03-06-2026, 05:17 PM
Stage 0
Day 0/120
Cycle 0/6 4 days on / 2 days off
Well... Looks like I am back here, its been Checks profile Almost four years since my last post, and a lot had happened.
Working and getting burned out from working job for a year then eventually getting either moving to a higher paying job to getting laid off.
The biggest net-positive to happen to me was finally getting tested for ADHD and medicated.
Now on to the intention for the Journal, Its going to be primarily my way of keeping track of my days and my cycle on and cycle off because my ass cannot for the life of me keep to a cycle. I don't know how much I want to share moving forward but I'll see where it goes.
Stage 0 Expectations
I do not know what I expect to accomplish by the end of stage 0, maybe to "Grow up"? i guess?
Maybe learn to get over the deeply entrenched emotional hangups. I effectively gave up in many ways of wanting to connect with women.
What I do know is I felt fear of letting go of my creature comforts, my coping mechanisms, the things that let me disassociate and escape. Maybe it would survive after the whole thing, and I would have a healthier relationship with it.
On another note, I genuinely don't know how I am supposed to run the stages when I am traveling abroad with my friends. I am sharing hotel rooms with my friend and I rather not fuck him up with exposure to stage 3 or something during a vacation, that would be unpleasant. Maybe I can play it over headphones or something.
Day 0/120
Cycle 0/6 4 days on / 2 days off
Well... Looks like I am back here, its been Checks profile Almost four years since my last post, and a lot had happened.
Working and getting burned out from working job for a year then eventually getting either moving to a higher paying job to getting laid off.
The biggest net-positive to happen to me was finally getting tested for ADHD and medicated.
Now on to the intention for the Journal, Its going to be primarily my way of keeping track of my days and my cycle on and cycle off because my ass cannot for the life of me keep to a cycle. I don't know how much I want to share moving forward but I'll see where it goes.
Stage 0 Expectations
I do not know what I expect to accomplish by the end of stage 0, maybe to "Grow up"? i guess?
Maybe learn to get over the deeply entrenched emotional hangups. I effectively gave up in many ways of wanting to connect with women.
What I do know is I felt fear of letting go of my creature comforts, my coping mechanisms, the things that let me disassociate and escape. Maybe it would survive after the whole thing, and I would have a healthier relationship with it.
On another note, I genuinely don't know how I am supposed to run the stages when I am traveling abroad with my friends. I am sharing hotel rooms with my friend and I rather not fuck him up with exposure to stage 3 or something during a vacation, that would be unpleasant. Maybe I can play it over headphones or something.
