Subliminal Talk

Captains log: 03112017

Thought I would update because things have been very "interesting" lately. Ugh, first off been getting lots of respect hits and IoIs. Most of the IoIs have been from eye contact except for a notable exceptions which i will go over later. Its like I can look into a womans eyes and see this instant connection for some reason. Its kind of weird and intimidating sometimes. One thing that has been really annoying though is that sometimes I will see someone glance into my eyes and then either automatically look down or look somewhere else. I don't know why but I find this annoying for some reason. Though sometimes I will see people hold eye contact. I feel like its a mixture of fear and respect honestly. Also, me being "turned on" feels different. It feels like the lust is coming from my very soul and not from some pure physical reaction if that makes sense. It feels like there's much more depth to it.

At work I have had much more customers call me by my name than normal. I also, in contrast to when my subconscious was hijacking the aura to cause my co-workers to have this anger towards me or bring bad things into my life, have this feel that now my co-workers highly respect me and are afraid of me somehow or afraid of how they might come across in my presence. Its kind of like if you met a really famous person and you want to talk to them but you are afraid you are going to make an ass of yourself. Now on to a very important fact, all my Chakras are open. I don't know how open but they are open and I can feel those energy centers in my body. When the sniper activates (rarely at full power, will explain below) I can feel them pulsing, particularly the sacral (sexuality, creativity), Solar plexus (power and wisdom) and Heart (Healing, emotions). These three I feel the most.

Now on to something else. I found out that I react more to a "blooming" phase then listening to the sub regularly. For me, the bloom seems to occur between 30 to 48 hours since my last loop. I still get results when I listen regularly but these results go into hyper-drive when I get to a bloom. I realized this thursday when I was in class. We were watching a documentary on Native Americans doing rituals in South America for healing people. For whatever reason I started blooming and my chakras started to vibrate (more like I feel them like a fire inside my body). I had noticed one of the women in the ceremony was pretty good looking as well. At the end of the class while we were discussing the film this one Mexican chick started talking. For some reason I was drawn to her voice. It was like I could feel the love and kindness in her voice weirdly enough. After class I drove to a Mexican burrito place and on the drive came to a few realizations (Due to my Sacral chakra pulsing). One of those was why the sniper was very picky in who it choose. It seems that my top criteria for filtering women is moral character and a certain amount of spirituality to them. Given that most western women lack these qualities that's why its rare for the sniper to go full blast on them. Which gets me to the main three women who have gotten hit the hardest.

The first one is the chick I have told you guys about, the hispanic co-worker. Even though i'm not as interested in her as I use to be I have noticed she started to get more interested. After I got healed on MHS she started getting more interested even though I wasn't as much anymore and then while DMSI 3.1 things just ramped up. Though there is some goodnews and badnews with this situation. Today was the first time I was working with her while on DMS 3.1. I noticed immediately there was this weird vibe I was sensing from her. Usually she is very spontaneous and outgoing when I talk to her. This time she was a bit more reserved, maybe hesitant. She was still trying to be funny and all but it felt like she was holding herself back for some reason. There was this really dense feeling between us and there felt like there was some tension there for some reason. Also, unlike previous versions of DMSI I was acting very comedic. I still through out some jokes out there but it felt like I had this serious but willing to be amused vibe when interacting with her. Some of the things I noticed: She mirror my body language at times, the conversation flowed very very easily there were no real silences, the conversation did turn sexual at times, she was constantly near me I would say that throughout the work day she was with me 90% of the time, touched me multiple times today, was in my personal space at times, and would make eye contact when talking to me sometimes but most of the time she would be looking else-ware.

The thing that really caught me though was what happened in the break room. She comes in while I'm eating, gets my attention by touch my head and we proceed to talk for a bit with some silences her and there. Then she proceeds to lay down in some positions on the couch that I have never seen her lay in before. The first one is when she is laying on her side with her head in her hands though she does shift into a different one later. Basically she was laying down like cleopatra:



I got on my phone for a bit with my left side aimed at her while she was laying down like this with her body towards me. I noticed from the corner of my eye while she was laying down like this she was staring at me intently for a good 20-30 seconds. If anyone could tell me specifically what this pose means I would appreciate it, tried looking it up. Later on while we were the only ones in the room she got on her belly while having her phone in front of her with her legs straight back, this gave a good view of her butt. I didn't really notice until I got up to put something in my locker and looked towards her and noticed her butt. When I looked at it I felt the aura go into overdrive and I felt the very strong urge to come up and lay my hand on her butt. I resisted that urge though. Don't know where that urge came from "auto-pilot" maybe? Anyway, the badnews about this situation is that she got fired today as well (long story). So only time I could meet up with her is if we meet outside of work which is only going to happen if I'm still interested.

