Subliminal Talk

Think you blew it with the redhead, man.

(03-06-2017, 02:50 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Think you blew it with the redhead, man.

It's possible. I have a feeling though that I haven't seen the last of her. For me it's all about the journey and so far its been an interesting ride. I've learned a lot and I'm better for it.

On this version, i've been getting mixed reaction from men. For example, at the gym, one purposely tried to bump into me as i was walking to another machine. I was at a public function and the owner of a large consulting firm shook my hand and introduced himself as if i was a president. That never happenned in my life time. The only difference. Is their age. The dude at the gym must have been in his mid to late twenties, while the owner of the consulting firm was at least in his mid to late fifties. With women, its been a mixed bag. Nothing direct, but I've noticed again that when some women talk amongst themselves in my presence that at times that their convo turned to sex. Went to a conference yesterday and felt totally ghosted as if i wasn't there. I also felt needy. something that I haven't felt for a long time since I've been on the sub as I usually don't give a damn wether someone pays attention to me or not. Something definitely going on and I'm wondering if its turbulence as i did not take a break between versions.

I saw signs today that L is trying to seduce me. She's the one who near the end of last month was commenting on one of our colleagues writting with sexual undertones. I dropped by her office late this afternoon for an inquiry. When I got there, she was writting an email. I did not want to interrupt, so I waited by the door until she finished. She saw me and rolled her chair backwards to face me. I told her about the nature of my inquiry and right away she did an impersonation of the client that I was inquiring about. It was hilarious. I wasn't aware of that side of her personality. As I was commenting on her act, she smiled at me raised her arms and grabbed her hair in the back of her head, pulled, bunched and held it up for a good 5 to 10 seconds. Her armpits were exposed and she looked really sexy. It was then I realized what a nice pair of knockers she has as I could clearly see their outline through her top. Something that I did not noticed before as she's probably 5.1 or 5.2 tall max. Wanted to comment on her looks but did not want to be inappropriate or let her know what I was thinking about. At this point, I just want to make her work harder and see if we'll get to the end goal, which would be her asking me to f*** her.

A little over two weeks on 3.1A and haven't updated in a while. For the last few Sunday's a leggy black-haired woman has been sitting with her son on the same pew that I usually sit at church. I caught her a few times checking me out, apart from that nothing out of the ordinary.

On the same day, I brought my son for skating at the local arena. When the skating ends, he likes to watch the Zamboni resurface the ice, which I allow him to do. I told him I would be in the lobby waiting for him. Two women came beside him at rink side and started to chat with each other. One was holding an baby, who couldn't be older than 6 months. As, I was watching my son behind the glass pane at a distance of approximately 50 ft away, the one holding the baby looked in my direction and we locked eyes. Throughout her conversation, she would quickly turn her head in my direction and give quick glances every 30 seconds or so. I've read somewhere that if you are the first to break eye contact that you give away some of your power. I kept looking at her, smiling slightly without showing teeth resolved not to break eye contact. This must have turned her on, because she started to take glances even more frequently. I wasn't worried or anything because if she felt annoyed or something I could always fall back on the fact that my son was beside her watching the Zamboni and I was just watching my son. Eventually, I got bored and called my son and we left.

That same night, I had a dream about one of the Eastern European woman at work. In the dream she was talking Russian to a man that I did not know. The next day I was scheduled to work with her to finalize a project in my office. As I was rationalizing with her some of my decisions, her cell rang. She took the call and started to speak Russian. After a few minutes, she finally hung up and after 10 min her cell rang again. She's says to me, I have to take this call it's my boyfriend. I left the office to give her privacy and came back 15 min later. As we resumed her cell rang after 5 min. I am assuming that it's him as she's speaking Russian again. At this point, I offer her to do the work some other time as we're getting interrupted at which point she accept.

I thought I would do some other work and headed towards her office to talk to another female colleague which she's sharing her office with. As I was talking to her colleague about work related stuff, the Russian women got all weird and I could tell that she was slightly upset as she was shunning me. I just ignored her and kept talking with the other woman.

