Day 58
I am starting to wonder if I should listen to this sub for few more days? BTW I am still dying to use MLS-5G
Recently I am having this Fear of people in authority comeback. This happened in last 5 days. I guess I should wait another 2 days before making any decision.
Day 60
I planned on listening to this sub for about 90 days but I think as for now its enough.As this my second 5G subliminal. First was a LTU.
This sub is awesome helped me overcome most of the fear. As I was nearing days 60 I started having dreams realated to Guilt and Shame so I am pretty sure that If I do this sub for another 2-3 months then I would have also overcome my Guilt and shame totally. I remember Shannon saying that Guilt and shame are also tied to fear i.e fear of releasing guilt and fear of releasing shame.
Overcoming ur fear does not mean u will gain confidence. When u Go thru ur fears several times only then will u gain confidence.
I have very low confidence thats because for past 9 years I have done nothing but fapping and watching porn/visualing. So I dont have any area in my life which I am good at. My goal is to study good and crack a competition.So that I can be successful in my career.
As I will gain success in my academic life I will start gaining confidence .
OF released from guilt and shame related to my academic life also. Also it also helped overcome Guilt shame and fear related to fapping. After fapping I would be tired for 4- 5 days due to guilt shame and before that fear of relapse. Now I dont tired that much and even if it does it lasts for an hours or so.
Yesterday I saw a girl wearing such a tight cloths that You see her nipples and could measure her figure.Its like she wore nothing at all..When i saw her,her image was in my mind on only conscious level and when I reached home I thought that the reason my mind is thinking of her consciously because i dont have anything else to worry about. So when u have no goal in life u r gonna get bored and will nothing but fap/or get addicted to useless stuff cause sexual energy will find its way.
Also I have noticed that my dick and PC muscles have become somewhat stronger as I dont experience precum after fapping anymore. So my guess is that fear can also decrease ur healing powers and weaken ur immune system. I still plan on using MHS 5.5G after MLS 5G
BTW I am sitting in a canteen and have been playing MLS 5G for 6 hours and a guy much older than me came and said" Good afternoon sir" he thought I was his teacher/professor..loool WTF...Fucking MLS!!!
Will now use MLS 5G for about 3 months. I have wanted to use this sub for so long but my subconscious was so resistive that it took me a year to fix and figure that out.Always wanted to learn things and finally I can.
Oh! Btw I used OF4G for 30 days and OF5G for another 30 days
Quote:Overcoming ur fear does not mean u will gain confidence.
That doesn't make any sense at all. Interpreting 'overcoming a fear' as dealing with it so you don't have it anymore, of course that means you don't have that thing in the way anymore.
(03-28-2017, 03:41 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Quote:Overcoming ur fear does not mean u will gain confidence.
That doesn't make any sense at all. Interpreting 'overcoming a fear' as dealing with it so you don't have it anymore, of course that means you don't have that thing in the way anymore.
Yeah u r right I guess I wasnt able to express it in proper manner..Thanks
In the End OF is a great Sub. Hope Shannon makes 5.5G version of it.
Well I am back after 3 days of using MLS 5G and I dont think I would want to use MLS 5G anymore. All I did while listening to MLS was watching stupid movies and I have wasted so much time that I stopped using MLS. I feel as if my brain is fried by watching movies continuously for past 3 days..
So I have decided to Start using OF -5G again and I plan on listening to it for about another 60 days. Id why I am so drawn to using this sub.It feels as if their is still more work to be done. Feeling hardly any resistance at all.
What I have noted by the things people do while using MLS 5G is that they are attempting to interpret the instructions in ways that allow them to execute the instructions, while defeating achieving thw goals of the program because of fear and/or resistance... which is based in fear.
Which will not be possible in the 5.5G version of MLS.
Day 68--Missed 3 Days
Well I have been running this sub and I hardly feel the urge to change the sub. Instead I feel the need to run this sub. Its like my subconscious has finally accepted to change itself. But something is bothering me.
While I was playing MLS I started to feel anxious again and I was kinda surprised me. Which makes me feel as if I need to run this sub longer. Technically if u calculate I have been running OF5G for about 35 days only. Hmmmm. Now that I think about it. I really need to run it much longer, like for another 60 days.
Good News is that I am finally taking some steps towards my career. I wont tell u what it is cause its kinda complicated and I wanna keep it a secret. Only Me and my parents know about it no one else knows about it not even my brothers and sister or relatives..
One thing I have noticed on this sub is that I have learned to keep my mouth shut. I mean beforw I would have revealed my goals and plans but now I dont. Its like when I keep it a secret then there is this motivation or something which drives me. If I tell other I w9nt be able to complete it..I often have to lie when other ask me what I am doing with my life...Even my whatsapp status is"Under Construction"..lol.
Some more things that I did during these past 68 days is that
I have stopped counting my days on nofap journey. I did this because I had this false belief that nofap was everything..Literally everything and if I relapse then I would loose everything but after running OF I realised that "Nofap is not everything but it is something" means that if I relapse then I actually didnt relapse. I just masturbated on my sexual urge. I just need to fill my time and find other ways to transmute my urges....But I dont even think about Transmuting it. I just focus on building my habits and everything will fall into place...I gotta believe in myself/universe/God...Before OF the thought or feeling of sexual urges would freak me out and I thought it was a bad thing. But that was a very destructive thinking...
Its like tell a child that he is very bad and making him feel bad on every level but expecting him to be Good...
How can a child grow up to be a good person when all his childhood he has accepted the belief that he is a Bad Guy?
Thats how sexual urges are...One must not say its bad or else its will be his doom..
Seriously I have learnt that dont let anyone or anything fucck ur emotions or else ur emotions will fuck u ur whole life...Our Emotions can be angel and devil ..It depends what we make them.
I seriously dont know where this faulty thinking of mine came from...None of my family member is like this..The are very open about sexual jokes and stuff but it was only me who was like this...Hmmmm...I sure was one weird kid.
Day 69
Slept late and woke up late at 2 pm and my bro or sis id remember suddenly told me that my cousins are coming and they arrived in like 15 mins and I wasnt afraid to face them but it was because of Shame. See I have acne scars and it has ruined my self esteem and it makes me very self conscious. I am just not able to face them.
I did a little experment and tried to talk to my cousins and the emotion I was feeling was Shame. I just wanted to hide my face . I kept looking in the mirror. But I tried my best to talk to them and I did but it was very short conversation. While I was talking to them I was hidding my right cheek so that they wont be able to see it. Still in the end one of my cousin asked about them and told me that he also sufferred from it at some time.
Few days ago I was taking Vita C tabs 1000mg daily and it did help alot but I am out of those now..so must buy and start taking those again...Damn these Scars.
Increased volume on my tab by "One" and when I woke up I felt as if I have some kind of brainfog.
good luck! how will you be listening and for how long please? share as this will help us all thanks
Idk man.. I am thinking of going back to MHS-5.5G.. Man its this type of resistance I hate.. where I have to change sub.. Dammit i am going back to MHS-5.5G.. For past 10 day I am jumping from one subliminal to another
You don't have to change subs. You have to stop changing subs, or you will never overcome the issue that makes you want to change subs!
So time for update
OF-5G 60 Days > MHS-5.5G 30 Days >OF-5G (Running)
I have been listening to it for a while and I seriously don't think that their is hardly any that I care about.
I don't fear what's gonna happen in future. I don't worry about my career and life anymore. I am not stressed about it.
Also, I hate wasting my time doing unproductive stuff but at the same time, I am not productive either.
Sometimes I take stimulants or stuff which makes me productive but it feels kinda fake.