7 hours ago
So i am starting my Journal on Day3:
I have to say it has profound effects on my ability to relax but also makes me very tired i could more or less sleep all day.
I also had a very intense and fantastical dream about power and existencial powerdynamics and fear.
Also i understand why Frosted is saying so much about OGSF to me it seems it truly has the capacity to facilitate transcendental experiences and understanding.
I am on day 3 mind you and am able to let go so much a simple example would be me being unable to pee in like an open stall if people are around because o couldn't relax enough, no problem anymore, also my whole body feels way more relaxed in any position i take, i am on fucking day 3 and life feels so much more bearable.
Also i take SSRI/SNRI because i had some problems with depression for me esp. find the biggest suffering in motor physical retardation which is the existance of immense effort to sinply move and do the simplest things like eating brushing my teeth, doing simple chores, when i was of medication.
Also been addicted to Porn since i was 11years old i feel zero urges to watch and can sleep whenever i want also had sleeping problems another reason why i take the antidepressants.
I feel like OGSF is detoxing the pills a bit hence some of my consistent tiredness and ability to sleep at anytime, which i dont do but could lol.
Also i don't really like taking these i only do it since beginning of February again first time i quit after 1 month because i thought id be good without them but then lethargy came back again and i recommitted to take them for 6-9 months as the psychiatrist suggested it would signal my brain more optimal neurotransmitter levels to have that it will after the time period of taking them then better keep.
And as i will to try whatever it takes to make myself able to realise my potential, i took them but wow the subliminals you create are a thing of pure genius hopefully you get a Noble price for them one day and if not/achieve all the beautiful things in life you may want.
I am on day 3 i have no anxiety i feel comfortable in my own skin not in a 24/7 fight or flight mode.
I feel like a child again in some sense not weighed down by fear insecurities and shame but instead set free to explore life looking forward to whats to come.
And to say it again its only day fuckiiiiing 3.
Sorry for the profanity but in gods name i have tears in my eyes writing this.
Anyway i am deeply grateful @Shannon.
Insane value you provide here.
Kindest of all Regards
Baya
I have to say it has profound effects on my ability to relax but also makes me very tired i could more or less sleep all day.
I also had a very intense and fantastical dream about power and existencial powerdynamics and fear.
Also i understand why Frosted is saying so much about OGSF to me it seems it truly has the capacity to facilitate transcendental experiences and understanding.
I am on day 3 mind you and am able to let go so much a simple example would be me being unable to pee in like an open stall if people are around because o couldn't relax enough, no problem anymore, also my whole body feels way more relaxed in any position i take, i am on fucking day 3 and life feels so much more bearable.
Also i take SSRI/SNRI because i had some problems with depression for me esp. find the biggest suffering in motor physical retardation which is the existance of immense effort to sinply move and do the simplest things like eating brushing my teeth, doing simple chores, when i was of medication.
Also been addicted to Porn since i was 11years old i feel zero urges to watch and can sleep whenever i want also had sleeping problems another reason why i take the antidepressants.
I feel like OGSF is detoxing the pills a bit hence some of my consistent tiredness and ability to sleep at anytime, which i dont do but could lol.
Also i don't really like taking these i only do it since beginning of February again first time i quit after 1 month because i thought id be good without them but then lethargy came back again and i recommitted to take them for 6-9 months as the psychiatrist suggested it would signal my brain more optimal neurotransmitter levels to have that it will after the time period of taking them then better keep.
And as i will to try whatever it takes to make myself able to realise my potential, i took them but wow the subliminals you create are a thing of pure genius hopefully you get a Noble price for them one day and if not/achieve all the beautiful things in life you may want.
I am on day 3 i have no anxiety i feel comfortable in my own skin not in a 24/7 fight or flight mode.
I feel like a child again in some sense not weighed down by fear insecurities and shame but instead set free to explore life looking forward to whats to come.
And to say it again its only day fuckiiiiing 3.
Sorry for the profanity but in gods name i have tears in my eyes writing this.
Anyway i am deeply grateful @Shannon.
Insane value you provide here.
Kindest of all Regards
Baya
