07-19-2017, 08:17 PM
07-19-2017, 08:17 PM
07-19-2017, 09:28 PM
Looks like OF-5G is still working on Sexual Healing or something.
Yesterday I opened up porn and I couldn't watch its for more than 15 sec. It was all so fake. Shouting for no reason and doing stuff for no reason.. Infact when usually people have sex then they have this expressions on face as if they are loosing touch with reality and being sunked into the realms of pleasure.. But in Porn it looks like they are doing "Homework". Boring and fake.. Disgusting.
Instead for past 20 days my think has changed so much that I prefer girls in reality. I was dropping my father for work and when I was returning home,i didn't came across any attractive women. But I saw one girl and she must have been about 20-23 with a sexy body and the first thought that came to my mind was that "I would love to strip her cloths piece by piece while foreplaying with her. There is something amazing about that". My first thought wasn't to see her boobs immediately or fuck her immediately but slowly do stuff which would make her crazy and she would beg me to release her from her sexual prison and I would fuck her out once she submits herself to me.
It's like the sexual beast within me is waking up slowly and know what to do to make them crazy
Yesterday I opened up porn and I couldn't watch its for more than 15 sec. It was all so fake. Shouting for no reason and doing stuff for no reason.. Infact when usually people have sex then they have this expressions on face as if they are loosing touch with reality and being sunked into the realms of pleasure.. But in Porn it looks like they are doing "Homework". Boring and fake.. Disgusting.
Instead for past 20 days my think has changed so much that I prefer girls in reality. I was dropping my father for work and when I was returning home,i didn't came across any attractive women. But I saw one girl and she must have been about 20-23 with a sexy body and the first thought that came to my mind was that "I would love to strip her cloths piece by piece while foreplaying with her. There is something amazing about that". My first thought wasn't to see her boobs immediately or fuck her immediately but slowly do stuff which would make her crazy and she would beg me to release her from her sexual prison and I would fuck her out once she submits herself to me.
It's like the sexual beast within me is waking up slowly and know what to do to make them crazy
07-20-2017, 04:47 AM
Okay I think I have reached a point where I need to stop listening to OF-5G because it has removed the barriers of sexual fear and for past 20 days In a 3 month run. I have been only focused on sexting girls and chatting with girls for past 20 days and if I don't really stop this then I might end up raping someone..
Since I don't have any healthy habits right now so the sexual energy is only getting out of my dick and I guess it's time that I use MLS-5.5G and create new habits so that I can channel that energy to otherwise areas of life.. As long as DMSI exist girls arnt going anywhere.. Time to stop fucking myself and start fucking this world.
I am thinking of giving MLS-5.5G a long run. If things go as I imagined it would be be then MLS 5.5G gets a long run. Cause I read that when using MLS people are less focused on girls and stuff and more focused on learning and I really need this.
BTW girls are still texting me for sexting and asking me to suck boobs and stuff.. Some r into foreplay and some r into harder stuff.. But I can manage both. But that's enough for now
Since I don't have any healthy habits right now so the sexual energy is only getting out of my dick and I guess it's time that I use MLS-5.5G and create new habits so that I can channel that energy to otherwise areas of life.. As long as DMSI exist girls arnt going anywhere.. Time to stop fucking myself and start fucking this world.
I am thinking of giving MLS-5.5G a long run. If things go as I imagined it would be be then MLS 5.5G gets a long run. Cause I read that when using MLS people are less focused on girls and stuff and more focused on learning and I really need this.
BTW girls are still texting me for sexting and asking me to suck boobs and stuff.. Some r into foreplay and some r into harder stuff.. But I can manage both. But that's enough for now
07-20-2017, 06:59 PM
Sometimes I wonder if OF-5G unleashed my sexual fears due to which all of this happening.. Then I wonder what will DMSI do?
I really hope I don't become the next Dzemoo. Cause my family rule 4 type and rule 4 matters me on some level.
If I run DMSI 6G in future then I am sure there will be a huge conflict in my subconscious between Rule 4 and DMSI.... I am kinda scared if u ask me. After discovering who I really am after running OF-5G.
I was Addicted to Masturbation and Softcore Pornography...The amount of guilt and shame I would feel after fapping was huge that I would be lifeless for 3-4 days. But after using OF-5G for 3 month. If I fap then it hardly effects me and porn seems fake..
So I tried Stop Masturbation sub for stopping my Masturbation but in made me fap like crazy cause of resistance. I asked Shannon and he told me I have a lot of fears related to sex and women... He was so damn right. Cause After using it Women wanna become my fuck buddies. They send me their pic and all. I don't have any female friends in real life cause I home all day. I can tell you if I step out and made some female friends.. They would suck the life out of me. I can see how few of them respond... The only reason I used OF-5G so that I can remove fears and then SM-4G will work on me... But I guess that's plan is out of the window as during my journey I found out that I need to express this energy in other's form and it can't be suppressed.... I have no Idea what I am going to do next.. I am going with the flow.. Weather I use SM-4G in future or DMSI... Is undecided. Right now I need to learn how to learn all other shit by using MLS-5.5G...
I really hope I don't become the next Dzemoo. Cause my family rule 4 type and rule 4 matters me on some level.
If I run DMSI 6G in future then I am sure there will be a huge conflict in my subconscious between Rule 4 and DMSI.... I am kinda scared if u ask me. After discovering who I really am after running OF-5G.
I was Addicted to Masturbation and Softcore Pornography...The amount of guilt and shame I would feel after fapping was huge that I would be lifeless for 3-4 days. But after using OF-5G for 3 month. If I fap then it hardly effects me and porn seems fake..
So I tried Stop Masturbation sub for stopping my Masturbation but in made me fap like crazy cause of resistance. I asked Shannon and he told me I have a lot of fears related to sex and women... He was so damn right. Cause After using it Women wanna become my fuck buddies. They send me their pic and all. I don't have any female friends in real life cause I home all day. I can tell you if I step out and made some female friends.. They would suck the life out of me. I can see how few of them respond... The only reason I used OF-5G so that I can remove fears and then SM-4G will work on me... But I guess that's plan is out of the window as during my journey I found out that I need to express this energy in other's form and it can't be suppressed.... I have no Idea what I am going to do next.. I am going with the flow.. Weather I use SM-4G in future or DMSI... Is undecided. Right now I need to learn how to learn all other shit by using MLS-5.5G...
07-21-2017, 01:30 AM
I'm pretty sure you know rule 4 by now Zane.. yet you still write it.
09-19-2017, 08:25 PM
Kinda hard to believe I typed all that before using MLS-5.5G. Lol
10-20-2017, 01:15 AM
Hey Zane, now a couple months later and off the sub - how important and effective would rate it? Didn't see a testimonial in your testimonials thread.