Self esteem 5.5G san_hal

[san_hal]

I was little down today, I am not sure it is because I am waiting for my interview results or it is effect of sub.

Could be both.

By the end of day , I got a feeling “ there only one way of living, that is being confident every second of your life , having empathy(i.e: not blocking your emotions), using emotions as a guide , and when you think your emotions are wrong correcting them, and all this while knowing that you can do it”.

This has become part of my thought process.

[san_hal]

Anxiety about future events like will i get the job, will my friends think i am stupid if i talk stupid, is eating me up.

I am setting reminder me about the events, like ill check mail every day at 1 pm to see if i got a reply.

I am going to use "responisblity transfer techinque" in chrasima myth book by olivia to remove my short term anxiety.

I am more actively searching ways to be better. I think that because of SE, i know i can handle life and i am just finding ways to handle it better now.

I can say that my inner voice is changing now, everytime i find myself in a difficult suitation, the voice is slightly more like you can handle it.

I want it to be like "you can suceed in it",

is that something which ill get using Ultra success or winner's mindset, or will i be able to use SE to get that results?

[san_hal]

I was prone to sleep walk in childhood.


I think i am removing my headphone and keeping it at night.

i am not able to listen to 6 loops for couple of days now.

i have to buy speaker to keep on either side of me. sleep headphones is not working for me.

[san_hal]

46 days on SE.

It is going good. Its natural not must resistance. I do get resistance on some days. But, It is fine overall.

I am more confident than ever.

[san_hal]

59th day,

I have reached a new plateau in terms of what I am.
I am high self-esteem and confidence has become my nature now.

I am training to be Assertive. This is a skill I had not learnt in a long while. Now that i am understanding it, my social anxiety has gone, i am not afraid of rejection, everything seems possible in the social sphere.

People reading this, Study about Assertiveness. It is the true nature of an adult. And aids in continues development.

[Benjamin]

Awesome results. Good that someone is still reporting on this as most people using it stopped posting.

[san_hal]

I woke up today with a confident mind set.

Usually I use to wake up with thoughts about ex. Today I woke up with understanding about how much better I am capable of and for how little I was settling..

I won the battle at last.

[san_hal]

Going to stop using SE to start UM/OP. I need a break of 3 weeks.


It was nice using SE. It did work through my issue.

I had a lot of vivid dreams initially. Overall progress was natural.


People have observed changes in me. but I guess change is part of life.
Ill will keep growing, i am sure i will keep using subs for long time. And i have set a long-term plan as to how i change my subs.

My future plans will include AM, DMSI, BASE, DFNWS.