Subliminal Talk

Hmm. Today the sweet responder from above tried to shit-test (after showing off her legs to me all day long), and I responded rather unpleasantly (it actually kinda reminded me of how I'd respond to shit-tests back when I had no clue what a shit-test even was - I just treated them as lack of respect, and responded accordingly), lol. Also, I was friggin' tired of the cockblocky guy's bullshit and lame attempts at so-called AMOGing.

Tour's over, I'm back home, thinking "screw this" and increasing the number of loops of DMSI ver. B to 4. Listening to them now.

Let's see how they like dem apples, lol.

There are two options concerning cockblocking competitors that I have been contemplating for 3.3/3.4, and they are:

1. Cause cockblockers to go away/be repelled/stop them.
2. Cause them to reverse course and try to help you get the affected.

I am oftentimes able to achieve the repellant effect on my own, but it might be due to me being intimidating (them "alpha boys" are so cute when they're scared, lol) - then again, this does not prevent competitors from trying to cause trouble behind your back, or try running some sort of sneaky PUA game (this actually happened the evening I met the aristocrat - fortunately, the guy in question was a moron instead of a trained cognitivist so he completely misread the girl's personality and thus his NLP efforts failed miserably), which can be even more annoying.

Should the other option be feasible, now that would be something.

Still, it's sometimes fun to watch how guys go bonkers whenever an attractive female starts practicing her natural seduction game + becomes sexually aroused through the DMSI aura. Annoying, but fun nonetheless.

Heh. Ran into my sweet little aristocrat today; as far as I can tell, she's now thinking I'm going to pursue like crazy.

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.



Liking 4 loops right now. Starting my listening of them for the day.

EDIT: Also, one very good looking woman on the subway today got apparently so turned on by my presence that she was unable to keep her feet on the ground. I've seen the "legs shaking, hand between thighs" thing quite often since about ver. 3.1, but nothing like that.

Afterwards, she kinda stalked me to the store.

I really like this program. Did I already say I really like this program? I guess I might have.

Boy do I feel weird today.

In certain parts, physically, I feel great and light - definitely morphine-drip like effects.

In others, I feel terrible and sad. Also there's something wonky going on with my spine, especially lower back.

Today's break day, resuming tomorrow in the evening/night.

I kinda got further annoyed and did 8 loops of ver. B two nights in a row. There's a good chance that 4 loops at the volume I was using might have been interpreted by my subC as too much pressure - I lowered the volume back down to -30dB on 8 loops and am not noticing anything untoward. Noticing progress, running into and being interacted with by very nice women these past two days, with some being very obviously into me. Also my celebrity effect is becoming really, really strong as far as I can tell.

I believe I kinda needed to break through some things, as I was noticing definite fear-based feedback to the fact that things are progressing the way they are (as in - very well, as far as I can tell!). I'd rather not allow myself to get cold feet once again. Never fucking again - that was hell.

I don't think that 8 loops is going to be viable for me long term, but I might try to keep that number until Sunday. Afterwards, I'm back on tour, so... even 4 loops might be a stretch. We'll see. I'll be doing 2 loops at the very least while on tour.

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Also, I'm finding myself listening to the Bond-flick song "You know my name" by Chris Cornell quite a bit recently. Also Nevermore's cover of Judas Priest's "Love bites". Interesting.

(05-30-2018, 01:18 PM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]Also, I'm finding myself listening to the Bond-flick song "You know my name" by Chris Cornell quite a bit recently.

I love that song!

Some interesting developments internally, plus a further trickle of developments externally (f. in. further chance encounters with attractive women I know, who appeared to be very glad to see me - one last night, and one about an hour ago ). I do not believe that 8 loops is going to be necessary for me to keep on executing, but still - I think I'll stick it out with this number until the end of the week to see what's what, and afterwards I'll be doing 2-4 loops, while trying to maintain 4.

I've noticed that whenever I believe myself to be executing the auric parts of the script, I'm drawn to two songs: Santana's "Smooth" and Marc Anthony's "I need to know", of all things. The latter one is especially on point, lyrics-wise, hahaha.

