10-11-2016, 10:33 AM
I noticed that creative decisions on E2 were a lot easier for my writing, too. As soon as I switched to ASC I actually felt like I had less faith in my decision making, not more. I think E2 does a good job of keeping you very in-tune with yourself once you've been listening to it for a while. It kind of makes me want to go back to E2 and finish my training with that. I've been listening at lower volumes for the past few hours since I read your post mentioning that trick and have actually been feeling a lot less tension/resistance.
I also have been feeling very crazed/frantic/fearful and very questioning about my worth in society as related to my masculinity. I feel like I can't really accomplish anything in my life because I'm just not what most people look for in a "man". Holding down jobs, accomplishing life goals, even pleasuring a woman, all feel like complete and total impossibilities because I know deep down inside that when people look at me they immediately notice that I'm not what a man should be, and whether they're aware of it or not, they're judging me as 'inadequate'.
I also have been feeling very crazed/frantic/fearful and very questioning about my worth in society as related to my masculinity. I feel like I can't really accomplish anything in my life because I'm just not what most people look for in a "man". Holding down jobs, accomplishing life goals, even pleasuring a woman, all feel like complete and total impossibilities because I know deep down inside that when people look at me they immediately notice that I'm not what a man should be, and whether they're aware of it or not, they're judging me as 'inadequate'.
Like snowfall, you cry a silent storm
Your tears paint rivers on this oaken wall. . .
-- Agalloch, The Mantle
Your tears paint rivers on this oaken wall. . .
-- Agalloch, The Mantle