That night I headed to the gym and decided not to be the first one to break eye contact if I came across a woman. In the gym, near the end of my workout, I lock eyes with a tall very good looking brunette, who in the past would not have given me a minute of her time. I look at her and eventually she looks down and away. The next day, I see her again this time she's sitting on a bench doing curls in front of a mirror. Both sides of the gym have mirrors, as I look into the opposite mirror, I can tell that she's discretely checking me out. It's been almost a week and I caught her more than once looking in my direction.

I've been having this don't screw with me attitude for awhile now to the point that I'm wondering if there isn't some sort of alpha programming in the sub. At work, there were 4 male colleagues walking towards me side by side and occupying the full width of the hallway. In the past I would have moved out of their way to let them pass as a matter of courtesy. This time I wasn't particularly feeling generous and was determined that I would not be the one caving in. I made eye contact with one of them and at the last minutes he moved behind the others to let me through. It felt like the parting of the red sea.

One day at the kitchen, one of the directors, a slim 50 year old woman exhibited all kinds of submissive behaviors (looking down and smiling and looking back up again) as we were chatting.

I was at the gym yesterday and started to think about my son. I was reminiscing on his first year, when I took him in his stroller for a walk at two in the morning because he could not sleep. I remembered that I picked him up as he was crying and try to console him. I became emotional and could barely contain myself. I started to get angry at how his disability was wreaking our lives.

At home, I had a few arguments with the wife, but held my ground as I'm drawing a line in the sand on what I am willing to accept from her behavior wise. Otherwise, she's been a chatter box. One day last week she brings up the subject of older women complaining about men. I told her all they need is a good F@** and that should take care of it. Then she brings up something else. Here's how the conversation went.

Her: Have you noticed how Ms B. is looking at you during our meetings? Ms B. is our son's school principal, she's in her mid 50's has been eye-f***ing me since the beginning of the school year. She's must have been a 8 or 9 during her younger years, but is taking care of herself and still looks very good. Because of our son's disability we're having bi-weekly meetings to evaluate progress which she's been dutifully attending .

Me: (playing dumb). No? What's up?

Her: She's been looking at you like a piece of meat. I'm pretty sure she's sliding on her own lube when the meetings are over.

My wife wasn't angry or anything she was just commenting but she's definitely noticing that I'm getting increased attention not only from the principal but from some of our neighbors as well.

I've been running the DMSI series since inception and I'm starting to feel that the end result (which if I recall correctly is getting the opposite sex to approach and ask for sex) is a million miles away. However, I'm not getting discouraged and will continue to run DMSI until results appear.

Another week, another report. I feel that my flirting skills are picking up. Last night at work was bantering with the second in command about the way she pronounce certain words and had her rolling on the floor laughing. She kept the conversation going but I cut it early on a high note, so to leave her wanting more. I'm getting gifts from female co workers, mostly food. Went to the hair cutters this morning, the music was playing and the hair dresser came to the reception with her hips swooning to the music. She was cutting my hair and must have dropped her comb one or two times. When she was done, she got all giggly as I paid her. It was really amusing. I went to the mall in the afternoon, and smiled to and locked eyes with a blue-eyed leggy tall skinny blonde and kept looking at me as I walked by her. I looked back at her and did not realized that heads could rotate that way. Her head was almost back to front.

Earlier this week I cross path with the stunning Italian in the hallway at work. In the past she had this haughty demeanor each time we cross paths and would just get ghosted by her. This time, I decided to stare right in her eyes, determined that I would not be intimidated. I just did not give a shit whether she cared or not. The next day, I am in the kitchen refilling my coffee and she's there. She starts to talk to me and gets all giggly as well. Now, every time we cross path in the hallway, her demeanor gets really submissive and looks to the floor. I am no longer getting those haughty looks from her.

