It's been a week at 7 loops on my cell at night. I've decided to skip 6 and jump to 7 loops right away. Not much to report apart from a few observations. The positives. I have no problem falling asleep with the sub playing on my cell. FYI, I am playing the trickling stream hybrid. The negative is that after a few hours I'm awaken by these raging hard ons. The first night, I was awake for 2 hours fighting the urge to fap. The next nights I was so exhausted, that i had to rub one off just to be able to get some sleep. FYI, I don't have problems with masturbation during the day. This is one hole that will need to be plugged if fapping is shown to decrease the effectiveness of the sub.
Was walking yesterday at a very busy mall behind an Asian woman. She must have been 10 to 15 ft in front of me. She had a very short skirt on and as I was walking behind her my mind started to wander thinking about stuff I would do if I was alone with her. About 10 seconds later she slowed down and turned her head a looked straight at me. One eerie experience. I walked by her and kept on going. About five min later I felt my whole body vibrate, I took a look at my left and there she is, the Asian woman is walking right beside me. Before I could say or do anything she took off and entered a shoe store. She was behaving like someone who got caught with their hand in the cookie jar.
Been a while since I've last reported, Since the last update, went from 6 to 7 loops while on A to getting as much exposure time as I can possibly cram in one day. Here's are some notables.
At the food court, when ordering food got twice the food that I originally ordered. The clam shell box was so full that the cashier could not get the lid to properly close. A few approaches from women but nothing direct that would lead to you know what. One instance while at the self check out, the attendant (a tall brunette, an 8) who came over started chatting but for some reason could not steer the conversation to the direction it should go.
At work, increasing the number of loops, lead to polarizing responses. N is a petite brown skinned, if I had to guess, I would say Philippina who would never in the year she's been there give me a look. If I would cross her path in the hallway, she would give me this disdainful look as if I was beneath consideration. One day while in the kitchen, I broke the ice and started what turned out to be a very long conversation (30 min). Found out that she's married (I don't really care about the fact that she volunteered this info). Since then, every time we cross path, she very cheery and makes sure to greet me.
Got a very long longing gaze from a few women at the gym.
Switched to version B last week and kept the same loop regime. As a result getting some very ridiculous eye contact, which would amount in some cases what I believe to be eye f*ck*ng, from women. Walked by an outlet at the food court and locked eyes with a server, who looked down and smiled. GOTCHA!
A few days ago, while walking in the mall, spotted a mom (40's) and daughter combo (late teens) in the distance. Locked eyes with the mom, she turned her head the opposite direction, looked back at me and gave me a full body scan and kept starring at what i believe was my crotch and coyly smiled.
Yesterday, I was walking towards a woman who was window shopping at the mall. By her looks she's in her 40's in really tight shorts, which nicely outlined her bum. As I get near her she takes off, she's in front of me the whole time, she eventually goes into a store. I keep on walking and about five minutes later, she comes across from my left cuts in front of me, almost makes contact with me and my son and walks into another store.
In a nutshell, lots of hovering and IOI's but no direct approaches. Increasing the number of loops has definitely increased IOI's. However, I found myself at time alternating between fantasizing and completely being apathetic, which in some way is beneficial as I feel more outcome independent. Physically, I'm don't feel too tired from the increase in the listening regime. What I've found though is that the sub is pushing me to be the best that I can be in all aspect of my life. Going to the gym 5 to 6 times a week, to the point that I'm now considered a gym junkie. I'm getting ripped and lost tons of fat and women are certainly noticing.
My work environment is very female centric, no glass ceiling there. In my organization, women outnumber men in management at a ratio of 5 to 1 and most men in management are socially castrated. As a result, and unfortunately, there's a lot of drama there. I've realized over time that this has given me some advantages socially as there isn't a strong male presence at work. In their hind brains women crave that and If I play my cards right, there maybe rewards in the future. I don't take as much bull sh*t from the boss or anyone else for that matter and as a result, I'm getting more respect, being much more inspired and productive. That change in my life is the result of running DMSI and that alone my friends is worth the price that I've paid.
