Apex-Predator Evolutionary Log - AM6 RE-RUN Stage 2 - Letting go

[Dee]

As I don’t go out much socialising It would be a bit hard for me to judge my improvements in that domain. One of the main reason I put my NLP training on hold was because of this reason, I need to interact with people to do the excises and experiments.

Don’t bother me am in the “Zone”

The little interactions I have had have been different from the normal ways I would have acted just a month ago. I got a call from a company I was looking to partner with that was a reply to email I sent; it was after 5pm and I had entered I kind of state whereby my brain was not engaged in the moment (it’s hard to explain, sort of a daydream state, or been zoned out) that I find it impossible to break out of at will.

I would usually not answer the phone and let the person leave a message has I would not want to sound stupid over the phone, asking them to repeat themselves and such. But this time I answered it without much internal debate, it a good sign as I would just ran away from dealing with a situation like that and blame it on my mental state to the detriment of my career.

Dream Journal

Is if to reinforce my new behaviour, I had a dream I was been chased by what I assume where government agents. When I had these types of dreams in the past I would just run for my life.

In this dream I had more control, I was more of a James Bond running from evil agents than the everyday mugger running from the police; like I said I had more control over.

My Dream Interpretation

I still seem to be running, I wonder what it is am not dealing with that makes me still keep having dreams of running or been chased.

“Sit Up Straight and don’t hunch you back”

I have also noticed that my posture is improving, before I would have to constantly remind myself to take up proper posture but now I am been reminded that am doing it naturally.



I am not sure if AM5 stage one has a posture script, if posture is part of its Alpha body language programming or if it’s a natural result of a person who thinks better of himself.

Sexual Sentization

It’s been more than 41 days since I last watched porn, masturbated and ejaculated. I now seem to be getting hard on’s that are not porn related, I have just noticed this. I would look at a woman on TV for example and feel blood running to my penis.

Before I stopped I would have to watch a certain porn video to get this same sensation. Soon I will be normal is regards to what and how I get turned on.

Also has I have been clearing a lot of sex issues I have noticed that women seem to be more beautiful that I remember them been before.

I think I used to be critical of looks before, singling out and focusing on imperfects just to save my ego from admitting that I would find someone attractive. Maybe that was a defence mechanism and because I have cleared out many fears and co*k blocking beliefs I don’t need it anymore.

Clearing chakra vows regarding sex

Besides that I just done a chakra clearing and releasing myself of negative vows or promises I made to myself that conflict with my sexual goals. I see most spiritual structures of understanding as just FrameWorks to conceptualize unseen forces and energies.

The same way we draw Sound Waves on paper as a method of understanding and visualizing these invisible influences.

Scope Of My Clearing Workings


So I spend time clearing issues from all aspects of my life that may influence my sex life, love life; intimacy and connection with others in a negative way.

In a system everything affects everything else.

SHORT TERM GOAL #1

The last time I looked at my phone it was 1:30 AM, I woke up at around 11 AM. I noticed that I was ready to go to bed at 10 PM but I conveniently found other things to do until 12 AM, I avoid the negative thoughts and feelings I have when going to bed.

But I did some conditioning work and clearing which my body reacted to in ways that proved it was working and i was making process.

Man I love the effort you are putting towards "self realization" and your commitment to change. It will definately be interesting to see where you are 6 months from now. Happy new year to you as well.
Thanks Fonzy

Yeah it would be scary if it wasn't so amazing your guy's journals help keep me motivated and are the reason I came on here in the first place.

I definitely want to read “The Magic” by Rhonda Byrne as I put it on my list it sounds like it would really help a lot, I practice Gratitude and Appreciation but 28 techniques, that sounds like work.

Thanks for the support