02-09-2026, 12:41 AM
Btw here's a self assessment of where I'm currently at for the stats I'm trying to cultivate. I had AI help me self assess. I made sure everything's pretty accurate and the AI provided a helpful framework I approve of. It might be off slightly here and there, but overall I'd say it paints a pretty accurate picture of where I'm at right now. I approached this with as much honesty as I could. I hope you are able to get as much value from this and my future posts as possible.
Baseline Self-Assessment — February 9, 2026
Context: 10 years of subliminal development (2021-2023 = LTU6 became the first turning point, 2023 - 2026 = All healing subs. (5.9+ subliminals accelerated growth significantly)).
*Starting point ~1-1.5 average.*
*Average person = 3.0 average*
*Scale is 1-10 where 5 = functional/average, 7+ = genuinely transformed, 9+ = extraordinary/mastery*
Concentration: 4.5
Diffuse attention, strong metacognitive awareness, catch wandering quickly but can't sustain full focus without significant effort
Baseline Hedonic Tone: 6
Pleasant undercurrent most of the time, occasional spontaneous bliss, still context-dependent under social pressure
Equanimity: 5
Stable under mild-moderate stress, freeze/withdraw pattern under strong triggers, hours to fully recover fully.
Somatic Healing: 6
Significant healing from catastrophic starting point (<=1), still processing layers via PRA, background relaxation with surface tension.
Metta / Radiating: 4.5
Genuine warmth present but blocked/contracted, not yet freely flowing.
Insight: 5-6
Direct perception of self-construction, nondual glimpses, can see "veil of fabrication," strong natural talent.
Physical Embodiment: 3.5
Sedentary, low physical confidence, decent somatic awareness from healing work.
Social Freedom: 4
Moderate inhibition, comfort in familiar contexts, avoidance of unfamiliar social situations, likely some habitual inertia beyond actual fear.
Pressure Resilience: 4
Functional under moderate pressure but high cost, performance degrades and depletes under sustained stress.
Compassion: 4
Growing, still primarily self-focused (appropriately so during healing phase), expanding toward wider circle.
Relational Wisdom: 4
Limited relationship experience, developing communication and boundary skills.
Ethical Integrity: 5
Strong on big things, occasional small compromises, high meta-awareness of self-deception patterns.
Energetic Development: 4
Subtle energy perceptible but undirected and undeveloped. Still not sure if this is placebo. *Frosted note: AI assessment says I likely have latent potential freed up from healing. Take with a grain of salt.
Shadow Integration: 6
Strength area — comfortable acknowledging full humanity, minimal projection, humor about own patterns.
Devotion / Surrender: 4
*Frosted note: Kinda not sure about this one, didn't really care that much and just shot from the hip on it. It's probably approximately accurate though and I could see it being 3 or 5 instead.
Death Relationship: 5
Sat with mortality through many dark nights, residual sorrow but not dominated by fear.
Average4.7
Highest: Somatic Healing (6), Shadow Integration (6), Hedonic Tone (6), Insight (5-6)
Lowest: Physical Embodiment (3.5), Social Freedom (4), Pressure Resilience (4), Compassion (4)
Pattern: Internal/healing dimensions developed, external/engagement dimensions lagging — consistent with subliminal-only development path.
Plan: Increase scores through contemplative practice (various meditation practices (starting with focus and metta)), possibly a martial art (if circumstances allow), and social exposure (when cicrumstances allow (still haven't gone to the trouble of buying a car)).
Baseline Self-Assessment — February 9, 2026
Context: 10 years of subliminal development (2021-2023 = LTU6 became the first turning point, 2023 - 2026 = All healing subs. (5.9+ subliminals accelerated growth significantly)).
*Starting point ~1-1.5 average.*
*Average person = 3.0 average*
*Scale is 1-10 where 5 = functional/average, 7+ = genuinely transformed, 9+ = extraordinary/mastery*
Concentration: 4.5
Diffuse attention, strong metacognitive awareness, catch wandering quickly but can't sustain full focus without significant effort
Baseline Hedonic Tone: 6
Pleasant undercurrent most of the time, occasional spontaneous bliss, still context-dependent under social pressure
Equanimity: 5
Stable under mild-moderate stress, freeze/withdraw pattern under strong triggers, hours to fully recover fully.
Somatic Healing: 6
Significant healing from catastrophic starting point (<=1), still processing layers via PRA, background relaxation with surface tension.
Metta / Radiating: 4.5
Genuine warmth present but blocked/contracted, not yet freely flowing.
Insight: 5-6
Direct perception of self-construction, nondual glimpses, can see "veil of fabrication," strong natural talent.
Physical Embodiment: 3.5
Sedentary, low physical confidence, decent somatic awareness from healing work.
Social Freedom: 4
Moderate inhibition, comfort in familiar contexts, avoidance of unfamiliar social situations, likely some habitual inertia beyond actual fear.
Pressure Resilience: 4
Functional under moderate pressure but high cost, performance degrades and depletes under sustained stress.
Compassion: 4
Growing, still primarily self-focused (appropriately so during healing phase), expanding toward wider circle.
Relational Wisdom: 4
Limited relationship experience, developing communication and boundary skills.
Ethical Integrity: 5
Strong on big things, occasional small compromises, high meta-awareness of self-deception patterns.
Energetic Development: 4
Subtle energy perceptible but undirected and undeveloped. Still not sure if this is placebo. *Frosted note: AI assessment says I likely have latent potential freed up from healing. Take with a grain of salt.
Shadow Integration: 6
Strength area — comfortable acknowledging full humanity, minimal projection, humor about own patterns.
Devotion / Surrender: 4
*Frosted note: Kinda not sure about this one, didn't really care that much and just shot from the hip on it. It's probably approximately accurate though and I could see it being 3 or 5 instead.
Death Relationship: 5
Sat with mortality through many dark nights, residual sorrow but not dominated by fear.
Average4.7
Highest: Somatic Healing (6), Shadow Integration (6), Hedonic Tone (6), Insight (5-6)
Lowest: Physical Embodiment (3.5), Social Freedom (4), Pressure Resilience (4), Compassion (4)
Pattern: Internal/healing dimensions developed, external/engagement dimensions lagging — consistent with subliminal-only development path.
Plan: Increase scores through contemplative practice (various meditation practices (starting with focus and metta)), possibly a martial art (if circumstances allow), and social exposure (when cicrumstances allow (still haven't gone to the trouble of buying a car)).
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