Day 23 5:58 am
Been up all night and all of a sudden idk I had intense thoughts of buying MHS 5.5G. I know this some kind of resistance but I am not feeling anxiety right now. ..Well its just a thought and after maybe a day it won't bother me any more.
7:45 pm
My Attitude right now towards life : Fuck me all u want. . I don't care, I am already fucked up..
9:53 pm
I am still having thoughts for changing subs.. but I can deal with it.. I guess the sub is starting to do its real job now... Now the days really counts.
Day 24
Feeling Low..
For past 2-3 days I havnt been out of my house. I havnt seen the sun in 3 days. I just stay in my room cause I am feeling comfortable here right now and its not that I am afraid of going out its just that I dont want to, maybe its some kind of healing going on at emotional level. I am comfortable in my own skin.
Also my family is watching alot of "Horror Movies"...lol whats with that. I always expected to have movies related to death but i haven't seen any related to that.
Changing urself does take time but it's worth the wait and effort
Day 26
Well I was having a lot of thoughts of buying and changing subs..I guess it's some form of anxiety or something.
Sometimes reading post of "MHS 5.5G", "E2" and upcoming "MLS 5.5G"..Makes me want to hurry which causes confusion .. But I have learnt that doing so will not get me anywhere. It's not like IML is going anywhere... So what do I have to lose?
The only thing that matters is that I run my subs properly and for a recommended time. Temptations will come and go but I must keep doing what I am supposed to do and that is to listen sub.
I switched to OF-5G. Its so powerful and working much faster. I can feel its effect.
Day 32
Well I am gonna try my best to remember how I feel right now cause its really hard to describe..
I havnt taken Librium(Anxiety Drug) since day 22 before that I took it regularly when I first started the sub.
I am not that stressed anymore...
I am easily able to speak my mind.Before that I had hard time searching and thinking what to say and how to say.
I am not feeling that much depressed anymore.
I somewhat feel free.
Day 36
I still suffer from Social Anxiety,well I wont call it social anxiety as I am willing to go outside,Its just that I avoid meeting certain people. I really dont know why. Maybe its because I have acne scars and dont want to face people due to it or is it the other way around ? God Knows.
Day 2 of Nofap and I relapsed few moments ago and I dont feel that much tired or lazy like I used to feel before I started this sub. Ever since I have started using this OF Sub relapses dont seem to affect me anymore,I am still active and somewhat high even after that(BTW I dont watch Porn). Maybe this how normal people feel who are not addicted to masturbation. I guess this is why some people lifes are not affected by fapping,Its all subconscious stuff.
Day 37
I was having anxious thoughts of changing subs. These thoughts make me feel bad and somewhat depressed which triggers me to change subs as I desperately want to change my life Asap.
Since I have switched to OF 5G a week ago,no wonder I am having anxious thoughts to change subs..This is a type of resistance which hits me usually when I start any sub.
So I was having these thoughts and I nearly changed the sub but then I remembered something. The only way to deal with this kind of resistance is that start taking my anxiety pills again i.e "Librium". I guess I will have to take these meds for about two weeks and then I will stop. Or maybe I will take them whenever I will have anxious thoughts...
Day 43
Willing to go outside and enjoying it.
Social Anxiety fading slowly.
Listening to Music. Alot
Losing interest in Movies and internet a little bit.
Reduced skin picking by 70%.
No reduction in fapping habits but fapping doesnt effect me that much.(BTW i use a technique call injaculation where u only orgasm but dont ejaculate, due to will I am not that tired anymore after fapping)
Motivation/Interest to Study is literally zero. I really dont even want to read a single page of my textbook. Its like I am taking a long break from studies. Just thinking about it makes me tired.Idk why is that. Or maybe I am mentally tired from all the years of stress which was triggered from fear..Idk what to blame Depression or ADHD
Whatever I think subs are the only way to give my cognitive abilities back.
Are you manually suppressing the ejaculation during orgasm?
(03-12-2017, 08:38 AM)Nox Wrote: [ -> ]Are you manually suppressing the ejaculation during orgasm?
Yep. Learned about this technique from "Mantak Chai" book. Its called "Million Dollar Point".
Day 50
Change of Plans.
My next sub after this would have been MHS 5.5G,but I read that Shannon is gonna start working on MLS 5.5G. So I am gonna start saving for MHS and MLS.
Meanwhile I am gonna start liatening to MLS 5G as soon as I hit day 60 or 90 with this sub. As I never got the chance to use it.
just a heads up zane, ive tried mls 5g; the results werent long lasting....but might be different for you.
(03-21-2017, 11:58 AM)destinedtochange Wrote: [ -> ]just a heads up zane, ive tried mls 5g; the results werent long lasting....but might be different for you.
Well I bought MLS-5G for my sister and I have seen how she has totally transformed after using it for about 3 months.
I tried MLS 5G for only 15 days but resistance took over and I stopped listening to it. I am 100% sure that resistance was triggered from fear and I am pretty sure that after completing my 60 day run of (OF5G) my results will be pretty be much different.
Here is my plan:
Shannon might start working on MLS 5.5 G by the end of March.
It might take him about two weeks to complete making the sub.
Then he might test the sub on himself for about a week or two.
After he releases the sub people are gonna buy it and I will watch their progress for about a month.
If their result a good then I will buy the sub and if not then I will still buy the sub...lool
The reason I wanna wait for a month because I wanna see how people respond to MLS 5.5G and track their progress and experiences .So that when I use the sub that I will know what to expect from this sub.
Meanwhile I will listen to MLS 5G ....some plan huh?
