OSC 6G Log

[Johannesbrst]

Day 73

Since my last post, I feel like the program got stuck.  So last night,  I ran an ultrasonic loop. Big mistake. I woke up in the middle of the night with horrible anxiety. It's currently lunch time and the anxiety is still present. I'll switch back to masked tonight.

Any positive traction I experienced was short lived. I don't have the words to communicate how disappointed I am with this a sub. That's heartbreaking considering all the work Shannon put into it and how much i looked forward to 6G. It's just not delivering for me.

Couldn't it be that your feeling of being stuck or the anxiety is actually telltails that the program is working? 

I've had periods of OSC when I felt the same, feeling like nothing is happening (made me to run two loops masked per day, which made me exhausted) and feeling stuck. 

OSC has been the first program that has helped me tackle the root cause of my anxiety (which have made me think that confidence in a way is the opposite of anxiety). The progress is slow and not always clear that it does work, but it become harder and harder for me to deny that it does.  It's like the quote about learning philosophy - "If the progress isn't slow, there is no real progress".

For me OSC has targeted the deepest parts of my anxiety - stemmed in a sence of physical disconnection and instability, helped me work on them and made me realize that before those has been taken care of, there is no foundation to build a real sense of confidence on.

[NOMAD]

Day 73

Since my last post, I feel like the program got stuck.  So last night,  I ran an ultrasonic loop. Big mistake. I woke up in the middle of the night with horrible anxiety. It's currently lunch time and the anxiety is still present. I'll switch back to masked tonight.

Any positive traction I experienced was short lived. I don't have the words to communicate how disappointed I am with this a sub. That's heartbreaking considering all the work Shannon put into it and how much i looked forward to 6G. It's just not delivering for me.

Couldn't it be that your feeling of being stuck or the anxiety is actually telltails that the program is working? 

I've had periods of OSC when I felt the same, feeling like nothing is happening (made me to run two loops masked per day, which made me exhausted) and feeling stuck. 

OSC has been the first program that has helped me tackle the root cause of my anxiety (which have made me think that confidence in a way is the opposite of anxiety). The progress is slow and not always clear that it does work, but it become harder and harder for me to deny that it does.  It's like the quote about learning philosophy - "If the progress isn't slow, there is no real progress".

For me OSC has targeted the deepest parts of my anxiety - stemmed in a sence of physical disconnection and instability, helped me work on them and made me realize that before those has been taken care of, there is no foundation to build a real sense of confidence on.

The anxiety is clear evidence that my subconscious is terrified of something in the script. I ran ultrasonic for somewhere around 50ish days. The result was anger with anxiety sprinkled throughout. 

Feeling stuck can be interpreted multiple ways. It could mean that the masked track is so amazing that progress is happening under the radar. It could also mean that the masked track didn't have a high enough script volume to result in any forward movement. I hope I'm wrong,  but I suspect it's the latter.

In the past 9 years of running IML subs,  I've always been able to see some level of progress by now, even if it was a simple mindset change or something I could detect by reading through my offline journal. That was especially true with 5.11G. My biggest concern is the same as I've already noted in this online journal... that 6G is triggering resistance that it isn't able to overcome.

I don't deny that 6G is more advanced than 5.11G. But I'm beginning to believe that 5.11G was better balanced in terms of the level of resistance it triggered versus what it was able to overcome. 

I've decided to stick with OSC 6G until day 90. After that, I'm not sure. Based on my experience and the fact that I haven't seen anything particularly impressive in the online journals, there's no way I can currently justify purchasing a multi-stage sub. Maybe Shannon's additions to the key script will help things along,  but I'm not sure I'm willing to take a chance on it unless OSC is rebuilt. That's not going to happen any time in the near future.

[Johannesbrst]

Couldn't it be that your feeling of being stuck or the anxiety is actually telltails that the program is working? 

I've had periods of OSC when I felt the same, feeling like nothing is happening (made me to run two loops masked per day, which made me exhausted) and feeling stuck. 

OSC has been the first program that has helped me tackle the root cause of my anxiety (which have made me think that confidence in a way is the opposite of anxiety). The progress is slow and not always clear that it does work, but it become harder and harder for me to deny that it does.  It's like the quote about learning philosophy - "If the progress isn't slow, there is no real progress".

For me OSC has targeted the deepest parts of my anxiety - stemmed in a sence of physical disconnection and instability, helped me work on them and made me realize that before those has been taken care of, there is no foundation to build a real sense of confidence on.

The anxiety is clear evidence that my subconscious is terrified of something in the script. I ran ultrasonic for somewhere around 50ish days. The result was anger with anxiety sprinkled throughout. 