The second chick who has been sniped is this one indian chick who works there as well. I only noticed because she would keep giving me these intense looks and talk with me a lot more than normal. There was even one point where while we were waiting to get off of work she sat very, very close to me. As in within centimeters while being talkative here and there.

Now the women who has been most affect and I probably like her a lot to be honest. There is this one Arabic woman who sits in front of me in English class. I have noticed that when tried to consciously activate the sniper she started talking to me out of the blue. Things I have noticed over the past week: She always starts a conversation with me before class starts (I have not seen her do this with any other guy), I've noticed her messing with her headscarf/hair multiple times during class (While sometimes activating the sniper consciously), her shifting in her chair, rubbing her thighs, looking to the side a lot as if she is trying to look at me from the corner of her eyes, standing butt presentation, and straight up start a conversation with me in the middle of class sometimes. What is interesting is last class we had to put our names on a sheet for groups for a class presentation. I signed up for one that no one had chosen yet (so there were 3 other slots open). She ended up picking the same one I did(wasn't surprised by that). So now I have her contact info to "work" together and she has mines.

On top of this the day I entered this that burrito place that I mentioned above I noticed some things, which have happened before. I would notice when the women Mexican workers would look into my eyes real quick then divert them right away. Its like I could "sense" when their perception was shifting towards me so I could meet there eyes as they did it. I noticed this particularly with the women at the register. She took multiple glances at me and even stared at me for a good few seconds when she thought I wasn't looking. When I went to pay she was acting extra nice and had this warmth to her voice. That's the thing though, I have noticed these increase in "psychic" occurrences. Like I can sense when someone is about to look at me, sense when they are about to talk to me before they do, hell sense when they are about to make a joke before they do, etc. Its been really weird.

The most notable example of this is when I was working on Friday and I ran into some old high school friends. I had the feeling that I needed to eat in order to power the aura and had the idea of get Chipotle. I took my 15 min break and started walking there. A minor voice in my head tried to suggest another place but I pushed that to the side. I wanted and needed to go to Chipotle for some reason. As I'm a few steps away from the place (its inside a mall) I cross paths with a woman I use to go to high school with and her daughter. She was one of the girls I liked a lot during school but I didn't go with it. I felt like I was being lead elsewhere at the time. Turns out her husband was there too, also was a good friend and was in the same class as me. Talked for a bit, got their information and left to get the food. Had I choose the other place to go to I would have totally missed her.

Anyway, I think that's about most of whats happened. There is other stuff but this post would be a much longer wall of text than it already is so i will end it here. Will keep you guys posted about every two weeks to 3 weeks. Take care all!

Did you use psilocybin for DMSI as well?

Captain's Log: 04022017 (Beware wall of Text ahead. Will get to the external stuff further down)

Well, been a long long time and have so much to go over. First off to answer Darkness's question, "sort of". Lets just say I have a cocktail (4 ingredients) that I do use every week to 2 weeks. I will keep the contents of that cocktail to myself though since as I will agree with Shannon and try not to promote any of this on the forums. I will only be telling one person, and that will be through PM. So don't bother PMing me for the info.

Anyway, before I get to the good stuff I did have a lot of changes on a bloom during spring break. I spent spring break in Texas with my father, which so happened to be when my birthday took place (turned 29 on the 23rd). Anyway, during that time it feels like the Anger, hate and rage I had carried all these years just upped and vanished for the most part. I just became "Zen" (This is partly why I changed my avatar to Morgan from The Walking Dead). Basically, I realized that anger, rage and hatred are just a waste of time and energy. MHS had healed the promoter of these emotions when it healed my brain of PTSD but DMSI has really dug deep. I think about the almost 15 years I wasted on these emotions. If I had spent all that energy on something like self development or making money I would be in a way better place now. But "it is what it is", and funny enough that has been my mantra now.

If something bad happens it just "is what it is". I don't dwell on the bad or evil in this world. Its funny, I thought I had an idea of Zen before but now that I have actually experienced it I realized just how wrong I was. I will try to explain it but I feel like words fail it unless you experience it yourself. From my experience you simply "acknowledge" that both darkness/evil and light/good happen and exist in this world. From there you have a choice, though you mostly want to promote the good through your actions, and experiences but foremost of all through your mindset because from your mindset your actions and experiences will follow. I found it interesting, I tried to think back over the last couple of weeks of anything bad happening to me and to my surprised I came up with nothing, nada! I realized that just as Shannon said as my mindset changed (or frequency changed) my experience started to change. I realized at work I hadn't even ran into one bad customer since I had started this zen mindset. This is surprising because before I couldn't go one day without running into a bad customer. Now it seems like all my co-workers get all the bad customers while all those rude customers avoid me or quite themselves down when in my presence.

