Subliminal Talk

Well, Thought I make a small update since I haven't made one in a while.

Haven't been on any subs for a while but I have experience a TID situation yesterday morning. I don't know why but I felt that kind of shift in Conscious while I was laying in bed which made me realize it was TID. I felt very peaceful and calm like for quite a while. On top of that I had this kind of buzzing feeling in my head as well. I've also noticed over the last 2 weeks or so the pleasure I feel from watching porn is slowly little by little dropping off. Sometimes I wonder why I still even bother watching it at times.

Things are going well with my plans so far. I'm on the last part of my TEFL certification and once I turn that in and pass I will be done with the whole course. On top of that earlier this week I started my online courses. I'm already about 90% through my first course and I only just started Tuesday. If I keep this up and finish courses even faster I should be done with my degree within 2-3 months. I'm hoping to be done by sometime in November. Once that is done I think I might have even more options open to me. I think I might go to South Korea if I get this done in a good amount of time. There I will be able to pay off any remaining debts I have and my goal is to reach about 1 million dollars in savings/investments within 2 years which I re-found a way that will make that quite possible. Once that is done I will start investing international real estate so i can have some passive income though I will probably keep going with the Teaching English gig just to have a low key job to do and make the Visa process a lot easier for getting into other countries.

Lastly, there is one other piece of news that to me feels like both bad and good news. Even though me and that girl I met in the Philippines were no longer officially going out anymore, we still frequently talked to each other over Viber. We even talked about our future and it was heavily implied that we would get back together most likely after I finished my degree. Well, by last weekend I stopped hearing from her really. I would start sending message and I would see that she had seen them but she wouldn't reply for the past few days. That's when I started getting this feeling that I think I'm pretty much on mark on. That she has probably found someone else, whether she is seeing a local guy or she found another foreign guy to talk to. I think she just got tired waiting really and most likely started talking to someone else, hence why she has started ignoring me for the most part. I did finally send her a message saying I need to talk to her when she is free and the only reply I got, finally after days, was "why". Something about that reply just gave me the impression that she just sees me as a bother now and further made me think she is seeing or talking to someone else now.

I did reply with something else like "I just wanted to talk to you. You haven't replied in a while, I was getting worried". Even now, hours later I see that she has seen my message but hasn't replied. The good news about this whole thing though is that I'm kind of relieve that this is happening. Over the last few weeks after I started experiencing TID I've been starting to have these doubts about this whole thing with her. In the way that Honestly, I don't thing I would want to settle down with her and quite frankly I feel like I could do better especially with 3.3 on the horizon. She is still a cute girl and all but I feel like if I were to settle down with someone eventually I would rather have someone who is at the very high end of physical attraction and like wise wouldn't mind being part of a harem type situation and was Bi, which would make that whole thing more possible.

Besides, I noticed after a while she started to change her mind on things that she originally wanted in life. Case in point how she said she was bi and was down for a threesome (multiple times from the way it sounded) before marriage. Thing is she then down graded that to maybe just try it once then after that never again. Just things like that and then me thinking about doing better with a even more attractive girl made me start to have doubts. Only thing that was holding me back was the fact how we talked about our future together and she seemed to be a genuinely good, wholesome girl. Either way though part of me is relieved that all this might be the case. Means I can move on and get a even better women to have as a companion or at least have some more short term type things until I find the right kind of woman. I'm starting to thing this new attitude, not being upset about this at all, and being very optimistic about my prospects in the future is probably TID from 3.3. I know the old me if he would have gotten a women like this would have just settled for her and made sure he didn't lose her at all. I would have probably been so needy and thought this was the best I was going to get. I see this as a major improvement on who I was.

There is actually one other thing that I have noticed as well. I have noticed more anger and frustration. Its more anger and frustration with where I am currently in life. It has kind of pushed me to get as far in my studies as I am right now but this frustration and dissatisfaction with the status quo has just randomly popped up out of seemingly no where. This is a change from when I was actively running 3.2 where I felt like I was in a deadlock. I knew things couldn't go on as they have been but at the same time I was too "afraid" to even move forward. So it felt like I was just in this neutral space where I was neither progressing or regressing really.

Anyway, that's about all that has happened for now. Just anxiously waiting for 3.3 to come out. I really hope that the fear removal module in beast shows very good promise. I feel like it might be a real game change to finally get most of us through this fear of executing.

Well, thought I would give a short update since something else happened.

