Subliminal Talk

I'll be honest, I'm growing kinda tired of the healing process (WAAAAAY too much introspection even by my standards for too long a time), and am considering switching to ver. B next 2ndary ASRB session at the same number of loops and volume settings (so 9, pretty high, Ocean Surf hybrid).

I'm also considering pushing through another week of ver. A, and then switching back to B. I'll see about that come Thursday. I'll probably do that, as I'm probably going to be finishing up the femporn novel translation, and ver. B always makes me antsy to go seek out some action.

This might be somewhat related to the fact that I've been spending most of my days recently at home, working on the translation job. Fortunately I'm pretty close to finishing it.

Apart from a lot introspective healing-related stuff (for some reason I'm having lots of career-related thoughts lately) and by now par-for-the-course reactions and IOIs, I've nothing too interesting to report this past week.

Crap.

A pretty good friend/colleague of mine (one who's never actually tried to actively dick me over, which says a lot in my corner of the showbiz) decided to try and attempt suicide. I knew the guy had some sort of neurosis which ended up in depression, and was taking medication for it, so I'm not really that surprised, but still it kinda came out of the left field, as these thing tend to when they're serious. Fortunately, he's okay and is currently at a psychiatric ward for observation (he'll probably stay there for a month at least - it's legally mandated over here after a genuine suicide attempt that he can be committed this long). He contacted me to tell me about it, so I'll be finishing up this translation job I've got (2 more days should be enough, I'm in the home stretch) and then I'll go and visit him.

Trouble is, I'm a bit worried about visiting a psychiatric ward while going full-blast with DMSI. My presence is extremely strong when I'm using it, and there may be numerous people there who are *extremely* sensitive to energies, etc. Any thoughts, dear readers and perhaps Shannon? Or any personal experience with a similar situation (i. e. DMSI and a psychiatric ward, lol)?

I've been on it a long time.

My brother has Schizophrenia, very bad for a long time. He's been in and out of wards over time. Unfortunate reality of it.

I've gone often, and have had zero issues at all. Nothing to worry about. Normal interactions.

The new US/LM is going to be most probably the first sub I'm going to use after DMSI reaches its Final version and I've used it to my heart's content, lol. I'll probably purchase it after I cash in on the porn novel (finished with the translation, now using the time remaining until the deadline for editing/polishing, so pretty much mop-up).

By the by, I've elected to now go for the switcharoo until instructed to take a break, so I'm now doing ver. B, 9 loops. Afterwards, I'll do either one or two weeks ver. A, 9 loops. Not noticing anything that would indicate debilitating fear. I'm getting *TONS* of dreams, and they're rather vivid and to the point, and not crazy-scary stuff. Still, I do sometimes wake from them with a start (so that would imply that at some level whatever is going on in them scares me. I'm also noticing an increased need for sleep.

Trouble is, August is not going to be a good month for me as far as doing the 9 loops consistently is concerned due to professional commitments (fat chance that I'm going to get 9 hours to sleep, let alone listen to the loops concurrently, lol) and some traveling. Still, I'm going to do 9 loops whenever possible. Otherwise, I'll be doing at least 2 loops.

Kinda liking 9 loops B so far.

Two funny things I noticed: I sometimes get very *itchy* while I'm listening to them. It comes and it goes. Probably somethings going on under the hood, and it's having this particular effect. Nothing unbearable, though.

Also, my stomach is acting up at times - I either get the "morphine drip" effect in it, sometimes strongly throughout the day, or I feel like I've just eaten something bad and it's getting digested, burping included, lol. So something's going on in that area now.

My heart and liver are feeling quite fine now. Gonna be around people and females way more this month, as I've just finished the porn novel translation (still some minor touches here and there to go, but I'm going to fix 'em up once it gets back to me from the editor), and I'm pretty happy about that.

All in all, 9 loops B are feeling pretty good right now, I'm not noticing anything that would indicate debillitating fear/resistance responses.

Only managed to fit in one loop ver. B these past two days, but am getting back to 9 tonight.

Finally had some free time, went to a rock festival for two days, had fun. Back to the grind from tomorrow.