Don't know if there is such a thing as subconscious communication / telepathy, but I may have experienced the closest thing to it today at the gym. Went to the gym this afternoon and the place is completely deserted with me, a woman in her 40s and a teenage girl. In the middle of my workout I walk pass the woman to go to the washroom which are located at the end of a long hallway. As I'm taking a leak, I'm fantasizing hoping that the woman would knock on the door to get some. After two min, I leave the washroom, and head to the hallway. At the end, I see the woman in her leotard, presumably stretching, bent over with her ankles in her hands her a$$ facing me. The perfect butt presentation. As I get closer, I look at her face and she's got this devilish smile. As I walked pass her I felt the urge to slap her butt but I knew this would have probably got me in trouble. D**n DMSI
Hey man, i am curious about your internal changes on this sub, how your thinking, feeling and acting changes? I am thinking about buying the sub but mainly for the H&C module and the sex will be a bonus
Did you notice some difference in libido and performance in bed?
(08-19-2018, 02:01 PM)ianmarconi Wrote: [ -> ]Hey man, i am curious about your internal changes on this sub, how your thinking, feeling and acting changes? I am thinking about buying the sub but mainly for the H&C module and the sex will be a bonus
Did you notice some difference in libido and performance in bed?
Bear in mind that I've been running this sub in it's various incarnations for over two years. Internal changes: Increased confidence, self-assurance, self worth and inner peace. The inner results are paired with lots of reading about inter-gender relationships and internalizing this information. in this regard I highly recommend reading "The rationale male" by Rollo Tomassi.
As for libido it has definitely increased. Performance in bed? well for the times this year that I've had sex my wife this year. She hasn't complained. However, she's worried and this is a good thing, as she's more enthusiastic having sex with me as in the past she was quite passive about the whole thing with a "lets get it over with" attitude. All I can say is that running the sub has given me "options" in my wife head and has caused her to be more compliant and less argumentative after a year of turmoil as I was trying to get back at leading the relationship.
(08-19-2018, 05:05 PM)Snoop Wrote: [ -> ] (08-19-2018, 02:01 PM)ianmarconi Wrote: [ -> ]Hey man, i am curious about your internal changes on this sub, how your thinking, feeling and acting changes? I am thinking about buying the sub but mainly for the H&C module and the sex will be a bonus
Did you notice some difference in libido and performance in bed?
Bear in mind that I've been running this sub in it's various incarnations for over two years. Internal changes: Increased confidence, self-assurance, self worth and inner peace. The inner results are paired with lots of reading about inter-gender relationships and internalizing this information. in this regard I highly recommend reading "The rationale male" by Rollo Tomassi.
As for libido it has definitely increased. Performance in bed? well for the times this year that I've had sex my wife this year. She hasn't complained. However, she's worried and this is a good thing, as she's more enthusiastic having sex with me as in the past she was quite passive about the whole thing with a "lets get it over with" attitude. All I can say is that running the sub has given me "options" in my wife head and has caused her to be more compliant and less argumentative after a year of turmoil as I was trying to get back at leading the relationship.
Thank you!
A first. a male colleague at work commented on my physique. How muscular and fit I looked. Women are also commenting but broach the subject indirectly. They will say for example, you eat so healthy etc. I know I'm driving some of them nuts as I caught a few stealing glances more than once today. One quickly left the room I was in once I caught her looking.
Alright. Downloaded 3.3 yesterday. Set up a playlist on my phone to run five loops before I went to bed. Woke up this morning to the sound to trickling stream so obviously I got a few more loops in than the prescribed number. Earlier this morning at the bank the teller told me as I was leaving that her "Saturdays would not be the same if I did not show up". Went to the gym this afternoon on a empty stomach. Not much happened there. Went to the mall afterwards and ate a slice of pizza. As soon as I was done, the "morphine drip" kicks in and I'm radiating. As I went about the rest of my day got some solid eye contact with about 5 or 6 ladies, with some of them lingering in my vicinity as I was going about my business. The FRM seems to be doing its thing as I did not feel any anxiety at all. But I will wait for a longer testing period to confirm. With such a small sample size, it would be premature to declare victory over my fears. Went to Walmart tonight and as the cashier was handing the receipt she looked at me, blushed and could not utter a single word and only managed to faintly says something that was unintelligible.
