Apex-Predator Evolutionary Log - AM6 RE-RUN Stage 2 - Letting go

[Dee]

Section 2. Who am I, why? - know thy self

The profile of a Man-child vs The potential Clark Kent

Man-child Definition:

• A grown man who is very immature, therefore considered a man child.
• An adult male who still possesses psychological traits of a child. Traits include, but are not necessarily limited to:
- whining
- pettiness
- trying to pass the blame for their own underdeveloped judgement
- not "stepping up to the plate" when it's their role to.
- is able to connect with children, but only as another child, not as an adult.
- not to mention an overall insecurity in who he is as a man, from which similar traits sprout.
• They attempt to augment their lack and/or compete with peers with material possessions
• A man child is a male who is over the age of 25, who still lives as though he is a juvenile. Many man-children are not gainfully employed, and survive off of the financial support of their enabling parents.
• A full grown man, over the age of 20, who still needs to be supported financially or emotionally by his parents. May or may not live at home with parents, but needs consistent reassurance.
• Is unable to have healthy relationships with women because of childish behaviour, but is in desperate need of someone.

Examples
Ray from "Everybody Loves Raymond"
Doug from "King of Queens"
Dad from "Malcolm in the Middle"
George Costanza from "Seinfeld"
Al from "Married with Children"


Name: Dee YOB: 1988 Ethnicity: Mixed Location: UK Religion: Born into Christianity/ Pentecostalism
Education: Serial college-dropout (4 times) No of Siblings: 3
Disclosed conditions: Self-diagnosed dyslexic and ADD Parents Marital status: Still together
Long-term relationships: 0 (I’ve basically never had a girlfriend)
Profession: Budding Entrepreneur Living situation: At home with parents still
Marital status: Single Qualifications: 5 GCSEs at C the rest aren’t worth mentioning
Money in the Bank: -£5.44 Assets: -£25,005.44



Political stand: “All political parties have one primary goal, which is to stay in power”
Height: 5.5 Weight: 10 stone Penis Size: L-6 G-5 inchs


I went crazy with the effects in that one


Western Star-sign: Gemini Chinese Star-sign: Dragon
Personality Type:INFP

Numerology life Path Number: 22
IQ Score:_______ (can’t afford an ego blow at the moment will take score when I start the Intelligence enhancement subliminals)


I am sure “Balance your Brain Hemispheres” has a part to play in this as I don’t remember been this organised before using it.

Sexual Experience:
Sex – 6 times, Blow Jobs – 3 times, Hand Jobs – 2 times = 11 different women/girls in 25 years and countless times I passed on sex for reasons soon to be disclosed.

First BJ, I was about 14, drunk on a busy main road in the middle of the night, wicked! .

Sex:
1st time - Didn’t cum, faked orgasm, now I know how women feel (16/17)
2nd time - Had an 3some, was at it until she dried up, drunken moment (17/18)
3rd time - I was so in my head and I could not maintain an erection (20s)
5th time – My friends’ child’s mother, MILF that he was/is still with, didn’t enjoy it nor did I cum (new low for me too). (23s)
6th time - Erectile dysfunction, I tried 5 time throughout the night (23s)

All ages are all estimates I never track time that well for anything

Neil Strauss’s “Las Vegas Technique”

It’s based on the premise that everything counts. According to his point system it takes 6 points to have sex with a “low value” women, 10 points for mid and 18 points for a “high value” women, I guess what we would call a perfect 10.

My Points in his System, (1-5 points)

Looks – 1, Adaptability - 0, Strength – 0, Value – 1, Emotional connection – 2, Goals – 5, Authenticity – 1, Self-worth – 1

= Total 11

I can have mid-value women with my current beliefs, self-confidence, appearance and inner strength; not bad, it will be interesting to watch them change over time.

My goal over this length of this journal is to reach the total of 40 points because i can change everything in the above categories.

Find attached a pdf of my entire personality profile