One other thing I have also realized, the more anger you have the more experiences you will have that will feed that anger. Anger (along with hatred and its stronger version, rage) is a poisonous supernatural entity. It keeps on asking for more sacrifice and more tribute while giving peanuts in return. It always tries to fool you that you need it and that you need its power, even though what power it gives to you is pitiful compared to the power it takes for itself. It will give you that "tiny" portion of power while it takes everything from you in exchange (relationships, finances, etc). I do believe there is a thing such as justified anger, what isn't justified though is holding on to that anger no matter the circumstances. I mean really, who is really being hurt by you holding to some anger about what someone did to you a year ago? It certainly ain't hurting them, they aren't some how receiving your "anger" telepathically and suffering for it are they? Nope, only person suffering from it is you and the anger will try to convince you that you need "it". I do believe this "Zen" state I was in was a transitional period and was showing me that I was close to being done with healing. First you acknowledge that there is both good and bad events that happen, basically being at a neutral point of "it is what it is" and just have this peace and serenity about everything that happens. Then the point of being above "Zen" is moving your mindset towards the good. Basically your moving from neutrality and "building" positively on top of it.

I feel like I'm at that point now. I did get to some point where I got some resistance and it shortly took a hold to make me do something that was self sabotaging "but" whatever Shannon put in 3.1. is amazing. It feels like the sub can see into the future and see what moves the "resistant" part of the subconscious is going to make and then position itself to take advantage of that move. Its like Chess is being played in my subconscious, the sub is looking 10 moves ahead and the resistant part is only seeing 2 or 3 moves ahead. This is absolutely amazing. Also, the "bridge" between my conscious and subconscious has become "clearer" so I can see this battle taking place in my mind but also the move and counter moves taking place in "reality". For some reason I find this all fascinating. The moves, counter-moves, the calculating and the strategy, I find it all interesting. I have personally seen the counter-moves the sub has done and have been in awe at it.

Anyway, on to the external results though. Mind you I did get some really good external results on Friday at work but I won't go into those as much even though they were great ( I might only mention a few if they give background for what happened today). Anyway, I went through the bloom today but this bloom was different. Usually if I get a bloom I get the results all at once, today though it happened incrementally over the course of a couple of hours and it felt more "natural" and permanent in a way. One other thing I should mention, about the "bridge", its like now I have some "Mind reading" ability. I can sense a couple of things: What someones intentions are, how are they feeling, what they are going to do or what they want to do but fear doing it, can "feel" what they are going through even from very far away, and interpret a lot of other things. Usually now its got to the point where its not just an intuition, its like I'm reading their energy somehow and interpreting it. Also, the part of the subconscious co-operating with the sub will literally send words to flash across my mind (Shy, afraid, intimidated, trying to attract me to make a move, hes trying to mate guard, showing me respect, etc). Anyway, I will break this into sections to make it easier starting with customer reactions and then the main girls/women at my job that are being affect:

Customers: Seen some interesting ones so far and there's been so many I can't recount them all. A lot of them have been either been interested but shy or too intimidated to try anything (mostly the married/have a boyfriend or aren't confidant in their looks type crowd of women) to acting really, really nice to the point of bending over backwards. As a reminder I work as customer service at different departments in the theater and with the last group I mentioned its like they are the ones that feel "honored" that I'm serving them. A few notable mentions though: I serve this one Chinese woman in the concession stand this morning and shes acting all goofy and funny. I assume shes really, really attracted and doesn't know how to get me to return the attraction so she acts socially awkward in a funny way. One from Friday that has her husband standing next to her ask me for a item, then ask me for another item, and then a third time ask me for another item. Her husband has this blank face on the entire time. I get off work on Friday night and head towards the escalator and see this woman with these big breast heading towards the escalator as well with her boyfriend or husband. I feel the Aura project and we lock eyes for a moment. I get on the escalator and see her glance at me again from the side as she gets on the escalator. I automatically she slightly starts beta-zing her husband within earshot. I kind of laugh at that.

Aly: Coworker who most of it is intuition and words from my subconscious that inform me about her though I'm seeing somethings. I've noticed over the past few days that she has been very helpful and been really nice when saying greetings to me. I think shes holding back a little because she has a boyfriend. Aura Analysis: moderate amount of aura unless she gets hit with short range sniper. The short ranger sniper seems to intimidate her somewhat and makes her close up a bit. (Got hit Friday to today)

unknown: Another coworker who only just started working here a few weeks ago and I don't know her name yet. She is Hispanic. For some reason when I see her I think Michelle Rodriguez from the fast and furious movies. She looks good and has a good body though it feels like she has a "rough" edge to her and she has a slight masculinity to her as well. We've only talked a few times , mostly me helping her with something, but I can tell shes attracted. She just doesn't know how to go about doing something about it and mostly results to asking me to help her with something. On a relevant note, the way I know she or any other woman is getting hit with the aura or is interested is by eye contact. When I make eye contact with a women who is being affected with the aura and is getting attracted there is this "intense" kind of energy that happens with that eye contact. When it happens She either looks away or we both look away because of the intensity of it. Aura analysis: Getting hit with the higher end of the spectrum of the aura (Got hit on Friday to today).