I did not update frequently while on 3.2 as I did not want to sound like a broken record. In addition I was really busy at work. However, as I reading through my notes, there were a few notables which I will try to update on tomorrow.
EDIT: I don't know if this is in the programming. But I forgot to mention this but as I was going about my day sex was on my mind and a lot.
Here are some notables from the last time I updated while on 3.2 until a little more than 1 month ago when I stopped using the sub in anticipation of the 3.3 release.
This past summer at the amusement park while on line up for one of the more popular rides. Lined up at the queue and approximately 1 minute later a brunette in her 30's lines up with a kid behind us. She was wearing really tight jeans, so much so that they looked like they were painted on her. She's wearing sunglasses so I could not see her eyes. She had her hair in a pony tail, while we're in the line up she undoes her pony tail and starts to braid her hair. When done, she pulls out her cell and checks her texts and wedges the phone between her thighs and slowly rubs it up and down her crotch while looking at me with a straight face. Got on the ride before her and as the roller coaster train leaves the station, I take a look at the line up only to realize that she's looking in my direction with a longing gaze.
On the same day, but on a different line up. There's a black haired woman with a black guy approximately, 10 ft in front of us. She looks at me and then starts to give a hand job to the black guy through his pants.
On a different day, while on the trail at the park. Three women in their early 20's walked passed me and my son. As they're walking by the subject of conversation changes to online dating and one of them mentions how good she's at and how she likes to give bj's. As they walked pass, my son asks what is a bj? I told him, why don't you race ahead and ask them? Which he did not do of course as he was too shy to ask.
At home, we're entertaining some of my wife's friends and two of them openly commented on how handsome I looked. From that moment and for the entire night, the wife got really territorial and was either by my side and openly affectionate.
While on 3.2 got on a high number of loops. This lead to some mental incoherence and memory loss. I had to cut down to 1 loop / day at the end as the exhaustion was too much for me to function properly. That moment came when I was heading to my car after shopping. Try to use the remote to unlock the car and it does not work. I put the key in the door and it doesn't fit only to realize after looking in the back seat that I was trying to unlock someone else's car.
Things are not going well today. The exhaustion is unreal and i have very little patience. I'm snapping at everyone and It feels like I'm battling this sub.
(12-10-2018, 08:07 PM)Snoop Wrote: [ -> ]Things are not going well today. The exhaustion is unreal and i have very little patience. I'm snapping at everyone and It feels like I'm battling this sub.
You're not alone man. This may be a possible "downside" to the sub. As the FRM works on us it's going to trigger our subconscious to fight back a little. In addition, it's also going to remove fears. So rather than bottle up emotions we will no longer have the fear induced "filter" that keeps us from voicing how we truly feel. I had such a day today. Stay strong bruh.
(12-10-2018, 08:15 PM)K-Train Wrote: [ -> ] (12-10-2018, 08:07 PM)Snoop Wrote: [ -> ]Things are not going well today. The exhaustion is unreal and i have very little patience. I'm snapping at everyone and It feels like I'm battling this sub.
You're not alone man. This may be a possible "downside" to the sub. As the FRM works on us it's going to trigger our subconscious to fight back a little. In addition, it's also going to remove fears. So rather than bottle up emotions we will no longer have the fear induced "filter" that keeps us from voicing how we truly feel. I had such a day today. Stay strong bruh.
I agree also with anti-fear things i'm noticing a lot as just be a lot more open and honest which can be a shock to people you haven't really been as open to your feelings like that. Which is a good thing i feel this sub will change a lot of relationships around because of just that one fact.
(12-10-2018, 08:20 PM)Shadow2200 Wrote: [ -> ]I agree also with anti-fear things i'm noticing a lot as just be a lot more open and honest which can be a shock to people you haven't really been as open to your feelings like that. Which is a good thing i feel this sub will change a lot of relationships around because of just that one fact.
Absolutely. A dead comedian named Patrice O'Neal once said (paraphrasing) "women's power lies in men's fear of what they will do". We let things slide and accept bad treatment that we shouldn't because we fear losing them even at the expense of our own happiness.
5 days on and time for the 2 day break. Needless to say this could not come any sooner. Feels like going through a meat grinder. However, I feel I'm turning a corner and things a slowly looking up.