Last Thursday, we had a consultant at our home to assist in managing our son's behaviors. She's in her late 30's, blonde, tall and well proportioned. My wife was talking to her in the living room and I decided to stay in the kitchen to cook the meals for the day. 15 min into her arrival, my wife calls me over so I can hear about the programs that were available. Big mistake. I sit on the couch beside my wife and immediately, the consultant shifts her seating position so that she's directly facing me, her face brightened up, and started to explain to us her strategy that she was thinking about using to manage our son's behaviors. Throughout the convo, she's flipping her hair and widely smiling at me. At some point she's leaning really close to me with her hands on her knees and I notice her wedding ring. She was definitely snipped. Later on, I had her rolling on the floor laughing with some hilarious stories about my son.

Lastly, I got approach twice this week, but unfortunately not for sex. I was at the automated check out at the grocery store and was about to punch the code for some vegetable, when the cashier came over, stood beside me and told me the code for the peppers that I was purchasing. On another occasion, at the same location got a different one, who came over and stood beside me and said "Hi". I returned the greeting and quipped "What's up?". She said "nothing" and sheepishly left. Both of these girls were in their early twenties and decent looking.

It has been an interesting week. I came down with a really bad case of the flu last monday night and was bed riden for at least two days during which I did not play DMSI. I needed all my energy to focus on healing my body. I had been playing DMSI almost ever day since the very beginning and this gave me a chance to see if there could be withdrawal effects from not playing it. I did not feel anything different in those two days. So that checks out.

Was at the gym on Monday night and there was a very tall woman, must have been 6.5 feet. I did not find her attractive at all. She spent the night eye f@@@ing me. Walked by her to access the stairmaster and she gives me this inviting sensual smile.

The next day, I'm looking for my car keys and they seem to have vaporized. Looked frantically for 3 hrs before giving up to have the car towed to the dealership to have new keys cut. While there, I wanted them to address a host of other problems. They came up with the estimate which amounted $700 dollars plus taxes. I gave my approval and headed home. When the car was ready, the service advisor left a voice mail, explaining the work that was done and said the he gave me a $150 discount on the total price. So I ended up paying $549 for the repairs. One thing that has been overlooked with DMSI are the other "benefits" which I've experienced that are worth the price even if the end goal is not met. In terms of financials and personal development, I definitely got my ROI and more. For this, I will be eternally grateful. That same night, had a dream about meeting the end goal.

Yesterday, I had to train staff in the use of some application to automate some of the work. It was very informal and the second in command spent the whole time eye f***ing me and at some point said playfully with a smile on her face that i was the biggest bullshitter she's ever met. The training ended after 4 hours and in the end, only me and Y were there as she volunteered to help clean up the place. Even though i felf like crap, there was definitely some sexual tension there. She's feeling it too as she's no longer her usual playful self when we're alone and she goes quiet and submissive.

Went to the gym last night and as i was about to leave after my workout, i chatted up the girl who gave me those ridiculous ass displays while runnning on the thread mill a few months back. She immediately lighted up and beamed me a huge smile as she left.

Since the last time I've updated, FYI. I am still on 3.1A. I had several interactions with the second in command at work. I was showing her something on my computer screen and she proceeded to step on my foot when she came closer (she apologized). In the 3 to 5 minutes that we talked, she twice touched me on my shoulder and arm. She also complimented me on my writing. Apart from the kino, nothing that would indicate sexual interest.

One day last week, I was heading for the mall entrance doors and at the same time from the opposite direction a woman was doing the same. She was in her mid to late 30's and really cute. We locked eyes but opened separate doors. We both looked at each other and felt my heart racing but we kept walking side by side. I peeked at her again and she's staring at me with a really large grin. I shyly managed to say "Hi" which she promptly returned. I was smitten by her beauty and could barely speak. There was definitely something there.
I am realizing that I still have some healing to do. Yesterday, was walking at the mall behind a woman and caught her checking me out through the glass reflection.

Last Tuesday, was at the gym and must have caught at least 4 or 5 women checking me out. Caught a few of them red handed using the mirrors to do so. Near the end, the cute receptionist was talking to someone using the treadmill. I went to get a drink at the fountain and as I'm coming back to the machine that I was using, I see that she's still talking to him but looking at me. She did not even looked away as I smiled at her, instead she waved back to acknowledge.