Its official, the girl I was still talking to was ignoring me because she was getting tired of waiting. I feel kind of weird about this. I feel annoyed but not sad or angry really. In a way it is a good thing but at the same time I'm still annoyed. I think the thing that caused my annoyance really is the fact that this woman was talking all about how she could wait however long it took to be with me, we talked about our future together, What we would do in the future, and where we might live once I made it back over there. She said all this talk like she was determined to make this work and then she didn't even last more than 2 months before she said "I'm not happy anymore and I'm sorry. Very sorry". She said that after I confronted her about her ignoring me after a while and if she had found someone else. She said she hadn't found someone else. Guess at least that was good.

Just turns out her words were cheap after all and there was no real resolve behind them. First sign of struggle and she is out. In the end I will find someone better and someone who actually takes commitment seriously when the time comes. I do admit, there was something interesting about this. I felt like part of me, I think the part offering resistance to DMSI, was trying to get me to take this as a whole generalization and add it to my "reasons not to trust women" list but I think since I was so self aware of that part trying to manipulate the situation I just couldn't bring myself to do that. It felt repugnant to me to do something like that. Not to mention, it would have just re-enforced my previous reality that kept me alone and having no contact with women.

I guess that means I have matured to a good degree due to 3.2 since I can just brush this bad experience off. More than anything I feel like I'm going to use this to speed up the process of getting my degree even sooner so I can leave sooner. I think also, since I want a perfect long term relationship or marriage (in another country with more favorable laws for men where it is safe) I think I will wait til the Attract your perfect wife sub is out in 6G. If I'm going to have something long term I want it to be near perfect really. I think this whole time I use DMSI, I'm just going to go with FWB or casual dating type relationships. I will really think about that because on the one hand I really want to have a connection with someone but on the other hand I want a long term relationship with someone that rather be nigh perfect and I know they are going to be there during the good and bad times.

On that front @Shannon I have a question. If you prefer having a real connection with someone in a more long term type relationship will DMSI take that into consideration when manifesting someone to have sex with? Or does it just end with manifesting people that you find sexually attractive that you can have sex with and doesn't really take your preferences into account of what type of relationship it might be? Just wanted to know.

Either way, not as upset over this as I thought I would be. I did feel my eyes getting watery while having a last text chat with her but I didn't feel the accompanying sadness. I think something might have been suppressing it which is probably a good thing. As for the future, at least I have my travel to look forward to. Will be able to travel to the Philippines, Korea, Japan, China, and Thailand if I choose to. I do find the woman in those countries to be very attractive and it might be a good testing for DMSI 3.3 and DMSI 3.4 (when it comes out). Granted I should be able to test run 3.3 on local girls before I leave this country within 2-3 months. I will try to get out of here even sooner if I can. I don't know why but I've noticed since I've gotten back from my trip that I might still find some local women attractive but I'm not as attracted to them as I use to. The inner beauty (for lack of a better word) of foreign women (with the lack of feminism and entitlement) really put what want in a woman into perspective.

Eh, I do have some contact info for some Latin girls in Mexico and Latin America so I might try contacting some of them since i'm pretty much "free" now but we shall see. Not sure if I want to get back into this right away after all this. Might be better to just focus on getting through my classes as soon as possible and then leave. After that I can just focus on my teaching English job and seeing potential women. Guess that's all for now.

P.S. @Shannon one more thing. Did you ever test that idea ,about women being affected by the aura if they see a picture of you, with the models? Even though most likely it said it wouldn't be worth it just wanted to know if it was even viable. I'm pretty curious.

(09-08-2018, 02:17 AM)DarthXedonias Wrote: [ -> ]Well, thought I would give a short update since something else happened.

Its official, the girl I was still talking to was ignoring me because she was getting tired of waiting. I feel kind of weird about this. I feel annoyed but not sad or angry really. In a way it is a good thing but at the same time I'm still annoyed. I think the thing that caused my annoyance really is the fact that this woman was talking all about how she could wait however long it took to be with me, we talked about our future together, What we would do in the future, and where we might live once I made it back over there. She said all this talk like she was determined to make this work and then she didn't even last more than 2 months before she said "I'm not happy anymore and I'm sorry. Very sorry". She said that after I confronted her about her ignoring me after a while and if she had found someone else. She said she hadn't found someone else. Guess at least that was good.

