01-22-2018, 01:32 AM
The more I read and think about what self-esteem is and what its absence means in all aspects of life the more I am convinced that I am lacking and have been without much self-esteem for most of my life.
I does explain (at least for me) why I am stuck in a rut with my life, why I am having difficulties advancing and even why many subs don't tend to work for me the way I expect they should and could.
It is not that I don't get anything out of subliminals, but I have reached a point where every superficial problem has been eradicated. In all honesty and looking back I probably reached that point at least one and a half years ago. Not knowing where to look to find the right clou about what to adress in order to go further I have been sub-hopping a lot. But it is not getting me anywhere. If anything, it lead to further erosion of my self-esteem.
I have been wondering how to find an alternative for the rage-drive that has been dissolved through many hours, days and months of H&C. Not being powered by defiantly stomping on the bullsh!t of the past is a good thing. But obliterating that does not equal finding a new (and better) source of energy and power.
Reading 'The Six Pillars of Self-Esteem' (thanks a lot for mentioning it Darwin!) along with listening to SE has opened my eyes quite a bit to the roots of my stagnation. Very often I find myself in the passages that explain what low self-esteem entails. It's like looking into a mirror sometimes.
SE will be good for me. And along the lines it may hold the key to unlock all the other subliminals for me.
At one point Shannon said it is necessary to work from the inside out. I certainly begin to agree! Especially after having done exactly the opposite for a long time without getting anywhere.
Enough for now. I'll let the sub sink in for a while and learn to swim with it.
I does explain (at least for me) why I am stuck in a rut with my life, why I am having difficulties advancing and even why many subs don't tend to work for me the way I expect they should and could.
It is not that I don't get anything out of subliminals, but I have reached a point where every superficial problem has been eradicated. In all honesty and looking back I probably reached that point at least one and a half years ago. Not knowing where to look to find the right clou about what to adress in order to go further I have been sub-hopping a lot. But it is not getting me anywhere. If anything, it lead to further erosion of my self-esteem.
I have been wondering how to find an alternative for the rage-drive that has been dissolved through many hours, days and months of H&C. Not being powered by defiantly stomping on the bullsh!t of the past is a good thing. But obliterating that does not equal finding a new (and better) source of energy and power.
Reading 'The Six Pillars of Self-Esteem' (thanks a lot for mentioning it Darwin!) along with listening to SE has opened my eyes quite a bit to the roots of my stagnation. Very often I find myself in the passages that explain what low self-esteem entails. It's like looking into a mirror sometimes.
SE will be good for me. And along the lines it may hold the key to unlock all the other subliminals for me.
At one point Shannon said it is necessary to work from the inside out. I certainly begin to agree! Especially after having done exactly the opposite for a long time without getting anywhere.
Enough for now. I'll let the sub sink in for a while and learn to swim with it.
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