Apex-Predator Evolutionary Log - AM6 RE-RUN Stage 2 - Letting go

[Dee]

As part of my commitment to assist AM5 in disposing of the garbage, useless un-beneficial beliefs and the negative internal image I hold of myself I have been doing a lot of clearing myself.

I will log the topics I have been clearing on a daily bases to judge which ones have given me the biggest shifts in my emotions and consciousness. And also to help people who may read this identify they own negative beliefs and issues. Those beliefs are like cockroaches, they tend to hide when you try to shine a light on them.

Why can’t I just be myself?

About 7 billion people on this planet and every single one wants me to be a certain way that benefits them. My experience with the Thai women triggered some thoughts that have made me consider this.

In my head, as she was dancing in front of me; my thoughts ranged from:

What would ____ ____ do in this situation (thank you society for that one),
To, I can’t do that, that’s not “cool” (thank you entertainment industry),
Then, I have to say something interesting I can’t just have normal small talk convo like every other guy here (I appreciated the input from the PUA community).

And Not even one single thought of what “I” wanted to do or consideration for the Thai women and what she wanted.

Nature vs Nurture


Not trying to get into a debate with myself, just state some truths. We are intelligent animals, just go out in nature and study it from the concrete to the natural Jungle. Animals have natural instincts and urges and instinctively know how to mate, why is it that humans complicate things to the point that the PUA industry is worth billions?

On one side my mum and other females tell me how I should ideally mate, on the other hand religion has its own ideas; then there’s the media, movies and music. Culture in general installs premade templates for me to follow and behind than are the huge wheels of industry making a profit from modern mating rituals.

Everyone telling me to be something else, that benefits them hence the contradiction. All of my failures in life with women are down to this, all my life I had countless girls wanting to be with me. And in my foolishness I didn’t feel worthy of they love because I wasn’t that type of person I was told girls like. I would freeze has my brain couldn’t compute the countless contradictions.



If God is Love and God made everything, what really holds life together?

If I love my self unconditionally then and only then will I believe and accept that other people can love me too, just the way I am. Even if I lived in a box, had no job, no car and not a penny to my name, love sees beyond the eyes, and love is the greatness attractor known to man.

I finally understand the words of the poets; It is true all we need is love. But huge marketing machines have made me think I need money, designer clothing, expensive cars, successful friends, and status. To find the most attractive women in my eyes and share the gift of love, joy, sex and companionship with.

Those same huge propaganda machines seemed to have brain washed the women too to mirror men. But the truth is all everyone really needs and wants is LOVE, and when someone feels that for another person or for most importantly themselves, all the rest of that BS becomes meaningless.

“Matter” a fact all those things are better with Love and all the related benefits it brings

I would rather go with the other real teachers who are an example of "life" and not just women. everyone who knows Erik (Mystery) knows that aside from his success with women, he is messed up every which way except women. Just search real stories from past clients and ex-friends. I would not want to model his stuff because I would not want to have his personal life.

But please allow me to tell you; it's also very important to give some importance to the experiencial side of life, also known as the emotional side. You're so analytical about your situation that it probably won't do you any good, given that it's an abstract assessment of your life as it is.

My 2 cents on the pick-up thing.

Mystery Method : destroys more than it builds. I can vouch for this. Sure, you get girls with that, not exactly the kind of girls you'd expect, but you do.

You'll see them as sex objects/targets/goals/whatever instead of what you'd expect to find. And in doing so, when you find someone truly great to be with, you simply won't know how to handle that stuff. Be EXTREMELY cautious with this.

Nothing can be more fulfilling than a loving relationship. Strictly my opinion, here.

My goal with Mystery Method was to bang as much girls as possible and that's it. It wasn't even my own goal, it was something that I could see as a validation of some sorts. When I did try to switch from mere making out for two or three days and considering asking her out more often, I'd get a no.

I am so grateful, as I no longer FEEL A NEED to rely on HOW TOs in dating anymore, all I have to do is open and follow my heart and let it do its job and stop getting caught Up in my head or weather am doing or saying the right thing according to …….

Balance Your Brain Hemispheres

I got to a stage a few days ago where I was spelling constantly, after some time when I realized this I went back to normal. I seems maybe I have a belief that will keep me misspelling, it’s like it’s a belief more that a brain function.

I will give the program 32 days before I try changing my beliefs around this area. It’s so frustrating though, I always remind myself when am changing for the better then I revert back. Its the same with my memory, its like its a comfort zone thing.