Just turns out her words were cheap after all and there was no real resolve behind them. First sign of struggle and she is out. In the end I will find someone better and someone who actually takes commitment seriously when the time comes. I do admit, there was something interesting about this. I felt like part of me, I think the part offering resistance to DMSI, was trying to get me to take this as a whole generalization and add it to my "reasons not to trust women" list but I think since I was so self aware of that part trying to manipulate the situation I just couldn't bring myself to do that. It felt repugnant to me to do something like that. Not to mention, it would have just re-enforced my previous reality that kept me alone and having no contact with women.

I guess that means I have matured to a good degree due to 3.2 since I can just brush this bad experience off. More than anything I feel like I'm going to use this to speed up the process of getting my degree even sooner so I can leave sooner. I think also, since I want a perfect long term relationship or marriage (in another country with more favorable laws for men where it is safe) I think I will wait til the Attract your perfect wife sub is out in 6G. If I'm going to have something long term I want it to be near perfect really. I think this whole time I use DMSI, I'm just going to go with FWB or casual dating type relationships. I will really think about that because on the one hand I really want to have a connection with someone but on the other hand I want a long term relationship with someone that rather be nigh perfect and I know they are going to be there during the good and bad times.

On that front @Shannon I have a question. If you prefer having a real connection with someone in a more long term type relationship will DMSI take that into consideration when manifesting someone to have sex with? Or does it just end with manifesting people that you find sexually attractive that you can have sex with and doesn't really take your preferences into account of what type of relationship it might be? Just wanted to know.

DMSI is designed to make you sexually irresistible to the people you find sexually attractive, to whatever degree you find them sexually attractive. It is up to you what you do with the results. I have turned my results from 3.1 into what looks to be a permanent relationship. At the time, I thought it was going to be just lots of sex with various women. I am very happy, and so is she. But I don't run DMSI anymore, once I determined that that was going to be the case.

Quote:Either way, not as upset over this as I thought I would be. I did feel my eyes getting watery while having a last text chat with her but I didn't feel the accompanying sadness. I think something might have been suppressing it which is probably a good thing. As for the future, at least I have my travel to look forward to. Will be able to travel to the Philippines, Korea, Japan, China, and Thailand if I choose to. I do find the woman in those countries to be very attractive and it might be a good testing for DMSI 3.3 and DMSI 3.4 (when it comes out). Granted I should be able to test run 3.3 on local girls before I leave this country within 2-3 months. I will try to get out of here even sooner if I can. I don't know why but I've noticed since I've gotten back from my trip that I might still find some local women attractive but I'm not as attracted to them as I use to. The inner beauty (for lack of a better word) of foreign women (with the lack of feminism and entitlement) really put what want in a woman into perspective.

Eh, I do have some contact info for some Latin girls in Mexico and Latin America so I might try contacting some of them since i'm pretty much "free" now but we shall see. Not sure if I want to get back into this right away after all this. Might be better to just focus on getting through my classes as soon as possible and then leave. After that I can just focus on my teaching English job and seeing potential women. Guess that's all for now.

P.S. @Shannon one more thing. Did you ever test that idea ,about women being affected by the aura if they see a picture of you, with the models? Even though most likely it said it wouldn't be worth it just wanted to know if it was even viable. I'm pretty curious.

The models indicated that attempting to add such a thing to DMSI would destroy it.

@DarthXedonias : I know how you feel man. I've been there recently. I was planning on dating a chick and she went dark. Similar situation as yours too. Thought she was "different", was planning a future, blah blah blah. In my case, I knew where I f*cked up. I should have closed sooner but I made a rookie mistake. But I sympathize with you man. Keep your head up.

One thing I'm noticing about DMSI, and I know Sarge has touched on this in his journal several times, is that DMSI in it's current iteration isn't going to override the need for certain actions from the male. For example, if a woman get's interested in you you're still going to have to reciprocate in the "appropriate" way. If you get invited to a woman's house and she's opening the door for escalation, you need to start escalating. You've still got to handle yourself appropriately when it comes to dealing with female bullshit.

@K-Train Thanks, though in the end it weirdly didn't affect me as much as I thought it was. It seemed like I just thought I could do better and then pretty much moved on with my life. I went to work the next day and was surprised that I didn't even really think about it and it didn't even affect me as much as I thought it was. My mindset seemed to be that I will just find a better looking girl who has a even better personality overall.