Huh, seems like I missed the lowered initial price of UM/OP. The program seems interesting, I'll probably end up running it sooner or later, perhaps maybe even before US/LM. Or after! So many 5.5g programs, ahhh.

Yup. Went back to my 'ol stomping grounds to practice singing a bit (I've not touched my voice, so to speak, in a month, and I've got a show coming up), got approached by a very attractive young woman who pretty much said I can ask her out whenever. I think I'll do it to, lol, why the hell not.

She appeared and approached even though the place was totally empty, and she had no actual business being there - she simply wanted to visit her 'ol stomping grounds, too, heh.

(08-05-2018, 12:42 PM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]Yup. Went back to my 'ol stomping grounds to practice singing a bit (I've not touched my voice, so to speak, in a month, and I've got a show coming up), got approached by a very attractive young woman who pretty much said I can ask her out whenever. I think I'll do it to, lol, why the hell not.

She appeared and approached even though the place was totally empty, and she had no actual business being there - she simply wanted to visit her 'ol stomping grounds, too, heh.

Get it in, and I think we can stamp "manifestation!" on this one!

(08-05-2018, 06:51 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(08-05-2018, 12:42 PM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]Yup. Went back to my 'ol stomping grounds to practice singing a bit (I've not touched my voice, so to speak, in a month, and I've got a show coming up), got approached by a very attractive young woman who pretty much said I can ask her out whenever. I think I'll do it to, lol, why the hell not.

She appeared and approached even though the place was totally empty, and she had no actual business being there - she simply wanted to visit her 'ol stomping grounds, too, heh.

Get it in, and I think we can stamp "manifestation!" on this one!

Dunno. Maybe. Perhaps not exactly a manifestation, but the "create opportunities with interested parties" module which I think is in DMSI.

Thing is, I've known this girl before. IIRC, she's even approached me once or twice pre-DMSI to chat, but I didn't do anything as I was in a committed relationship at the time. She's never laid it out like this before, though, heh. Them girls are getting more and more direct, that's for sure.

(08-05-2018, 07:18 PM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]

(08-05-2018, 06:51 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(08-05-2018, 12:42 PM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]Yup. Went back to my 'ol stomping grounds to practice singing a bit (I've not touched my voice, so to speak, in a month, and I've got a show coming up), got approached by a very attractive young woman who pretty much said I can ask her out whenever. I think I'll do it to, lol, why the hell not.

She appeared and approached even though the place was totally empty, and she had no actual business being there - she simply wanted to visit her 'ol stomping grounds, too, heh.

Get it in, and I think we can stamp "manifestation!" on this one!

Dunno. Maybe. Perhaps not exactly a manifestation, but the "create opportunities with interested parties" module which I think is in DMSI.

Thing is, I've known this girl before. IIRC, she's even approached me once or twice pre-DMSI to chat, but I didn't do anything as I was in a committed relationship at the time. She's never laid it out like this before, though, heh. Them girls are getting more and more direct, that's for sure.

Exciting! I can’t wait for this kind of stuff.

Hmm. The itchy sensations are getting stronger. They're only occurring while I'm actively listening to the subliminal, or at least I do not notice them otherwise.

I don't really know what that may be. Perhaps some sort of "whatever I'm doing is making me uncomfortable and itchy" reaction, mayhap something to do with energy flooding, or perhaps some changes actively going on which are doing something to my nervous system physically and result in this sensation.

Physical hunger is increasing, too, noticeably. Gonna have to eat more, I guess.

Probably gonna have to cut down to 7 loops over the next week. I simply won't be even at home long enough most days to listen to the sub for 9 (9 loops ver. B is, in total, 10,5hrs). Oh, well.

Crap, I'm physically tired after the rehearsals today and I've got a quickie translation job to do now, too. I don't know whether I'll manage to do 7 loops even, but I'll try.

Because otherwise DMSI stuff is going pretty frickin' well.

Managed to do 7 yesterday, will probably manage another 7 today and tomorrow, afterward's it's break day. DMSI stuff is going well, but I'm tired due to work.