02-28-2019, 10:00 AM
Well, at Shannon's suggestion I think it is time for me to start a new Journal.
I will say this Magnus Engine Seems to have pushed things over quite a bit. I'm noticing some changes here and there at a faster rate.
There has been some major stuff that has happened even then up to a few mins ago that I need to cover. Unfortunately I had to let go of the one Filipina chick. Kind of made me sad but I noticed that I am not as sad as I would usually be. My main guess is that the E3 component is really helping out with that. There were a few things that lead up to this. When she got the measles I finally did contact her but some things didn't add up. Won't go over all of them but to name one specifically, I noticed that when we voiced chatted she said she was at the hospital. The problem is that the background noises (a rooster yelling out in the background, etc) were exactly the same as if she was talking right outside her home. Of course she eventually asked for "help" but for confirmation I asked for her to have me speak with one of the doctors then all of a sudden she acted like she couldn't hear me then the called ended. For full disclosure the mic I use for my PC does occasionally cut out sometimes but usually all I have to do is move my mic a bit and it fixes itself which is what I did in this conversation. Shortly afterwards she sends me pictures of supposedly her with the measles and where they gave her a shot. All this lead me to being very suspicious as you can think seeing as I already have experience somewhat with dealing with women from other countries.
It finally came to a head though when Indonesian chick contacted me say Cebu chick had texted her kind of angrily about how she had changed her mind about something (which actually made me change the schedule around for when I would be meeting them). This apparently made Cebu chick jealous so and then she started being angry with the other women for this even though this changed made things easier on my end. Apparently this angry texting by her went on for a while but she eventually calmed down (Indonesian chick actually remained calm and in control this whole time which I give her credit for). The most interesting thing the chick told me about this though was the fact she actually let it out that if I got 2 other women later on she would have to "let me go". That proved to me that even though she said she would be ok with this type of relationship in reality she has too many issues to be involved in this type of relationship despite what she might tell me personally. It was at this point I was pretty sure I would have to let her go. I think this was the happiness programming kicking in telling me if I got involved with her in the long term it would lead to long term unhappiness.
I still wanted to still think over it a few days though just to be sure but I left her a message earlier this morning saying I would talk to her in day because I was really thinking hard about this relationship I had with her. To my surprise she was still up and messaged me quite a few times afterwards then finally called me. I told her my issues and how she wasn't fit for this type of thing. To cut it short instead of waiting a day she asked me to just let her know now and I told her I would have to let her go. She did get very sad and for a split second due to hearing her sadness I thought about trying to make it work anyway but then it was like a voice in the back of my head said, "No, you won't turn back now and you know this is the right thing to do". So I stood strong and eventually the call ended. I'm now here typing out this report. Part of me is still sad though not as sad as I would usually be thanks to E3 in LTU 5.0. Part of me is relieved though because this means if I only have to deal with being with and eventually marrying just one chick at this time I won't have to worry about finances as much or getting multiple visas for when I teach English in Korea for a bit.
As far as the Indonesian chick is concerned it seems like the "improve your love life" is in full execution really. We are talking to each other more and I can hearing it in her voice and see it in her actions that she is falling for me more and more. Usually I would call her at night to talk to her when she is done with all her work during the day but now she is trying to voice call me early in the morning or other times during the day. She even said that she is getting more impatient to even see me and said she might talk with her mother and father about the payment thing in order to see me sooner. On top of that she has just said some things that has had me appreciate her more and how mature she is. For example she had mentioned she wouldn't mind if I am a bit broke later because having worked in Hong Kong for so long she realizes that sometimes hardship is going to happen. She mentioned also that she knows of couples where the women will get with a man because of his wealth and financial stability then when the guy falls on hard times she simply divorces him. She says she doesn't believe in such things as she realizes that hard times in life are going to come no matter what.
