OSC 6G Log

[NOMAD]

DAY 36

Emotionally speaking, today was the smoothest day I've had since I began running OSC. There was no underlying anger and no emotional turmoil.

[ncbeareatingman]

DAY 36

Emotionally speaking, today was the smoothest day I've had since I began running OSC. There was no underlying anger and no emotional turmoil.

 Sweet !!

[NOMAD]

Day 44

Overall, the past week has been pretty smooth. But today, OSC started chipping away again. The current focus is my mid/late teenage years. Earlier, I had a brutally honest conversation with myself about the insecurities I faced during those years. I stripped away all facades. I can still feel some emotional pain from that time in my life. It's bearable, but it's still there. I thought I had healed from some of these things already, but OSC seems to be going into the deeper places that haven't seen the light of day in years. Some of my experiences from today were intense enough that my physical senses were heavily engaged. At one point, I could even smell the aluminum polish I used for my car's wheels. That was wild.

[ncbeareatingman]

Day 44

Overall, the past week has been pretty smooth. But today, OSC started chipping away again. The current focus is my mid/late teenage years. Earlier, I had a brutally honest conversation with myself about the insecurities I faced during those years. I stripped away all facades. I can still feel some emotional pain from that time in my life. It's bearable, but it's still there. I thought I had healed from some of these things already, but OSC seems to be going into the deeper places that haven't seen the light of day in years. Some of my experiences from today were intense enough that my physical senses were heavily engaged. At one point, I could even smell the aluminum polish I used for my car's wheels. That was wild.

Wow, thats incredible Man! Talk about RECALL !! Thats some serious remembering!! All the best with further progress!

[NOMAD]

Day 52

I continually exist in a state of self-consciousness with spurts of anger. My motivation to work out (developed on PM) is practically non-existent. If it wasn't for conscious willpower, I would've stopped. OSC has become a hindrance to progress.

In some ways, OSC feels like early 5.XXG sub where it's attempting to beat through a steel wall of resistance with a rubber mallet. This goes back to the concerns I've already expressed in this journal that maybe 6G is arousing resistance from a deeper level that it isn't able to overcome. It feels like 6G has picked a fight that it can't win.

I've been using ultrasonic per instructions since I started. Tonight I'll switch to masked. I honestly don't expect much improvement, but we'll see. I'm pretty confident that 62 days isn't enough. I'm very disappointed in this sub.

[Johannesbrst]

Day 52

I continually exist in a state of self-consciousness with spurts of anger. My motivation to work out (developed on PM) is practically non-existent. If it wasn't for conscious willpower, I would've stopped. OSC has become a hindrance to progress.

In some ways, OSC feels like early 5.XXG sub where it's attempting to beat through a steel wall of resistance with a rubber mallet. This goes back to the concerns I've already expressed in this journal that maybe 6G is arousing resistance from a deeper level that it isn't able to overcome. It feels like 6G has picked a fight that it can't win.

I've been using ultrasonic per instructions since I started. Tonight I'll switch to masked. I honestly don't expect much improvement, but we'll see. I'm pretty confident that 62 days isn't enough. I'm very disappointed in this sub.

Masked did a big difference for me. And if that don’t work try the hybrid, it will definitely kick your ass.

[Benjamin]

This goes back to the concerns I've already expressed in this journal that maybe 6G is arousing resistance from a deeper level that it isn't able to overcome. It feels like 6G has picked a fight that it can't win.

I'm feeling similar, like it's stirring up a deeper level of stuff but i'm not sure if it's helping to resolve it or not. I guess I have to stick to the 3 months to really see as I had a thought of since it's going deeper maybe the processing time is longer too.

Masked did a big difference for me.

Interesting, how did your results change when you started using masked?

[Johannesbrst]

Masked did a big difference for me.

Interesting, how did your results change when you started using masked?

It feels like masked is hitting more on a physical level while ultrasonic was hitting more of a mental level. That’s the best way I can describe it.

[NOMAD]

Day 53

Changing to the masked format was the way to go. I'm glad I changed. Last night,  I slept better than I have in a long time. Today I feel normal. The audio was louder than I expected it to be at 9 clicks. I'll probably change to ocean surf because I found the tricking stream to be borderline irritating. That's i first for me. I usually find it pleasant to listen to.

[NOMAD]

Day 53

Another night of solid sleep. 

The masked format leaves me wanting more. With 5.XXG subs I sometimes found myself craving more input even before autoconfig was implemented. The same thing is happening now.

[ncbeareatingman]

Day 53

Another night of solid sleep. 

The masked format leaves me wanting more. With 5.XXG subs I sometimes found myself craving more input even before autoconfig was implemented. The same thing is happening now.

Good Deal !   Go Nomad, Man on the move !!
  Finding "The sweet spot". A+ for effort !!

[NOMAD]

Day 65

I'm executing. It's not what I thought it would be like but I'm executing. The result is that I'm focused on the things that are important to me. I'm completely disinterested and borderline miserable at work. I have a side project that has captured my attention and it's where I'm primarily focused at the moment. My stress levels are very low right now. In fact, I think they're lower than when I was running PM. I'm also been very honest with myself concerning my inadequacies. I see now that I used to cover those inadequacies up with band aids. Now I'm looking them square in the eye without much thought and effort. There's some discomfort in that, but it's a detached discomfort.

Before anyone asks, no. I don't 'feel' more confident.

[ncbeareatingman]

Day 65

I'm executing. It's not what I thought it would be like but I'm executing. The result is that I'm focused on the things that are important to me. I'm completely disinterested and borderline miserable at work. I have a side project that has captured my attention and it's where I'm primarily focused at the moment. My stress levels are very low right now. In fact, I think they're lower than when I was running PM. I'm also been very honest with myself concerning my inadequacies. I see now that I used to cover those inadequacies up with band aids. Now I'm looking them square in the eye without much thought and effort. There's some discomfort in that, but it's a detached discomfort.

Before anyone asks, no. I don't 'feel' more confident.

 Honestly NOMAD,  confidence comes in many ways,including IMHO = you have to have strong confidence to be LOOKING at your self  honestly with no cover up, no frills, just what needs  changing, adjusting, revamping and lets go for it !! Thats some serious confidence Bubba, no bullshit!
 To Me when I was fully on OSC it worked with my own natural confidence , expanded it and  brought some special additions to it all & more. its a very special program. I still miss it. Fortunately UMS3 has some strong doses of confidence in it, for shure.  Peace.

[NOMAD]

Day 73

Since my last post, I feel like the program got stuck.  So last night,  I ran an ultrasonic loop. Big mistake. I woke up in the middle of the night with horrible anxiety. It's currently lunch time and the anxiety is still present. I'll switch back to masked tonight.

Any positive traction I experienced was short lived. I don't have the words to communicate how disappointed I am with this a sub. That's heartbreaking considering all the work Shannon put into it and how much i looked forward to 6G. It's just not delivering for me.