Either way thought I would type out something weird that happened early yesterday evening. I'm pretty sure it was TID but I don't know what prompted this reaction. For whatever reason I was playing a game and then I thought of succeeding with finally get the paper for my current course done. Mind you it simply was beyond getting that paper done, I knew if I get this done I would be able to get my current courses done then be out of the country in no time teaching English in a country with probably an better overall culture and women to my liking. All of a sudden I get this sudden, overwhelming feeling of fear. I mean I was deathly afraid and this lasted for hours. I ended up binge playing video games instead of working on my paper to calm myself down though in the end that didn't even work.

Over time it turned to a mixture of anger and fear. I actually ended up watching some porn right before bed which produced a negative reaction. I didn't feel good afterwards, I actually felt sick to my stomach. I pretty much didn't return to normal until I woke up this morning. Just thought I would report that since it was so out of the ordinary. I do wonder if that last part might have been a TID response to not executing the no porn rule.

Interesting. I am using USLM and i thought i never had any fear until a recent discussion with Shannon that got me thinking. Now you are writing this i observed from myself that i didnt have any mood to work or to work out for that matter and i spent 1.5 day eating ice cream and pizza. I never thought that it could be my subconcious projecting fear. Now i am even more troubled

(09-13-2018, 01:32 PM)worldpua Wrote: [ -> ]Interesting. I am using USLM and i thought i never had any fear until a recent discussion with Shannon that got me thinking. Now you are writing this i observed from myself that i didnt have any mood to work or to work out for that matter and i spent 1.5 day eating ice cream and pizza. I never thought that it could be my subconcious projecting fear. Now i am even more troubled

Thanks for the reply. Yeah, I am kind of in the same boat of being more troubled. Since my last post I have had about 3 more incidences of my mind being dominated by fear. Two of them I wasn't clear about what caused it but one of them I am sure was DMSI 3.3. I say that because I was thinking about it at the time and my fear levels just rose to stupid high levels aka I was having shallow breathing and thoughts of "I don't want to run it". This is quite similar to some incidences that happened before 3.2 was released. I am wondering if it is a case of the subconscious being afraid of the fear removal module removing the actual fear then maybe the resulting executing of the program.

Either way, I can't let this go on. I need to get out of here within months if possible so I can get to a country I can be more interested in and perhaps execute DMSI more freely in the future. I was on a break till 3.3 came out but with what is happening I think I'm going to run UM/OP now. Funny thing is when I think about it the high degree of motivation and such I had the first week I started my program might have been TID from running UM/OP. I kept on wondering where I was finding all this motivation from. Guess I have my answer now. Thing is I'm not sure what I'm going to do later though. On the one hand I do want to run 3.3 but on the other hand do to me wanting to get out of the country as soon as possible and start making money to prepare to retire within 2-3 years or at least own a sustainable business within the Philippines. With that last objective LTU would seem to be the best choice. Not to mention I have to admit I am just not satisfied with how my life is and i definitely need to change how things are. I also need to get out of this toxic environment so it doesn't cause me to not execute any subs goals.

Actually after thinking about it right now I am going to just run UM/OP for a while then switch to 3.3 when it comes out. I will see how I'm doing on my courses, then if I'm doing well switching to 3.3 shouldn't be a issue. I remember that Shannon said that as we get closer to final people would start making excuses to switch DMSI that would seem like good reasons but in reality are really just running away from executing. I don't want to be one of those people. I'm going to see this through to the end if I have to. Also, it is quite apparent at this point that my subconscious is deathly afraid of 3.3 so the apparent need to run LTU might just be it prompting me to run away. No matter how well reasoned it might seem.

Wow, that's early!

The first time I hesitated to press play - out of fear - was DMSI 3.1. Didn't happen on 3.2, rather, just experienced a shit-ton of self-sabotage resistance in myriad forms. And random bubbles of fear, where something would just pop in my head - like vivid visualizations of getting in a car accident or fearing about my kids suddenly dying. Scary shit!

Hopefully as 3.3 approaches, real TID will *reduce* fear - indicating the fear removal module, etc - *work well.*

(09-14-2018, 01:58 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Wow, that's early!

The first time I hesitated to press play - out of fear - was DMSI 3.1. Didn't happen on 3.2, rather, just experienced a shit-ton of self-sabotage resistance in myriad forms. And random bubbles of fear, where something would just pop in my head - like vivid visualizations of getting in a car accident or fearing about my kids suddenly dying. Scary shit!