Also Unknown: Another new co-worker. Can definitely tell shes attracted and is shy and intimidated. I can also tell when I'm around she really wants to say something to me but can't find the courage to do it 90% of the time. When did talk a little bit on Friday night and today but I could tell she was scared to do even that much. Aura Analysis: Get hit with the high end of the aura.

C: Co-worker who's been working there for a while. Rarely says Hi to me but started to do so. I'm not as interested consciously but subconsciously who knows. Shes a short girl with with a high pitched girly tone to her. As you can imagine, doesn't have much of a body but she seems to have a generally nice demeanor. Besides the actually greeting me now I did notice something on Friday night. She was pushing a cart right in front of me (only a few feet at best) and while she was kind of pushing it she was bouncing on her feet which caused her butt (or what little of what she had for one) to jiggle in front of me, obviously not a coincidence. Aura Analysis: Moderate amount of aura being projected but not consciously interested that much.

L: Lower manager who has worked there for quite a long time and is very, very good looking. She also has curves in all the right places and nice pair of boobs. This one is going to take a little bit of time (Something my subconscious has told me) or it might have more of a break-thru during 3.2. She seems to get hit with the short range sniper massively and I see some results from it (doing something in my presence every once in a while or see her glance at me) but like I said subconscious says its going to take a while (with 3.1. at least) and I know why. Shes very nice and I get the feeling she would treat any guy shes with like a king. The problem is that the last guy she was with cheated on her (Don't know why, if you knew this girl's personality and how good she looks you would think the guy was an idiot). Since then she has kind of sworn off relationships. So I think shes kind of backing off from too much expression of it because shes been hurt before. So she needs to work through the past emotional pain first. Aura Analysis: High end of the spectrum for sure. I literally feel my body shake and have energy run through it when she is around.

E: In high school but will be graduating soon and therefore shall be "legal" (Technically already legal since shes 18 already). Definitely getting hit with the aura but I feel she is intimidated, and not sure if she should act on any of it. I remember I walked in the break-room without saying Hi to her and took out my phone. She then said, "Darth... what the hell! No hello?". She seemed to be very animated when she was talking to me that time. Other times she just says a quick hello like she is acting very, very shy. She didn't get cheated on but a guy she knew and liked had to choose between E and another girl. He choose another girl. I think because of that shes kind of uneasy about jumping into anything. Aura analysis: something in between moderate and high end of the aura.

S: Shes a coworker and friend of E. Hasn't said that much to me but I have noticed her glancing at me several times while in the break room while on her phone. Has a boyfriend who works there so probably not acting on it out of that. Aura analysis: Moderate to slightly above moderate.

R: Coworker who is definitely getting hit by the aura. I started noticing it on Friday night. Was sitting in the break room with R, 2 other girls and 2 other guys. At first nothing, but after a while I started noticing the multiple glances and eye contacts. There was another time I was sweeping around her register and in the back of my head I got "Shes getting hit hard". She all of a sudden told the guy on a register across from her that she would be right back and fled towards the back near the break room (She doesn't want to do something she'll regret, she has a boyfriend that works there). A little on I have go by there and I just see her standing near the break room like she was shocked about something and trying to calm herself down. I also noticed the eye contact when I passed by, "Scared". Later that night she says, "Well, look who it is" and I just say high. I noticed while I'm about to past by her that she laughs kind of awkwardly like she was trying really hard to get my attention. Today, I noticed some of the same stuff, didn't try to talk to me but I kept on locking eye with her at times and I saw "nervousness, scared, but attracted". Aura analysis: High end of the spectrum for sure.

I: Now this one takes the cake. Not legal, yet but will be in like 2 or 3 months. Shes only been working here for a couple of weeks. Is very shy, with me at least, and doesn't seem to want to progress anything unless you make a move. I noticed right away when I saw her after my new found "powers" were acquired that sometimes it felt the like the aura powered up massively and my heart would skip a beat (corny I know). I noticed the glances at first and that's all I got on Friday night besides her asking me something about a event at work. I felt like she really wanted to talk to me at times but couldn't get over the shyness. Today though oh my word. I just started making funny jokes and comments here and there since we were working in the same section and she seemed to open up after that. It seemed to progress really really fast. Notable things she said that indicated interest to me:

"Whats your sign?"
"How old are you?" etc

She seemed really interested in my answering her "screening" questions. I also mentioned a few things about my income (apparently the autopilot was gearing me towards this because she needs the attraction along with a "provider" type feel to her partner). Having the attraction with the provider type feel must have sent her over the edge because she suddenly said she had to use the bathroom. I heard my subconscious over the bridge: "Shes going to go clean herself up (Masturbate)". I was a little shocked by this statement but not too much. When she came back I locked eyes with her and it was like she went into deer in the headlights and then smiled broadly afterwards. She also asked if I was married (another screening thing) of which I said no and she said (surprised), "Aww why not?". I told her I almost got married but the woman turned out to be really bossy, to which she said "Oh". Another question, "Are you looking for a romantic partner?". I said yeah. She said, "Awwww (girly tone)". Now here's the interesting thing I sense she kind of lost interest when I said I didn't live alone and with my mother but my subconscious basically said, "Don't worry about it I will take care of that". I went on my last break before I left. I literally felt my subconscious project a certain part of the aura. I'm pretty darn certain this was the "reset" part of the aura so he reset her attraction level to before she found out I wasn't living alone and on top of that projected even more of the aura to her on top of that (I'm guessing short range sniper except for I was seeing her in my mind's eye I guess). I felt over the distance that she was getting hit massively with the aura, it was ridiculous. Aura Analysis: definitely very high end of the spectrum next to L.

M: coworker who I see more as a friend or sister than romantic interest. Getting hit with the aura and tried getting my attention but didn't give her much. I noticed afterwards that she was acting distant because she was jealous that I was giving the other girls more attention instead of her so she was acting like a brat. She also have very low self esteem and has insecurity issues, that's probably why I'm getting that response. Don't really care because not consciously interested really. she can sit and sulk for all I care.

J: Coworker who I pick on and am not interested in consciously at all. Been acting generally the same but feel there is something "different" between us.

Anyway, that's about it for that. Other things to note, wasn't sure if I should mention this but I feel like I should be transparent so Shannon can gleam something from these things. I'm pretty sure I have two long range snipers. Don't ask me how but I can see it in my minds eye. On top of that despite all this sniping going on, my eating habits have gone down back to normal pre-DMSI levels. If I do get hungry its ravenous but at the same time its no different than how much I normally eat. This gets me to another thing that probably influences the first two things I mentioned. My subconscious seems to have accessed some very powerful source of energy that is fueling all this. I'm pretty certain what it is but It has to do with Rule #4 so can't go into detail. Lastly, based on a experience I had I am pretty much convince there is a super or collective conscious that is higher than even the subconscious. Anyway, thanks for reading my big wall of text. Would have made it shorter but so much to go over. You all have a nice day. (Sorry for any typos, too lazy to go through all that to correct them).

P.S. Forgot to mention, all these results were from Version A. Based on this, I'm pretty sure about 85% through the healing because the results I'm getting is something that I would expect to happen while running B.

Well, with great regret I'm going to have to say that I'm getting off this 3.1. train.

Not totally sure what I'm going to run next but we shall see. I do think this last post on 3.1 though will hopefully help plug in this "hole" in the program that I have mentioned before. I have become absolutely convinced the resistant part of my subconscious is able to take control of the manifestation and reality bending tech in the sub to nullify any gains made. I already had a inkling of this in 3.01 but it feels like its gone up even more during 3.1. A run down of what has happen basically is that every time it looks like things are going well with a particular girl some out of left field event happens that sabotages things from going further. For example, most of the girls that were giving me those big IOIs that I mentioned last post have either quit or gotten fired. I'm sorry but that can't be a coincidence that as soon as a girl starts getting interested that most of them get fired or quit and I never see them again.

On top of that I have noticed whenever I try to meet them "half way" by getting out of my comfort zone and actually get out there its like they either go cold or (like text, what not) they just go silent. I've seen this multiple times on tinder as well. As soon as I push for a meet up they either go really silent, make up excuses as to why they can't meet up, or start acting really bitchy all of a sudden. I've seen other things happen as well. For example, I've already had 2 incidents where the girl gets interested but then all of a sudden a event happens where they get angry at some insignificant thing which ends up making us both angry at each other and we end up never talking to each other again. Already have 2 female co-workers who I'm not on talking terms with over stupid shit that they have gotten angry about.

ugh, then the worst of them all. I don't know what my subconscious fears but its apparently so bad that it rather have PTSD again than execute the script. I had a event happen where the girl acted really, really racist towards me which actually caused me to get PTSD... again! I had to take a break for a bit to use MHS for a while to heal myself from that. I will admit I am really frustrated and angry , not at Shannon or anything obviously, but it seems like everytime I start getting good results or IOIs from women and then I get out of my comfort zone to move it along my subconscious says, "uh uh we can't have that better cause something to happen to nullify this" and then it leads to no where. I've even tried to move things along with my LDS target and she started to act cold and distant.