Oh, by the by, I am now of the opinion that a return of the auric shielding module would be most welcome in ver. 3.3, if possible.

Unfortunately, making people feel insecure and/or resentful just by your presence attracts bad vibes from a certain kind of person (mostly narcissists, but also people who are simply envious). The further I'm along on the way of developing maximum sexual irresistibility, the less of an impact this has, but still - it's always a nuisance, and detracts internal resources and energy from executing the script to detoxifying and warding off the malice of others.

(06-01-2018, 12:43 PM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]Oh, by the by, I am now of the opinion that a return of the auric shielding module would be most welcome in ver. 3.3, if possible.

Unfortunately, making people feel insecure and/or resentful just by your presence attracts bad vibes from a certain kind of person (mostly narcissists, but also people who are simply envious). The further I'm along on the way of developing maximum sexual irresistibility, the less of an impact this has, but still - it's always a nuisance, and detracts internal resources and energy from executing the script to detoxifying and warding off the malice of others.

Agreed.

Gonna stick it out with my plan to run 8 loops until, and including, Sunday. Listening to my loops for the day now.

I am getting sensation indicating execution of the script, while at the same time I'm really angry and sometimes sad. There's something going on in my heart yet again (this probably has not been yet resolved fully, I believe) - it's not as heavy a sinking feeling as it was, but still. I find myself extremely annoyed with the way things are, compared to what I know to be possible - and the best option for everyone involved.

Hopefully this indicates that I am on the verge of a serious breakthrough.

I do believe some stuff has broken through. Now there's something going on in my kidneys, and sometimes in my penis (lol).

Hey, we're almost at full-body clearing now!

Trouble is, the "psychic attacks" are becoming such a nuisance that in certain cases I am on the brink of retaliation (and nobody wants *me* to retaliate, trust me on that). I'll try to withhold from doing so, but still. It's like certain people are doing their damnedest to force my hand.

The sad thing is is that I'm getting resentment vibes from certain responders, too - apparently, they're annoyed I'm not pursuing (here's looking at you, sweet little aristocrat, lol). It is probably why a retaliatory auric shielding module would bring about wonky results.

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Oh, unfortunately I won't be able to do 8 loops tonight as planned, because I have to get up very early in the morning and simply will not have the time. So I'll do 4 loops tonight, and then see how much time I'll have while on tour.

OK, I think I'll somehow manage to fit in 8 loops today - trouble is, I'm gonna have to start right now. So kinda not optimal, processing-wise, but still. Let's see what happens.

BTW. got a message this morning from some girl for whom I've been doing some language work in recent times, and she's asked me to meet her in July, on a set date and at a set time (being very specific about this for some reason, lol) in order to thank me for all my help (even though she's been paying me potato), and then followed with a picture showing off her legs (the legs not being the pic's focus, but being there anyway, lol). Seems odd enough to report upon.

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Also, can't stop listening to Divinyl's "I touch myself" song today for some reason, lol.

Fell asleep while listening to my loops (still going with them, btw., am on the third) and had a interesting dream with some pretty obvious symbolism. It was not "David-Lynch" like, so I'll describe its part:

I was walking around my school, the building where I went to both to primary school and the potato equivalent of, I believe, junior high, doing something (I forget what), when suddenly I had this realization: "I am scared of the fog" (there was no fog), and actually experienced fear - not great enough to boost me out of the dream, though. I decided to go inside the school and look for my junior high Polish teacher, found her, asked: "I have a stupid question - what's the symbolism behind fog?", to which she responded: "That's so obvious it's funny", after which I ran out of the buliding, asked the nearest person (there were a lot of people in and around the school, interestingly enough) "Where's the fog?", he pointed the direction, I went over yonder looking for it, entered something resembling a snowy blizzard, thought to myself: "My inner fire can dissolve all fog and snow", the fog and snow started melting away, and as I went deeper into the fog I found a very attractive woman, who kinda looked like my ex's older sister (lol), she smiled and said "my sister must never learn", then we kissed and I woke up.

Lol.

I actually googled "fog - dream symbolism" right after waking up, hahaha.

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Also, as far as I remember from the dream, I was actually actively searching out for the deepest fog I could find, heh.