Feeling stuck can be interpreted multiple ways. It could mean that the masked track is so amazing that progress is happening under the radar. It could also mean that the masked track didn't have a high enough script volume to result in any forward movement. I hope I'm wrong,  but I suspect it's the latter.

In the past 9 years of running IML subs,  I've always been able to see some level of progress by now, even if it was a simple mindset change or something I could detect by reading through my offline journal. That was especially true with 5.11G. My biggest concern is the same as I've already noted in this online journal... that 6G is triggering resistance that it isn't able to overcome.

I don't deny that 6G is more advanced than 5.11G. But I'm beginning to believe that 5.11G was better balanced in terms of the level of resistance it triggered versus what it was able to overcome. 

I've decided to stick with OSC 6G until day 90. After that, I'm not sure. Based on my experience and the fact that I haven't seen anything particularly impressive in the online journals, there's no way I can currently justify purchasing a multi-stage sub. Maybe Shannon's additions to the key script will help things along,  but I'm not sure I'm willing to take a chance on it unless OSC is rebuilt. That's not going to happen any time in the near future.

In the end of the day it's us that need to make the change in our lives that the subliminal point us to. And I believe that 6G trigger those foundational parts of ourselves that only we an take charge of, it's like it puts its finger in the side of the real issue on hand and tell us "see, this is the shit that's holding you back, wanna stay here?". That is the anxiety, and then we have a choice. Face the true source of the anxiety, or keep going and look the other way. Facing it sucks, it sucks so fucking bad, but it's better than the alternative. Facing it means doing what we have avoided all along, living that part of ourselves that we think is weak, that we don't believe is worthy of existing, that we tell ourselves we don't have. But that part exist. We need to let it out. We need to step out of the way and be the person we are.

[NOMAD]

Day 76

I don't know when it started exactly, but my sleep has increasingly gone to shit. I have a hard time falling asleep. Then,  in the middle of the night,  I wake up with anxiety and the adrenaline won't let me go back to sleep. The adrenaline crash is a bitch, particularly when you have a career like mine that requires significant mental acuity. The lacking sleep probably explains the decrease in strength I've been seeing in the gym. I'm not willing to compromise my sleep for extended periods of time. That's not healthy in any way. I've committed to seeing the sub through to day 90. After that, I'll probably switch back to PM so I can rest properly. 

76 days in and I have nothing positive to report. I don't expect much of a change between now and day 90. I recall reading concerns about 6G becoming mainstream and being abused. Based on my experience with it, I don't think that's going to be a problem. It seems to me that 6G is better suited for those that are already familiar with working with they're subconscious through other means rather than being a tool of the general public.

I am very very very disappointed in this sub. I really don't have anything else to say that I haven't already said in other entries.

[NOMAD]

Day 73 ( cont'd)

I had an epiphany this morning while driving to work. I need to let go. There's a part if me that's an absolute control freak. I hate unknowns. So, I try to prepare for every possible variable for everything I do to avoid any situation where something might go wrong. It's a stressful way to live,  it's exhausting,  and it's an impossible mountain that I keep trying to climb over and over. I need to let go.

I'm not sure if this is OSC at work but I think it's worth noting. I do feel a sense of relief in acknowledging this.

[4Kingdoms]

Day 76

I don't know when it started exactly, but my sleep has increasingly gone to shit. I have a hard time falling asleep. 

Breathing Technique to Fall Asleep
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/EV0XYVBP7Yg
Breathe in through your nose for 4 seconds
Hold for 7 seconds
Blow out through your mouth for 8 seconds

US Navy Seals Power Nap
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/lP_SPtY7OOE

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Meditate
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/C7PYRuggQng

13 Minute Meditation to maximize FOCUS and Concentration
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hpjirzg0...werThyself

[NOMAD]

Day 76

I don't know when it started exactly, but my sleep has increasingly gone to shit. I have a hard time falling asleep. 

Breathing Technique to Fall Asleep
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/EV0XYVBP7Yg
Breathe in through your nose for 4 seconds
Hold for 7 seconds
Blow out through your mouth for 8 seconds

US Navy Seals Power Nap
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/lP_SPtY7OOE

---

Meditate
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/C7PYRuggQng

13 Minute Meditation to maximize FOCUS and Concentration
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hpjirzg0...werThyself

Based on your personal experience, what do you like about these particular techniques?