In a wrap up, I would say at least in my experience the main issue I'm facing with the program at the moment is that the resistant part of my subconscious seems to be able to take control of some of the manifestation techniques and reality bending in the sub then use it to nullify any gains made. Its getting really frustrating. I feel like there needs to be developed someway for the manifestation and reality bending techniques to not be used by the part of you resisting. Either way, I think I will be running something else for a while until maybe 3.2. comes out. Some will probably just say i'm running away. I kindly ask that those people not post in my journal if that is the case. I'm sorry but when your subconscious resist so badly that it would cause your mental disorder to resurface I'm out at that point until that hole gets plugged. I've lived with PTSD most of my life and I have no interest in revisiting that horrid time in my life. Hopefully this information will help with further development of the program so the subconscious doesn't have this avenue of resistance anymore.

(05-08-2017, 10:23 AM)DarthXedonias Wrote: [ -> ]On top of that I have noticed whenever I try to meet them "half way" by getting out of my comfort zone and actually get out there its like they either go cold or (like text, what not) they just go silent. I've seen this multiple times on tinder as well. As soon as I push for a meet up they either go really silent, make up excuses as to why they can't meet up, or start acting really bitchy all of a sudden. I've seen other things happen as well.

Had this too. Girl contacted me online last week I replied and radio silence.

Also, ditto on the comfort zone phenomenon. I've stated it many times: the better I get, the worse my results get. I overcome fears, get healthier, put on muscle, get more social, and all I get from it is increased amogging, ghosting, and inability to relate to people. It's like improving worsens your results.

I had this destroying manifestation too so you are not the onl one everytime it seems to get somewhere stuff like you mentioned happens

Sarge: Yeah, I don't understand whats happening really. I'm more outgoing and extroverted than I've ever been and its like instead of being able to reach the end goal of the program I'm getting the exact opposite. I will get the IOIs but then when I try to push forward with taking it somewhere they automatically change their minds or something.

(05-08-2017, 11:16 AM)Dzemoo Wrote: [ -> ]I had this destroying manifestation too so you are not the onl one everytime it seems to get somewhere stuff like you mentioned happens

Yeah, with my LDS target there was literally one time she stalked me across campus (2 weeks ago) yet over the weekend when I tried to take it somewhere she ghosted me and then today she acted like nothing ever happen. I admit I am getting really discouraged honestly and I know that's the point. If what I believe is true it feels like when one of these "events" happen that derails everything It starts to regenerate those old beliefs yet again so it feels like i'm back at square one. I start feeling the anger towards women and how they try to treat me like crap coming back to the surface. That's why I'm not interested in running this version at least anymore. Whats the point in running it if my subconscious has "access" to some magical button that can cause something to happen that will reset all my progress back down to zero. I will just have to wait til 3.2 which I assume will be much stronger and probably keep this from happening. Until then I will definitely run MLS once it comes out. I've spent an entire year focused on getting women and sex and I feel like I could have spent that entire time increase my financial standing, social standing and prestige. So, now I'm just going to focus on myself and not on women as much until 3.2 comes out. Though I admit I am tempted to try a AYP just to see if that produces less resistance for me. We shall see though.

Funny enough its easier for me to resist this Version than the earlier ones, makes no fucking sense, i never resisted an attraction sub before

Had an example of this in sales today where the woman was setting an app with me and she suddenly got cold feet and literally told me "I'm just not sure" like wtf?

I did get an app after that tho.

Yeah, I don't quite understand whats going on with this version. At first I really liked it but as soon as I try to take any prospects go anywhere it goes all down hill. Its like the reality bending and manifestation works well when its just me getting really good IOIs but as soon as it tries to go anymore beyond that my subconscious just says, "oh, can't have anymore than that" and the whole thing goes to hell. Before in other versions the resistence was more subtle but with this one its just so obvious for some reason. I think I'm just so frustrated because I'm coming off a weekend where this happened twice! One girl ended up not talking to me over something really stupid and another (the LDS target I mentioned) just totally got cold feet and wants nothing else to do with me anymore. This is literally just one day after she was having a good conversation with me and offering to buy me a coffee.

I did notice something though today. When I was in a very bad mood because of the above mentioned things its like the aura activated for some reason. My old beliefs came back somewhat and I just had this "fuck them" attitude towards all women. Like I literally didn't give a crap about any of them that I saw then all of a sudden I start seeing IOIs again but since (1) I don't give a shit at the moment therefore i didn't pursue any of them, and (2) I didn't pursue any of them because it was like "whats the point as soon as I try to go somewhere with it my subconscious is going to sabotage it". So basically it feels like I'm experience something that Sarge and Ben have noted. If i'm angry at them all of a sudden I start getting even more IOIs. If I start getting good results its like my mind says, "Oh this is headed somewhere I don't want to go" and it shuts its down which is something similar to what Ben has said before. I honestly, don't know what to do at this point about this recurring pattern that seems to happen. Not to mention can't really take this emotional roller-coaster anymore of getting IOIs, then proceeding to do something about it only to get treated like garbage when taking action.