Hopefully as 3.3 approaches, real TID will *reduce* fear - indicating the fear removal module, etc - *work well.*

I do actually wonder about that because I did notice something different about the TID for 3.2 and the TID for 3.3. When I got TID for 3.2 it constant TID for like 3-4 weeks I think. With this TID it seems to be way more sporadic and seems to be random. I think the reason why I might still be getting a fear reaction is because I'm guessing the TID doesn't have the full power of running the actual program. So, there can still be some sort of resistance to TID I think. I guess we will have to see if the resistance lessens as we get closer to release day.

(09-14-2018, 02:11 PM)DarthXedonias Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-14-2018, 01:58 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Wow, that's early!

The first time I hesitated to press play - out of fear - was DMSI 3.1. Didn't happen on 3.2, rather, just experienced a shit-ton of self-sabotage resistance in myriad forms. And random bubbles of fear, where something would just pop in my head - like vivid visualizations of getting in a car accident or fearing about my kids suddenly dying. Scary shit!

Hopefully as 3.3 approaches, real TID will *reduce* fear - indicating the fear removal module, etc - *work well.*

I do actually wonder about that because I did notice something different about the TID for 3.2 and the TID for 3.3. When I got TID for 3.2 it constant TID for like 3-4 weeks I think. With this TID it seems to be way more sporadic and seems to be random. I think the reason why I might still be getting a fear reaction is because I'm guessing the TID doesn't have the full power of running the actual program. So, there can still be some sort of resistance to TID I think. I guess we will have to see if the resistance lessens as we get closer to release day.

Exactly. TID is like running the program at stupid low levels of volume and gradually increasing until you get to the point that you actually press play.

It will begin at levels too weak to achieve its goals, but it's influence will continue to increase until you achieve full effect.

So what you're seeing is that it's working, and then the fearful part resists and you experience fear, and then it works again and the fear goes away.

The key is getting the change to fully take place so it doesn't give you tides like that.

(09-14-2018, 01:58 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Wow, that's early!

The first time I hesitated to press play - out of fear - was DMSI 3.1. Didn't happen on 3.2, rather, just experienced a shit-ton of self-sabotage resistance in myriad forms. And random bubbles of fear, where something would just pop in my head - like vivid visualizations of getting in a car accident or fearing about my kids suddenly dying. Scary shit!

Hopefully as 3.3 approaches, real TID will *reduce* fear - indicating the fear removal module, etc - *work well.*

Same with 3.1 for me. The first loop was really something to me. Like, nervous. 3.2 not so much but enough to have this thougt of "finally" when running the first loop of 3.2 my heartrate went up. It felt...funky. the TID towards 3.2 was also amazing. Like a blooming.

3.3 TID however. When Im focussing my attention to it, I felt dissipation of fear on a massive scale that I felt and feel light and bloomimg is peanuts. Im starting to think im more affected by 3.3 TID. one is the several manifestation patterns of escape that are taking place, and they are convincing. Along with the fearlessness come feelings of h/c whole lakes subconsciously speaking.

(09-14-2018, 02:47 PM)Kol Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-14-2018, 01:58 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]Wow, that's early!

The first time I hesitated to press play - out of fear - was DMSI 3.1. Didn't happen on 3.2, rather, just experienced a shit-ton of self-sabotage resistance in myriad forms. And random bubbles of fear, where something would just pop in my head - like vivid visualizations of getting in a car accident or fearing about my kids suddenly dying. Scary shit!

Hopefully as 3.3 approaches, real TID will *reduce* fear - indicating the fear removal module, etc - *work well.*

Same with 3.1 for me. The first loop was really something to me. Like, nervous. 3.2 not so much but enough to have this thougt of "finally" when running the first loop of 3.2 my heartrate went up. It felt...funky. the TID towards 3.2 was also amazing. Like a blooming.

3.3 TID however. When Im focussing my attention to it, I felt dissipation of fear on a massive scale that I felt and feel light and bloomimg is peanuts. Im starting to think im more affected by 3.3 TID. one is the several manifestation patterns of escape that are taking place, and they are convincing. Along with the fearlessness come feelings of h/c whole lakes subconsciously speaking.

Can you expand on this and explain it further please?

Well, I started UM/OP like 3 days ago and I have to say its been working pretty darn well so far.