I was early to pick up my son from school this Friday. I sat on a bench and Ms. B. the principal comes out of her office. She had a really tight pair of pants which perfectly molded her figure. Yes, she still looks good even though she's probably in her late 40's to early 50's. She walks by and gives me a "window washing" hand greeting and walks down the hallway. I could see her butt swaying from side to side as she eventually left my field of view.

Yesterday, I was giving the respite worker (university student) a ride back after watching over my son for a couple of hours. We got into the car and immediately she went into a state of arousal. She went red as beet and was playing with her long hair which she occasionally brought to her lips. This time she did not flap open her legs. I usually drop her to the University on my way to the grocery store. When she learned about my plans, she requested that I drop her at the grocery store as it is closer to her home. I offered her to drive her home instead, which she accepted. She was wearing black leggings and as she was heading out of the car, I noticed a small wet spot on her backside.

I've been experimenting with the number of loops and for the last week I've been doing 3 loops instead of 2. I want to get whatever healing that I need out of the way quicker and move to full execution mode. I've been slightly more tired as a result but otherwise, I am able to cope with the increased input. For the last few days, I have this depressing feeling in the background that I'm unable to shake off. I know I could probably go through this if I could have an emotional release, but I am so emotionally numb that I am unable to bring myself to cry.

They always have to learn the hard way, don't they. 2 loops.

(04-09-2017, 11:09 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]They always have to learn the hard way, don't they. 2 loops.

Are you referring to the fact that I could not cry? I'm not sure it's totally related to the extra loop. I think it is probably more related to my personality type as I have always approached things from a logical point of view instead of engaging my emotions. I've never been the one who's cried that much in my years of living. Although I wished that it would have been different. I've been on this sub since the very beginning and while I've been getting a smorgasbord of IOI's, I want to see more. I am dying to see the panties scorcher version where a woman will relentlessly pursue a man until her itch is relieved . I've never been the one to sit by idly when things are not progressing. I am the type of person who will try new things or tinkle a little bit to see if things can be improved. I'm a hacker in that way.

From what I've read so far, you like to use models to determine the number of optimal loops. While I have a great deal of respect for your knowledge and wisdom, I am not sure that this number of loops would apply to everyone. We have different life experiences and backgrounds, which make every human unique. By the way, I am also a modeler, I have programmed and used computer models in the field of engineering. One thing that I've learned over time is that models should not be used to make decisions for you but to inform your decision making as they are and always be a simplification of reality (i.e. Occam's Razor) and as such will from time to time give inaccurate answers.

You're assuming a lot about the models I have developed. More is not always better, especially with DMSI. If you are not an outlier, more loops will significantly degrade your results, and you would not necessarily see that.

But if you're going to tinker, best of luck.

(04-10-2017, 06:02 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]You're assuming a lot about the models I have developed.

I also assume a lot about your models. I guess you already explained your "secrets of the modeling" years ago, right?

(04-10-2017, 06:02 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]You're assuming a lot about the models I have developed. More is not always better, especially with DMSI. If you are not an outlier, more loops will significantly degrade your results, and you would not necessarily see that.

But if you're going to tinker, best of luck.

Back to two loops as of today. We'll see how it goes.

Been running 3.1 A for 42 days now and I feel that I've hit a wall. Will give version B (2 loops) a spin for a week or two and I wil see how it goes.

Recap of 3.1 A run

- Not much tiredness so that is an improvement.

- Occasionally felt the "morphine drip", especially in the beginning so I know that the or part of the script executed.

- tons of IOI's. Especially from some co-workers

- Mixed reaction from men in the beginning, but increased respect as time went on.

- Huge discount on car repairs.

- Ridiculous IOI's from the university student (twice).

- increased IDGAF attitude.

EDITS: first impressions on version B. You definitely feel the power with this version. Already in a relaxed altered state of consciousness. 30 minutes into the first loop, i felt those waves of energy washing over me. My whole body is pretty much vibrating. Will be going out this afternoon and will see what happens.