into depression like before, now I was just looking for another way I could use my strengths to get people to do some work that I am not able too. I guess if I focus on been an eutripertune and just pulling the right people together and finding funding it could work, as I like to think I have charisma. I can work on not comparing myself to others and I might raise in self-esteem. Anyway I spend the day listening to motivational stuff and tapping at the same time (I thought of alcohol but it was faint), in the past I would have used that time to in put more negativity by listening to sad music and thinking about my problems.
I have decided to get a dyslexic business coach, I found a few to help me through cause my whole life no one as understood and most people saw it as I was trying to make excuses for myself or my laziness. I also searched for support groups, that would be valuable. This one time I was on a low with my business and stressed out at the amount of paper work needed and I watched “JOBS” the movie and I felt like it’s a challenging that many people have overcome, I mean Steve Jobs was dyslexic but his still considered a genius. So a support group or coach is like constant positive input like that movie but once a week or more.
If you can't manage the little you have now, who will trust you with more, if you can't control yourself long can you rule over others for? Its easier for a king to rule a kingdom than himself and who does want an empire? Being unconquerable lies with yourself!
