12-29-2017, 03:17 AM
I really wished MLS would have done it for me. It didn't. So much of my sense of self worth depends on my ability to get shit done cognitively so I pinned a lot of hope on this.
To date there is only one program which has produced changes which I could honestly say were sustained and that is AM6, LTU gave me a glimpse of self worth, AM6 gave me boundaries and put me in touch with my darker, more dominating energies and this has sustained.
I don't blame the programs. It's simply the case that I am not on my own side. At an extremely fundamental level I do not believe I have a right to anything good, to a place on this planet, to exist - and no sustained change is possible until that is dealt with.
Two things a friend asked me to do revealed this to me. First they asked me to answer the question - 'how happy and successful would you allow yourself to be?', the answer turned out as 'not much at all'.
Second they asked me to repeat 'I have a right to exist', and everything about that statement made me want to run. It occurs to me that no subliminal is going to do the job when I don't even feel I have the basic right to breathe. So until I learn to be on my own side, no other subliminal is going to help.
Enter Self Esteem 5.5g which should be the answer to this problem. after the first night of listening I found myself continuously asking myself 'what would it look like if I actually cared about myself, how would I be working now if I actually cared about myself?'.
I also had an urge to really understand what Self Esteem means - so I went to look online for books, and found 'the six pillars of self esteem' by Nathaniel Branden - In it he has outlined what I found to be a comprehensive articulation of things I have thought in the past. He is a psychologist and seemingly an Ayn Rand devotee - I've often thought that the characters in Ayn Rand - although pretty shallow in dimensions, do represent the highest ideals of self esteem.
there is very little in the description of this program so I have no idea what to look out for. All I know right now is that I have a commitment to honouring the self as much as is humanly possible.
To date there is only one program which has produced changes which I could honestly say were sustained and that is AM6, LTU gave me a glimpse of self worth, AM6 gave me boundaries and put me in touch with my darker, more dominating energies and this has sustained.
I don't blame the programs. It's simply the case that I am not on my own side. At an extremely fundamental level I do not believe I have a right to anything good, to a place on this planet, to exist - and no sustained change is possible until that is dealt with.
Two things a friend asked me to do revealed this to me. First they asked me to answer the question - 'how happy and successful would you allow yourself to be?', the answer turned out as 'not much at all'.
Second they asked me to repeat 'I have a right to exist', and everything about that statement made me want to run. It occurs to me that no subliminal is going to do the job when I don't even feel I have the basic right to breathe. So until I learn to be on my own side, no other subliminal is going to help.
Enter Self Esteem 5.5g which should be the answer to this problem. after the first night of listening I found myself continuously asking myself 'what would it look like if I actually cared about myself, how would I be working now if I actually cared about myself?'.
I also had an urge to really understand what Self Esteem means - so I went to look online for books, and found 'the six pillars of self esteem' by Nathaniel Branden - In it he has outlined what I found to be a comprehensive articulation of things I have thought in the past. He is a psychologist and seemingly an Ayn Rand devotee - I've often thought that the characters in Ayn Rand - although pretty shallow in dimensions, do represent the highest ideals of self esteem.
there is very little in the description of this program so I have no idea what to look out for. All I know right now is that I have a commitment to honouring the self as much as is humanly possible.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.