Self esteem 5.5G nozw

[nozw]

Some of my family came over tonight and in two occasions I asserted myself in a way I normally don't do. The first things was my aunt who gave called me by means of a nickname. The thing is everytime I see her she uses an other nickname, but the most imporant thing is that I feel denigrated by the nicknames. I know she doesn't try to mock me on purpose but it still bothers me. So this time I just told her it was a bull shit nickname instead of just ignoring it. I also wasn't really concerned with me sounding boring. I have a deep montone voice which tend to be boring to listen to. On top of that the things I talk about also don't tend to be very exciting.
The last thing I noticed today is that I find it less difficult to make eyecontact with stangers when we pass by.

[nozw]

day 13:

Unfortunately I can't really say that I've noticed much changes after 13 days. I know that 13 days is not that long, but I expected more apparent changes after 2ish weeks from this sub since it's 5.5G. Especially because after running Asc for 30 days I felt changes earlier. But you know what, maybe I'm expecting too much right know and am I'm expecting changes in parts of my life that don't have to do with low self esteem. The good thing is though that there are maybe more changes than I'm aware because of the technology Shannon uses.

Today I went sight seeing a city with my parents and sister,(I'm on vacation) so this was a good occasion to judge some of the aspects of self esteem. A good thing I noticed was that I felt more entitlement to have my own space when walking through the city. A thing I tend to do a lot of times is when I walk in public places is making too much space for other pedestrians when passing by from the front. I feel that has to do with me feeling lesser than the other person passing by. It's a bit strange though because it's not a conscious though, so that would be subconscious. Another nice thing that happend was when a quiet attractive girl looked at me. A lot of times I would act like I don't notice her look at me. Especially when like in this case the girl is not standing alone but with a group of other girls. But this time I had the courage to look back at her. She immediately looked away when I looked at her, and after a few seconds she looked back at me. Unfortunately I was too much of a coward to look back at her the second time she looked. The positive side though is since she looked back a second time she was really interested in me.

The bad thing was that when walking through the city I felt quiet self conscious especially when walking past a terrace full of people. I also found it quiet hard to make eye contact with people who were passing by. To put this paragraph in perspective I always feel less confident and more self conscious when walking outside with my parents. So that explains some of the things but not everything.

Btw:

If any of you guys reading this want to write something in this thread like tips,experiences,anecdotes or something else, feel free to do it.

[nozw]

Day 14:

Just a short update for now. I feel very good today and way less self conscious. I'm not bothered by what other people think about me bevause right now my self validation comes from within. Woah it's amazing to feel like this.

Last night I also made a change in how I listen to the subliminal. I used to listen to the masked version through out the day for 2/3 loops with headphones. And listen to 3/4 masked loops during sleep with earphones. But last night I listend to 3/4 loops of the hybrid version instead of masked. I I also used my headphones as speakers instead of earphones at night.

[nozw]

day 14:
I feel good about myself. Just like yesterday I feel less self conscious,it's way more relaxing to live this way. A good example of this is that I publically stretched my neck muscles. This might not sound like a big deal.But I always feel I look quiet stupid when doing it, so I never do it where other people can see me (except at the gym, because it's normal to stretch there). But this time I just didn't care so I was quiet happy with it.

The last 2 days are going great. I hope I can continue that.

[nozw]

day 20:

I find it very hard to tell whether or not the program is working right now. I'm 100% sure it's not working, because like I said earlier maybe the sub is making subtle changes. The only problem is because of the lack of noticable changes it's getting harder to stay motivated to stick with this sub.

Unfortunately my self consciousnes has been back for the last 4 days. I hope this sub will soon start to help make changes in the particular aspects of my life I intended it to do. Because I'm getting a bit demotivated.


Still going strong for now

[nozw]

day 23:

I suspect that in my last post i went trough some resistance.
Right now I feel much better again. Yesterday I went to the city to buy some stuff and have a drink. I felt completely relaxed and my slef consciousnes has also dropped a lot again. An other great improvement I noticed was my eye contact with strangers. In the underground I noticed a man looking at me, instead of ignoring him like I usually do, I made eye contact with him. I still found it difficult to hold eye contact for longer time with strangers, however that wasn't needed this time since he looked away almost imdediately.
I also made eye contact with 2 good looking women. With the first women thh situatuion went exactly the same as with the men except it did happen on street. With the second women there was improvement. She looked at me, I looked at her and whd held eye contact for like 3 seconds. I couldn't handle more than that. It's just too intense for me right now.