(05-08-2017, 07:33 PM)DarthXedonias Wrote: [ -> ]Yeah, I don't quite understand whats going on with this version. At first I really liked it but as soon as I try to take any prospects go anywhere it goes all down hill. Its like the reality bending and manifestation works well when its just me getting really good IOIs but as soon as it tries to go anymore beyond that my subconscious just says, "oh, can't have anymore than that" and the whole thing goes to hell. Before in other versions the resistence was more subtle but with this one its just so obvious for some reason. I think I'm just so frustrated because I'm coming off a weekend where this happened twice! One girl ended up not talking to me over something really stupid and another (the LDS target I mentioned) just totally got cold feet and wants nothing else to do with me anymore. This is literally just one day after she was having a good conversation with me and offering to buy me a coffee.

I did notice something though today. When I was in a very bad mood because of the above mentioned things its like the aura activated for some reason. My old beliefs came back somewhat and I just had this "**** them" attitude towards all women. Like I literally didn't give a crap about any of them that I saw then all of a sudden I start seeing IOIs again but since (1) I don't give a shit at the moment therefore i didn't pursue any of them, and (2) I didn't pursue any of them because it was like "whats the point as soon as I try to go somewhere with it my subconscious is going to sabotage it". So basically it feels like I'm experience something that Sarge and Ben have noted. If i'm angry at them all of a sudden I start getting even more IOIs. If I start getting good results its like my mind says, "Oh this is headed somewhere I don't want to go" and it shuts its down which is something similar to what Ben has said before. I honestly, don't know what to do at this point about this recurring pattern that seems to happen. Not to mention can't really take this emotional roller-coaster anymore of getting IOIs, then proceeding to do something about it only to get treated like garbage when taking action.

I'm noticing it's usually when I feel discomfort at a situation that the sweet spot seems to trigger. Keep in mind I'm not having girls approach me for sex, but today I sat in the feeling of discomfort and girl after girl started approaching me.

Maybe it's the experience of actively feeling discomfort while not also pushing against or through it.

That could be Nox. When I was trying to get with my hairdresser, I was very nervous and felt like I had to really push myself.

(05-08-2017, 07:33 PM)DarthXedonias Wrote: [ -> ]Yeah, I don't quite understand whats going on with this version. At first I really liked it but as soon as I try to take any prospects go anywhere it goes all down hill. Its like the reality bending and manifestation works well when its just me getting really good IOIs but as soon as it tries to go anymore beyond that my subconscious just says, "oh, can't have anymore than that" and the whole thing goes to hell. Before in other versions the resistence was more subtle but with this one its just so obvious for some reason. I think I'm just so frustrated because I'm coming off a weekend where this happened twice! One girl ended up not talking to me over something really stupid and another (the LDS target I mentioned) just totally got cold feet and wants nothing else to do with me anymore. This is literally just one day after she was having a good conversation with me and offering to buy me a coffee.

I did notice something though today. When I was in a very bad mood because of the above mentioned things its like the aura activated for some reason. My old beliefs came back somewhat and I just had this "**** them" attitude towards all women. Like I literally didn't give a crap about any of them that I saw then all of a sudden I start seeing IOIs again but since (1) I don't give a shit at the moment therefore i didn't pursue any of them, and (2) I didn't pursue any of them because it was like "whats the point as soon as I try to go somewhere with it my subconscious is going to sabotage it". So basically it feels like I'm experience something that Sarge and Ben have noted. If i'm angry at them all of a sudden I start getting even more IOIs. If I start getting good results its like my mind says, "Oh this is headed somewhere I don't want to go" and it shuts its down which is something similar to what Ben has said before. I honestly, don't know what to do at this point about this recurring pattern that seems to happen. Not to mention can't really take this emotional roller-coaster anymore of getting IOIs, then proceeding to do something about it only to get treated like garbage when taking action.

Yeah man, that hate energy. >>

In all seriousness, if I were training you for sales and you said that the people at the door seemed interested only to flake on you when you offered the sale, I'd tell you you were going too fast, hadn't gained their trust, or seemed too eager for the sale.

Well, things just got worst for some reason and I could really use some feedback.