Just yesterday she decided while we were talking that she wanted to switch to video chat since she wanted to see my face. We hadn't video chatted really since that first week we met. It seems like she is eager to talk to me whenever she has the chance to. On the sexual side we seem to also be compatible. She really wants to try out new things in the relationship to keep it fresh where possible and she wants to make sure we keep growing and never get tired of each other. I guess Shannon was right about his assessment in my previous journal. The Cebu chick wanted to be submissive and obedient in exchange for not having to deal with and overcome her fears. In the long run this would cause issues seeing as I would constantly have to reassure her against her fears (which were popping up even now). In contrast the Indonesian chick is willing to deal and confront her fears. She wants to keep growing. On top of this she is still quite submissive but at the same time will tell me her true feelings on things though in a very respectful way. I've also noticed with her that when she doesn't like a certain habit of mine or something like that she will actually bargain with me. Basically asking me what she can do in exchange on her half for me changing a certain aspect of myself or what I do. She doesn't "demand" that I change something about myself as if it is her right to demand something of me or give me an ultimatum.
I am understanding now what Shannon means when he talks about his current girlfriend now. Given how this women is I am really not willing to give this relationship up for anything at the moment. I have not ran across a women like this before. I am sure there are other women like her out there but given that I have such a relationship right now I am not going to just give it up. Not to mention this women is perfectly fine with me having 3 more women later on as well and having a women like this who believes that and will keep her jealousy in check is pretty rare.
Any other news other things I have noticed is that I am definitely moving forward in my studies. I just got finished watching a list of videos to help pass my accounting class and will finish watching a few more today before I attempt the retest later tonight. Hopefully, this will keep rolling and I will be able to graduate sometime in early to mid March at least that is the plan. I am noticing more opportunities as well. I found out that if I don't like the whole Teaching English thing or don't want to do it long term I found out that even though having a MBA in the US isn't anything to too special Dubai actually is hiring plenty of people who have MBAs and they usually start out at 100k per year in that country. This is even more so if your from a western country. Turns out if your a educated westerner your income is usually going to be up to 5x greater than people from other countries because Dubai wants to attract lots of educated talent and they are very pro capitalist. So they see people from the US for example as a huge asset. That just gives me another path to being very financially secure. Matter of fact I found out quite a few countries in Asian are willing to pay a lot for a westerner with a MBA. So there is a chance I can go straight for a masters in Business Administration while I'm in Korea then go to somewhere like Dubai in order to make really good money.
Anyway, I have to say so far this sub is very good and I see myself changing for the better. Seems like this complete magnus engine is a real game changer.
I will say this Magnus Engine Seems to have pushed things over quite a bit. I'm noticing some changes here and there at a faster rate.
There has been some major stuff that has happened even then up to a few mins ago that I need to cover. Unfortunately I had to let go of the one Filipina chick. Kind of made me sad but I noticed that I am not as sad as I would usually be. My main guess is that the E3 component is really helping out with that. There were a few things that lead up to this. When she got the measles I finally did contact her but some things didn't add up. Won't go over all of them but to name one specifically, I noticed that when we voiced chatted she said she was at the hospital. The problem is that the background noises (a rooster yelling out in the background, etc) were exactly the same as if she was talking right outside her home. Of course she eventually asked for "help" but for confirmation I asked for her to have me speak with one of the doctors then all of a sudden she acted like she couldn't hear me then the called ended. For full disclosure the mic I use for my PC does occasionally cut out sometimes but usually all I have to do is move my mic a bit and it fixes itself which is what I did in this conversation. Shortly afterwards she sends me pictures of supposedly her with the measles and where they gave her a shot. All this lead me to being very suspicious as you can think seeing as I already have experience somewhat with dealing with women from other countries.
It finally came to a head though when Indonesian chick contacted me say Cebu chick had texted her kind of angrily about how she had changed her mind about something (which actually made me change the schedule around for when I would be meeting them). This apparently made Cebu chick jealous so and then she started being angry with the other women for this even though this changed made things easier on my end. Apparently this angry texting by her went on for a while but she eventually calmed down (Indonesian chick actually remained calm and in control this whole time which I give her credit for). The most interesting thing the chick told me about this though was the fact she actually let it out that if I got 2 other women later on she would have to "let me go". That proved to me that even though she said she would be ok with this type of relationship in reality she has too many issues to be involved in this type of relationship despite what she might tell me personally. It was at this point I was pretty sure I would have to let her go. I think this was the happiness programming kicking in telling me if I got involved with her in the long term it would lead to long term unhappiness.