The last thing I want to mention is something I also already mentioned in an earlier post. The way I walk is very powerful and confident. I always had a quiet relaxed confident walk, atleast that's what people told me. But right now it's improved even more, I really feel like a boss when walking. I also noticed that more people were willing to move out the way when I was passing them.

[nozw]

day 36:

I haven't done an update for almost 2 weeks, because the last 2 weeks have been a really smooth ride with not a few ups and a few downs. But overall very stable, so I didn't really have any worthy information to share on here.

What this program has done fore me so far Is like you would have expected. It has given me a big self esteem boost. One way this has become very apparent is that validation seeking has become lower.
To describe my overall growth in one sentence: I've become way more self secure/self content(but of course still wanting to improve myself).

Within a little bit more than a month I turn 18, so than I want to start AM6 when I'm allowed to. The ideal scenario would be that I do AM6 for 3 times, to have a very good foundation. I think the foundation is very important, however I'm also aware of the fact that running the same program for 1.5 years is way more difficult than it sounds.

How many days beforehand do you guys recommend to stop with this subliminal before I start with AM6? Thanks in advance.

[Shannon]

35 days is a good idea, given that it has the latest P6. Or, you can try less and see how it affects you.

[nozw]

Oke 35 days is a little bit more than I expected, so i'm glad I asked. After searching on the forum I thought around 2 weeks would be enough.
I will keep listening to SE till 1 September. After that I will take a 30 day break.

Shannon you mentioned specifically your P6 technology. Has this technology to do with the so called blooming effect? And because of that you recommend a relatively long break for a single stage sub?
This is just pure curiosity.

[Shannon]

Oke 35 days is a little bit more than I expected, so i'm glad I asked. After searching on the forum I thought around 2 weeks would be enough.
I will keep listening to SE till 1 September. After that I will take a 30 day break.

Shannon you mentioned specifically your P6 technology. Has this technology to do with the so called blooming effect? And because of that you recommend a relatively long break for a single stage sub?
This is just pure curiosity.

P6 causes the program to produce TID (starts affecting you before you start using it) and continue running in your head after you stop it. Blooming is not dependent on P6. Blooming is what happens when you switch from Input/Process/Adust/Execute Mode to Pure Execute Mode. The resources are freed up to execute more and better.

P6 does enhance the bloom, but does not cause it.

[Benjamin]

That's awesome, I didn't know you were 17. If I had SE 5.5g when I was 17 it would have made a big difference.

[nozw]

Yeah I'm very happy that i've come across these subliminals at such a young age.This is going to help me to build a good foudation.

Another thing I want to mention is that my intrest in MBTI and Enneagram has declined heavily the last 1.5~2 weeks. I've spent like a year intensively studying MBTI. I see that decline as a notable thing, because at a certain moment I began to suspect that the intrest was fueled by me not being very self secure, and wanting to belong to a group where I could identify myself with. I used it as a sort of way to cope with the outside world.

[THolt]

That's awesome, I didn't know you were 17. If I had SE 5.5g when I was 17 it would have made a big difference.

Same here. I came across Shannon's subs at 21 but I still wish I had them at your age in high school.

[nozw]

I know this probably isn't the right place to ask it, but I couldn't find the right place to ask it. So I hope someone can help me.


As you might have read I wanted to start AM6 when I become 18 (within a few days). I already bought the program a few days ago, out of excitement and so I can start immediately the day I become 18.
However unfortunately I've damaged my mothers car during a traffic accident. Fortunately it wasn't very severe so no people were injured, but I need/want to pay the repair costs myself.

I would like to refund AM6 for now so that I can pay the repair cost. I didn't expect to get such a big expense in the near future.

I didn't listen to AM6 yet because of the age limit. I will also delete the subs from my computer(I promise).

I hope you understand the situation. I also hope to buy the sub again when I've saved up enough money again.

kind regards