Like 30 mins after I started listening the first time I finally started working on my paper for the first class again. After working on it for a bit I finally realized that the assignment was actually pretty easy and some of the Questions actually repeat themselves all I had to do after a while is just copy/paste my previous answers. As of right now I just uploaded it to the university site to wait for it to get a plagerism score. Once that is done with I will submit it. Presumably it will take a while so later today I will actually take the final test and then if all is well I will pass the course. At this point it would have taken me 2 weeks. I don't think it will take much longer for the rest of my courses. Most of the rest of my courses aren't papers but nothing but tests.

For those I don't really read through the material (the chapters are like 30 pages long and there seems to be like 15 chapters in each course), I just do the pop quizzes and go over flash cards so I know the key points. I'm thinking with this method I should be able to complete a course every 2-3 days. If I keep at that pass I should have my degree within 2 months or so then I can get out of this country. This is a program I can say that I have seen tangible results from even just the first day. Its probably because I'm not resisting it as much. I've noticed if I start playing video games before I have even done any work for the day then I start getting this obvious nagging feeling to stop playing the game or I start getting numb from feeling any excitement from playing it. On the other hand if I play a game after doing some work for that day I don't feel as bad really.

As for my other plans from here I'm still not settled on what to do. The choices that give me the best bet at retiring early, own my own hotel business and own the super car that I want would be to either (1) Go teach in South Korea or (2) Teach English online while living in the Philippines or possibly Thailand. Those seem to be the best bets. Though if I plan to get my Masters Degree in TEFL China might still be a good place to go since I could get some experience with teaching at the University level in China with just a Bachelors then once I get my Masters I can teach English on the University level in Korea or Japan if I wanted to. Will have to see how things go. The motivation in this sub has really got me into this idea that I can succeed at finally getting out of here. It seems like the tech in the subs has gotten to a level where I'm not at a dead lock (like in DMSI) but its actually overcoming the resistant quite well so far. This is making me hopeful that 3.3 with the modules to get rid of fear will probably be the first time I will see results from that as well (without necessarily having to leave the country).

On the subject of DMSI, I am still getting TID. I've recently started having lots of sex dreams. Another thing, which I have forgotten to mention for weeks now, is that I've been getting notifications on plenty of fish of women wanting to meet up with me constantly. I haven't even been on the site at all really and all of a sudden I'm getting these notifications. I think this might be a good foreshadow of things to come. If say 3.3 comes out in late October then that should still give me time to try it out in the states before I leave. That should be interesting though I am quite interested to see how 3.3 or even 3.4 will do in more conservative countries in Asia. I think that will be a very good test of the sub. I might have to be careful over the years though with DMSI because if I start teaching at the university level that does mean I can easily start attracting some of my female students to me and that could cause all sorts of trouble.

Heck, that could even cause problems in the Philippines since the age of consent there is as low as 13 years old. So yeah, will need to be careful about anything and be very aware of cultural standards (including my own professional standards) while in other countries. Either way, really excited to see how the sub plays out over there. Particularly if I choose South Korea since I find a lot of the women very good looking though its pretty known over there that most women get facial plastic surgery done. Its actually known as the Plastic surgery capital of Asia for a reason.

That is all for now. See ya guys later!

Well, quick update. This sub is great so far. I've been doing course work 1 to 2 times a day since I've started and haven't missed on day on the sub. Motivation is increasing and ability to procrastinate is going down more and more. Its gotten to the point that I'm pretty much finish with the first course (just took me about 2 weeks) at this point I'm just waiting for the grade on my paper to come back then I will officially be finished. I've also already taken and passed the Pre-test for the second course and ready to take the real test right after my paper comes back. in the mean time I'm also already going to start studying for the Pre-test and final test for the third course later today. If all goes right I will be able to knock out 3 courses within a matter of days and way ahead of the planned schedule my mentor had for me.

I'm actually really motivated to try to knock out a course every 1 or 2 days which seems very plausible with how this sub is working at the moment. If I manage that I will be done within a month then its off to Asia after that. Also noticed that when I have problems with family members now I get this anger and then I use that anger to push me to work harder so I can escape this situation. Later today I will also be getting my new Dual sim card phone that works in practically any country. So I can put in a sim card from any country I am currently in and take advantage of local rates. Everything seems to be coming together for me right now. I do really want to thank Shannon for making these subs because now due to them it seems I was finally able to recognize what a toxic environment I was in and am getting very close to getting out of this situation. Thanks a lot Shannon for your hard work.