I still wanted to still think over it a few days though just to be sure but I left her a message earlier this morning saying I would talk to her in day because I was really thinking hard about this relationship I had with her. To my surprise she was still up and messaged me quite a few times afterwards then finally called me. I told her my issues and how she wasn't fit for this type of thing. To cut it short instead of waiting a day she asked me to just let her know now and I told her I would have to let her go. She did get very sad and for a split second due to hearing her sadness I thought about trying to make it work anyway but then it was like a voice in the back of my head said, "No, you won't turn back now and you know this is the right thing to do". So I stood strong and eventually the call ended. I'm now here typing out this report. Part of me is still sad though not as sad as I would usually be thanks to E3 in LTU 5.0. Part of me is relieved though because this means if I only have to deal with being with and eventually marrying just one chick at this time I won't have to worry about finances as much or getting multiple visas for when I teach English in Korea for a bit.
As far as the Indonesian chick is concerned it seems like the "improve your love life" is in full execution really. We are talking to each other more and I can hearing it in her voice and see it in her actions that she is falling for me more and more. Usually I would call her at night to talk to her when she is done with all her work during the day but now she is trying to voice call me early in the morning or other times during the day. She even said that she is getting more impatient to even see me and said she might talk with her mother and father about the payment thing in order to see me sooner. On top of that she has just said some things that has had me appreciate her more and how mature she is. For example she had mentioned she wouldn't mind if I am a bit broke later because having worked in Hong Kong for so long she realizes that sometimes hardship is going to happen. She mentioned also that she knows of couples where the women will get with a man because of his wealth and financial stability then when the guy falls on hard times she simply divorces him. She says she doesn't believe in such things as she realizes that hard times in life are going to come no matter what.
Just yesterday she decided while we were talking that she wanted to switch to video chat since she wanted to see my face. We hadn't video chatted really since that first week we met. It seems like she is eager to talk to me whenever she has the chance to. On the sexual side we seem to also be compatible. She really wants to try out new things in the relationship to keep it fresh where possible and she wants to make sure we keep growing and never get tired of each other. I guess Shannon was right about his assessment in my previous journal. The Cebu chick wanted to be submissive and obedient in exchange for not having to deal with and overcome her fears. In the long run this would cause issues seeing as I would constantly have to reassure her against her fears (which were popping up even now). In contrast the Indonesian chick is willing to deal and confront her fears. She wants to keep growing. On top of this she is still quite submissive but at the same time will tell me her true feelings on things though in a very respectful way. I've also noticed with her that when she doesn't like a certain habit of mine or something like that she will actually bargain with me. Basically asking me what she can do in exchange on her half for me changing a certain aspect of myself or what I do. She doesn't "demand" that I change something about myself as if it is her right to demand something of me or give me an ultimatum.
I am understanding now what Shannon means when he talks about his current girlfriend now. Given how this women is I am really not willing to give this relationship up for anything at the moment. I have not ran across a women like this before. I am sure there are other women like her out there but given that I have such a relationship right now I am not going to just give it up. Not to mention this women is perfectly fine with me having 3 more women later on as well and having a women like this who believes that and will keep her jealousy in check is pretty rare.
Any other news other things I have noticed is that I am definitely moving forward in my studies. I just got finished watching a list of videos to help pass my accounting class and will finish watching a few more today before I attempt the retest later tonight. Hopefully, this will keep rolling and I will be able to graduate sometime in early to mid March at least that is the plan. I am noticing more opportunities as well. I found out that if I don't like the whole Teaching English thing or don't want to do it long term I found out that even though having a MBA in the US isn't anything to too special Dubai actually is hiring plenty of people who have MBAs and they usually start out at 100k per year in that country. This is even more so if your from a western country. Turns out if your a educated westerner your income is usually going to be up to 5x greater than people from other countries because Dubai wants to attract lots of educated talent and they are very pro capitalist. So they see people from the US for example as a huge asset. That just gives me another path to being very financially secure. Matter of fact I found out quite a few countries in Asian are willing to pay a lot for a westerner with a MBA. So there is a chance I can go straight for a masters in Business Administration while I'm in Korea then go to somewhere like Dubai in order to make really good money.
Anyway, I have to say so far this sub is very good and I see myself changing for the better. Seems like this complete magnus engine is a real game changer.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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