Some reason I choose to believe that all this sexual healing and female attraction stuff is happening due to OF-5G and not TID effects of DMSI. I have my reasons cause if I dont I might loose interest and my subliminal plan will be three out of the window.
So a little update:
For few days my sex drive sky rocketed and it usually won't have if it wasn't all for pic exchange and sexting. Infact 12 days ago I wont even have imagined getting a girl.. Let alone sexting. I have multiple girls trying to just PM for no reason at all and it was getting out of control. So I chose one girl who I think is perfect for me. She is totally into me.
So we start talking and I expressed her my feelings and then I realized that I dont want to submit myself. So today I have decided to go back to my dominant mode as I was a week ago aa as were pouring themselves onto me..
Also the pain I feel when I was trying to fap in my head and back or my neck seema to have reduced but pain in stomach still remains. I hope I heal myself sexually and then I can run SM-4G as.. Not fapping makes me go into beast mode.. I feel like a hungry Beast specially when it comes to girls. I say stuff and they fell for it..
Also its kinda funny how I can convince myself to stop myself. I mean I feel mu willpower growing. I can learn from my mistakes and not repeat them. For example yesterday I realized that I was falling in love with this girl who I chat with. I started noticing that she started to disrespect me. I mean she saw stuff one or two-time. I then told her that I will be back after dinner and then ever since then I haven't been thinking about her anymore cause I realised that I dont want to become a Beta. I am not Alpha either. But I wont become the lowest form of beta which I was 1 year ago in a relationship and it made me pathetic.. . Its nice to control urself when u want to especially in relationships where u want to be Dominant and if u cant be dominant then dont be submissive either.
Idk whats happening but I dont feel like talking to anyone.
(07-14-2017, 08:47 AM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]Some reason I choose to believe that all this sexual healing and female attraction stuff is happening due to OF-5G and not TID effects of DMSI. I have my reasons cause if I dont I might loose interest and my subliminal plan will be three out of the window.
So a little update:
For few days my sex drive sky rocketed and it usually won't have if it wasn't all for pic exchange and sexting. Infact 12 days ago I wont even have imagined getting a girl.. Let alone sexting. I have multiple girls trying to just PM for no reason at all and it was getting out of control. So I chose one girl who I think is perfect for me. She is totally into me.
So we start talking and I expressed her my feelings and then I realized that I dont want to submit myself. So today I have decided to go back to my dominant mode as I was a week ago aa as were pouring themselves onto me..
Also the pain I feel when I was trying to fap in my head and back or my neck seema to have reduced but pain in stomach still remains. I hope I heal myself sexually and then I can run SM-4G as.. Not fapping makes me go into beast mode.. I feel like a hungry Beast specially when it comes to girls. I say stuff and they fell for it..
I also have to stomach paining. Is it anyway relate with overcoming the fear?
One change I noticing last couple of days are during eating I take care of chewing them properly. Before I was just hurrying during eating anything and ate them without chewing them properly.
(07-14-2017, 09:55 PM)mojamhaque Wrote: [ -> ] (07-14-2017, 08:47 AM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]Some reason I choose to believe that all this sexual healing and female attraction stuff is happening due to OF-5G and not TID effects of DMSI. I have my reasons cause if I dont I might loose interest and my subliminal plan will be three out of the window.
So a little update:
For few days my sex drive sky rocketed and it usually won't have if it wasn't all for pic exchange and sexting. Infact 12 days ago I wont even have imagined getting a girl.. Let alone sexting. I have multiple girls trying to just PM for no reason at all and it was getting out of control. So I chose one girl who I think is perfect for me. She is totally into me.
So we start talking and I expressed her my feelings and then I realized that I dont want to submit myself. So today I have decided to go back to my dominant mode as I was a week ago aa as were pouring themselves onto me..
Also the pain I feel when I was trying to fap in my head and back or my neck seema to have reduced but pain in stomach still remains. I hope I heal myself sexually and then I can run SM-4G as.. Not fapping makes me go into beast mode.. I feel like a hungry Beast specially when it comes to girls. I say stuff and they fell for it..
I also have to stomach paining. Is it anyway relate with overcoming the fear?
I am pretty sure it is. I guess some negative emotions are being released and after getting rid of them maybe I will feel different. Lets see what happens.
I am getting all sad and depressed by things related to sex.. Like Casual Sex and Many more stuff. I guess OF-5G is still working on Sexual Fear, Guilt. I dont feel lile talking to anyone right now. Neither in real life nor on internet. But I know its a progress.
Looks like Sex drive is going back to normal. Attraction from girls still remains. Yet they think I am a player and a cheater.. Uet they wanna talk to me
I really hope MLS-5.5G can come out this week. I really want to keep myself busy learning stuff. This bordem is eating me alive. Also OF-5G has removed my fear based motivation to study.... Now its time for a run of MLS-5.5G for creating an interest based motivation... Like One does with a kid.
30 day run of MLS-5.5G will do the Job and after that I will jump on OF-5G again and will run it till november
(07-16-2017, 01:46 AM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]I really hope MLS-5.5G can come out this week. I really want to keep myself busy learning stuff. This bordem is eating me alive. Also OF-5G has removed my fear based motivation to study.... Now its time for a run of MLS-5.5G for creating an interest based motivation... Like One does with a kid.
30 day run of MLS-5.5G will do the Job and after that I will jump on OF-5G again and will run it till november
I feel lack of motivation in study. Hope this will recovered by using MLS 5.5G. I will use MLS 5.5G after 3 months usage of E2. In that case I will have an option to observe your result of MLS 5.5G before purchase it
After 03 months use of E2 I will move to MLS 5.5G and will continue for 03 months as I have to complete a lot of subjects for preparing my interview. Right now I am in huge pressure.. my job condition is not so good. Also my study condition is very bad... fears to becoming jobless and fall in financial crisis just killing me. Please keep me in your pray so that I can success in my career also successfully remove all my fears and phobias as well as improve my learning speed. Take care
Sex Drive has hit rock bottom or maybe I am able to control it much better. Porn doesn't doesn't feel appealing to me anymore. Instead I am more interested in learning the art of seduction and Foreplay. Another reason I need MLS-5.5G. Not that I have a gf in real life. But it does come in handy when u r sexting.. Just love to excite girls by using words alone is fun and it makes them go crazy..
Update : Idk whats going on. I am feeling that its no ise running behind girls. I means what will I gain by it. Alao I just masturbated and I felt like nothing. Then I did it again and did feel everything. Idk why it wasn't good at first but I guess my Masturbation addiction is somewhat being worked on. This month OF-5G is totally focused on Sexual healing
I am going to start a conscious training for overcome fear which is as follows-
+. Write down all my fears into paper with details description
+. Analyze why and when they came into my mind
+. Cut all those written papers into small pieces
+. Finally burn those pieces of papers and realize that all my fears are now burned and I have no more fears.
Hope it will help me. After approval of Shannon I will start it
I am no mood to masturbate but yet I do cause of few triggers. I just do it to get rid of the urges that disturbing my peace of mind.
Overall I am not interested in anything right now.. Ibdont even wanna talk to girls on whatsapp or chatroom. But they still try their best to reach me..
http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-8313-p...#pid174408
I am having stomach ache but it's burning type... Fear being released? Also I sense movements
(07-19-2017, 06:56 PM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]I am having stomach ache but it's burning type... Fear being released? Also I sense movements
Possible vindaloo instead? lol