03-13-2021, 11:44 PM
Day 8 Second Cycle.
My thinking is on a much better level, I'm able to focus better, but i'm still anxious about work so i procrastinate and mess around and fret about how i'm going to look when i present my work, when i'm compared to others. I have mental tapes where i imagine other people judging and laughing at me. This is always there but at least it's more apparent right now as a blocker.
Compare this to SE where that would come up, i'd accept it and be ok with myself in any of those situations and then i'd just knuckle down and get on with my work. I wouldn't be as sharp as on MLS but I would be more productive.
Fear wise i'm finding myself much less intimidated by people in person.
Still only the second cycle - around 8 more to go..
My thinking is on a much better level, I'm able to focus better, but i'm still anxious about work so i procrastinate and mess around and fret about how i'm going to look when i present my work, when i'm compared to others. I have mental tapes where i imagine other people judging and laughing at me. This is always there but at least it's more apparent right now as a blocker.
Compare this to SE where that would come up, i'd accept it and be ok with myself in any of those situations and then i'd just knuckle down and get on with my work. I wouldn't be as sharp as on MLS but I would be more productive.
Fear wise i'm finding myself much less intimidated by people in person.
Still only the second cycle - around 8 more to go..
