PTSDRA 6G (Round 2) - Frosted

[Frosted]

I often get particular songs stuck in my head when running subs, it's usually a reaction of my subconscious trying to find expression.

Songs are often layered with metaphors that make it easy to see yourself in them. It’s part of what makes them so fun.

[Shannon]

May I suggest that 20 minutes is also best to work up to. I suggest you start with trying to meditate for 1 minute. Then when you can consistently do that successfully, go to 2, then 3, then 4, then 5. Then start working on 7, then 10, then 15, then 20. People frequentlyand vastly underestimate how much practice they need with focus and concentration for meditation in my experience.

Some of the courses I have taught in the past requires a lot of focus and concentration and this is how we always end up starting, for this exact reason.

[Frosted]

May I suggest that 20 minutes is also best to work up to.  I suggest you start with trying to meditate for 1 minute.  Then when you can consistently do that successfully, go to 2, then 3, then 4, then 5.  Then start working on 7, then 10, then 15, then 20.  People frequentlyand vastly  underestimate how much practice they need with focus and concentration for meditation in my experience.

Some of the courses I have taught in the past requires a lot of focus and concentration and this is how we always end up starting, for this exact reason.

That could be a good idea, but I want to try getting caught up on my sleep first before I do that cause the lack of sleep is heavily impacting my ability to focus.

[Frosted]

Day 12 of meditation challenge. Did 20 minutes of focus. Was a decent session. Had about 8 hours of sleep so I’m sure that helped. Need to consistently get 8-10 so I can catch up on my sleep.

I did the meditation way earlier, I just didn’t post about it until now.

[Frosted]

Forgot to do meditation yesterday (I pushed it from the morning till later but by the time I remembered I was already laying in bed ready to fall asleep). I'll give myself a grace since I haven't been getting sleep and lately, but if it happens again I'm going to have to start either removing days or something else.

Day 13 of meditation challenge:

Got good sleep and had a productive 20 minute focus session.

[Frosted]

I feel like I'm starting to cultivate my emotional experience more consciously. It's like planting and watering seeds and then tending the plants. I hope if there's not anything in PRA like this that it gets put in in some form. I'd love to supercharge this kind of thing I'm noticing myself beginning to do.

Like the emotions I have are beginning to have more texture to them and I'm enjoying things a lot more. For example a favorite series of mine I haven't read in awhile just had a new book released and I relish the anticipation of curling up in bed and reading it while good music is playing and the window is open while under the covers. I would love more scripting to tend to the emotional garden to be able to better cultivate our inner emotional landscape.

Before it didn't feel like this "big thing", but now it's like an event for me and I love it. The way I feel about things is becoming more textured and nuanced. There's more space for pleasant things as things are cleared up. I just want to be able to cultivate the good stuff and remove the bad stuff better. Maybe I'm already executing the script and that's why I'm even bringing it up in the first place. Either way thank you, Shannon.