[4Kingdoms]

Breathing Technique to Fall Asleep
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/EV0XYVBP7Yg
Breathe in through your nose for 4 seconds
Hold for 7 seconds
Blow out through your mouth for 8 seconds

US Navy Seals Power Nap
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/lP_SPtY7OOE

---

Meditate
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/C7PYRuggQng

13 Minute Meditation to maximize FOCUS and Concentration
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hpjirzg0...werThyself

Based on your personal experience, what do you like about these particular techniques?

Breathing Technique to Fall Asleep
When I have to work the next day & my neighbors are playing their music too loud.  I do the breathing & the noise melts away & I fall asleep.  Sometimes their parties last until 5 am.  Earplugs are uncomfortable & I was worried that I wouldn't hear the alarm clock.

US Navy Seals Power Nap
It is common for me to work 10 or 12 hours a day.  If I need to, I will take a power nap on my break.  Fortunately, they have benches in the men's locker room.  I'll place a towel on the floor to lie on & I'll raise my legs on the bench.

Meditate
A friend gifted a meditation device, Muse-S.  It connects to an app & teaches you how to meditate.  I'm able to meditate without the device, I can't remember the last time I used it.

When I got the gift, at that point in my life, I was stressed out.  Stuff that stressed me out didn't bother me.  Meditation also helped quiet my mind to fall asleep.

The adrenaline crash is a bitch, particularly when you have a career like mine that requires significant mental acuity. 

13 Minute Meditation to maximize FOCUS and Concentration
I did a search on YouTube for your benefit.  I haven't done this 13-minute meditation.

[NOMAD]

Thank you for the suggestions. I'm interested in the breathing technique and power nap. The meditation is something I'm familiar with, but it's surprisingly stimulating to my brain when I'm already in a state of heightened adrenaline. In the end, it works against sleep. As an alternative to meditation,  I've had mixed success with completely relaxing my body. The struggle is to relax my mind along with it so I don't find myself in a mind awake, body asleep state.

[Johannesbrst]

Thank you for the suggestions. I'm interested in the breathing technique and power nap. The meditation is something I'm familiar with, but it's surprisingly stimulating to my brain when I'm already in a state of heightened adrenaline. In the end, it works against sleep. As an alternative to meditation,  I've had mixed success with completely relaxing my body. The struggle is to relax my mind along with it so I don't find myself in a mind awake, body asleep state.

Can recommend chanting meditations (think I've sent you one in a PM). That usually relaxes both my body and mind.

[NOMAD]

Day 78

I've become absolutely bored with my work since I've been running OSC. The last time I can remember feeling anything like this was while running Maverick. I recall Duke making a comment that it was because i had grown to the point that it wasn't worth my time and energy (paraphrasing based on memory). I believe that I somewhat agreed at the time. Now, I whole-heartedly agree with that sentiment. It's almost like OSC is revealing dormant scripting from Maverick.

I'm hyper-focused on a personal project. I'd even go so far as to say I'm obsessive about it. I'm about to attempt something that scares the absolute shit out of me and that I wouldn't have dreamed of doing a year ago. This is what keeps me up at night. It's part of the reason I'm so hell bent on doing it and being successful at it. I'm no longer hung up in my work. Being obsessive about a personal project isn't necessarily healthy, but at least I'm focused on something that's important in my personal life.

[4Kingdoms]

I'm hyper-focused on a personal project. I'd even go so far as to say I'm obsessive about it. I'm about to attempt something that scares the absolute shit out of me and that I wouldn't have dreamed of doing a year ago. This is what keeps me up at night. It's part of the reason I'm so hell bent on doing it and being successful at it. I'm no longer hung up in my work. Being obsessive about a personal project isn't necessarily healthy, but at least I'm focused on something that's important in my personal life.

Passion is healthy!! 
It sounds like you're very passionate!!

[NOMAD]

I'm hyper-focused on a personal project. I'd even go so far as to say I'm obsessive about it. I'm about to attempt something that scares the absolute shit out of me and that I wouldn't have dreamed of doing a year ago. This is what keeps me up at night. It's part of the reason I'm so hell bent on doing it and being successful at it. I'm no longer hung up in my work. Being obsessive about a personal project isn't necessarily healthy, but at least I'm focused on something that's important in my personal life.

Passion is healthy!! 
It sounds like you're very passionate!!

I'm definitely passionate about this project. I haven't experienced passion towards anything personal in a very long time.

[NOMAD]

Day 80

I see how OSC is working. It's moving at a snail's pace, but I can see it at work. If I can think of a way to articulate what I'm seeing and experiencing in the next few days,  I'll do it.

I wish things would move more quickly,  but I'm happy that I can finally see progress.