So, I stopped the sub, obviously, and then something else popped up. So, it was like earlier this week I was angry at myself this week about whatever is holding me back and sabotaging my efforts. Then earlier today I got really depressed after I started thinking about some Asian woman acting really racist towards me last week and how I had another two prospects the aura was working on just go down hill this weekend. After that I started having suicidal thoughts for like 45 minutes. Just thinking about why whatever I'm fearing won't allow me to progress, this sense of hopeless like I can't get past whatever it is I fear and then just wanting to end it all. Not to worry though I don't think I will be giving into that voice but it is sudden seeing as I haven't had such thoughts for about 2 years now.

I guess part of the depression came from the fact that I've tried so hard to change, put myself out there, and become vulnerable only to be treated like crap in return. Its making me want to retreat back into myself again. I i'm wondering if this is due to some bloom affect? Should I just keep running the sub anyway or maybe I should just take a total break from subs for a while.

well, haven't posted for a while and will try to keep this short.

ok, so despite what i said I continued with his version. I just took 2 days off then have continued for the last couple of weeks. I think it is slowly working through whatever is going on behind the scenes and I think the resistence is just exhausting itself trying to keep up this game (Redefining terms, subtle self sabotage). One thing gives me this impression. For the past 2 weeks or so I have been getting this aching feeling in my sacral chakra area that has gotten bad at times. I only have two ways of explaining this: (1) the sub is working on something big behind the scenes and its activating what happens when I get stressed (apparently my stomach starts painfully contracting when I'm really stressed out) or (2) i'm activating the punishment side of the script for parts that aren't co-operating. I believe it is the second option. I believe this because the first time I got this painful stomach/ sacral contraction in the last couple of weeks is after I woke up and apparently the aura was blazing and my mind soon tried to shut it down which led to a very painful experience (I was contemplating going to the emergency room). This seems to be happening less and less though. So I guess that part of me that is in charge of this energy center is not co-operating but running out of power to resist.

As a side note, I keep on getting this weird energy moving up and down my spine (Kundalini?). On the women front school is over with so don't have as many test subjects. I have noticed 2 people though. That one Hispanic chick I have mentioned before has started acting weird. I only see her as an acquaintance (probably only will for now on) but shes starting to act different. Last time we hanged out the conversation kept on getting sexual, she kept on laying down in close proximity to me and kept on touching me while talking a couple of times. Once again though given whats happened before even if shes changed her mind not really interested. That's despite that also given our last meeting she was apologizing for doing some stuff previously.

The other one is another Hispanic chick who just graduated high-school. I think shes been heavily affected since she started working there (She was the one who I thought went to the bathroom to clean herself up in one of my previous posts). Apparently she was really hit hard today because:

- Kept on pestering me to do things for her or change job positions with her at the beginning of the day (shit test). I kept on saying no while giving comebacks and laughing at her whining about not getting what she wanted (She even threatened to delete me off snapchat as if that was some kind of threat rofl). Apparently I passed these shit test because she kept on getting in close proximity to me all the time and she said if anyone else had done what I had done she would be super pissed.

- Kept on following me around during work.

-at one point I knelled to get something out of a fridge then at the same time she bent over to get something while only being a few inches away from me and aiming her butt at me. When I went to stand up she unbent herself at the same time (?).

- Later on kept on bothering me to buy her lunch (which came out of no where really). As with anything she asks I either (1) Don't do it while mocking her or (2) make her work for it. In this case I made her work for it and bought her lunch.

-While waiting for lunch she was literally following me like some puppy and I felt like she was literally breathing on me at times.

- What was interesting though was while also waiting she wanted me , out of no where, to give her a nickname.

eh, either way I'm just going to see where this goes. I hope shes still around once 3.2 comes out (shes going to college miles away from where I'm at though still in state). Of interest though is that this girl has like 3000+ followers on snap chat and is really good looking. I think shes one of those girls that is use to guys giving her whatever she wants or being to walk over them because shes good looking. Guess I'm different because I call her out on her bullshit or don't agree with her on everything. Now the funny thing about this whole thing, she claims shes into women but I think shes really just bi. I believe shes has been with guys before but because of bad experiences or maybe all of them are just really beta in this area shes just been more into women. Either way, just not going to have any expectations and see where it goes.

There is another Hispanic chick who has been acting definitely as well but not sure. She engaged me a lot in very early versions of DMSI then stopped for a while and now shes engaging me in conversation again. Anyway, that's all for now. Will just take it easy while continue with this version though I will switch to MLS once its out and will continue to run that until 3.2 comes out. I don't know why but I have this intuition that 3.2 is going to be the one where I will really see the results.

As a side note though I am really interested to see how MLS does, particularly in the realm of IQ. IQ as far as current up to date research says is about 80% genetic. If the IQ enhancement in MLS is able to move IQ up substantively then I guess this would point towards the subconscious being able to influenced the body on even a genetic level which would be interesting.