02-18-2019, 02:55 PM
Having something to report dose make a differnce
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02-25-2019, 04:12 PM
DMSI 3.3.1D Day 33
Oh boy, long time no post. I've been avoiding the forums while the errors persisted and later on I had problems with logging in, thanks @Benjamin and @Cyanide and the rest of the crew for help. All seems to work fine, it will take a while to get used to but that's not much of an issue. As for me... Well, its mostly the same. My father seems to get better and worse and better again. Sepsis is one f***ed up illness and it may take a long time to fight it. That being said I'm slowly getting used to the state of affairs. It's weird how people get used to the situations. Nothing to report women-wise, however I'm slowly getting my old me again. It's still a far cry from my motivation before 3.3.1 but progress is a progress. There are still some personal things I need to get in order but once it's done (and sadly some of the things are out of my control) I think I'll be able to manage my family, my job and my personal life quite well.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty. ~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
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03-10-2019, 05:53 AM
DSMI 3.3.1D Day 47
My father passed away this Thursday. So far I've been taking it quite stoically. For the next week I will stay to be with my mother and my family, but then I'll have to go back to the city and back to work and every day life.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty. ~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
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03-10-2019, 06:03 AM
My condolences... sorry for your loss.
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03-10-2019, 07:17 AM
(03-10-2019, 05:53 AM)Mystic Pymp Wrote: DSMI 3.3.1D Day 47 My condolences about your father, Mystic.
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03-10-2019, 08:59 AM
Sorry for your loss man
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03-12-2019, 07:11 PM
Sorry to hear that
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03-25-2019, 11:09 AM
DMSI 3.3.1D Day 62
Just so you know I'm not entirely sure if my counting of days is spot-on, I might have missed or gained one day somewhere down the line. I know however that I'm on the second day of the series and I have (together with the current one) 3 series left to go. So day 62 that is. Thanks everyone for the condolences, I appreciate that. As for how I deal with this... not too well I'm afraid, but not abysmally either. For the most part I function well and I'm back at work. I feel lost and overburdened sometimes, but I think it's not that strange. I have this feeling I need to man the f**k up and stop complaining, but I'll give myself a little bit more time to go through the emotions. As for my habits it's a missed bag. I completely stopped working out (I'm just too weak for that) but other than that things are not terrible. After complete relapse after my dad died I'm back at smoking control, NoFap is also going relatively strong. I'd love to focus more on my work, but other circumstances are not helping me too much, not to mention I often feel simply too weak to do some more than mere minimum. However right now I'm preparing for my official trip to Rome due next week and I hope to get back to it 150% after the trip. If you have any questions/comments I'd be happy to answer. I wasn't posting in a long time and, to be frank, I miss willingness to focus on the goals of DMSI due to circumstances. However I still very much enjoy the sub and I will see it through to the 90 days mark. After that I will switch to LTU starting 1st of May I think.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty. ~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
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03-26-2019, 01:11 PM
DMSI 3.3.1D Day 63
I reminded myself of dream I've had way a week or so ago. I don't remember details very well but that dream still intrigues me so I thought I'd share it. It was by far the most interesting dream I've had in a long time, erotic dreams not taken into account. I was happy. I was just in the happiest I've ever been. But then I woke up and realized I'm in some kind of facility. It all reminded me of some movie, but I can't put my finger on which one. At any rate there were people there drugging me (and possibly others) with some while gas or spray they had hidden in their signets. I started to struggle, asked where my family is and when the person tried to drug me again I broke free, forced the finger with the signet onto their face and sprayed it, leaving them in ecstasy and lost consciousness. Then I left the room and started wondering the corridors, looking for my way out or perhaps looking for my family, I can't quite remember. The feeling I remember the most was my rejection of a false sense of happiness given realization how unreal it was. I just didn't want to be a slave, albeit one in a state of bliss.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty. ~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
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04-16-2019, 10:17 AM
DMSI 3.3.1D Day 84
This is going to probably be my penultimate update on DMSI. Like as said before I wanted to do 90 days of DMSI and those are nearly at the end. Soon I'll be switching to LTU. How do I feel? Quite bad. There's been some ups in my life recently but over my motivation is weak. I am able to force myself to work, but once I get back home I'm useless. My dad's death hit me harder than I'm willing to admit. What about women? Nothing, but to be honest I'm not looking for anything and I don't even want to. How do I rate DMSI? Surprisingly good to be honest. If anything I feel like these past weeks would be way, way worse without it. Will I run it again in the future? Sure, although it will depend on the circumstances. I want to run LTU for 6 months at least and see where it will lead me from there. I think there is no point in running DMSI again until I regain control over my life and this will be my overarching goal for LTU.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty. ~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
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04-22-2019, 12:55 PM
DMSI 3.3.1D Day 90
This is the end. Beautiful friend. I've done 90 days on this version of DMSI. My outlook on this sub didn't change and I'm sure to try it out again in half a year or so. This was simply not the time and place for this sub due to my father's death. I will start listening to the LTU tomorrow. I wanted to start it on a later date, but once I came back home from my parents' the first thought I had was how amazing it would be to start the LTU run. So... I'll do it straight away. I'll start new journal tomorrow, where I'll state my goals and thoughts. I won't be posting on this thread anymore. I'd like to thank everyone who ever posted on this thread and the entire forum in general. I might have ended my 90 days but (as the title suggests) I've been through many versions of DMSI and it's been a long journey. You guys are great and special cudos to @Shannon !
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty. ~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
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04-26-2019, 12:17 PM
(04-22-2019, 06:34 PM)Voytek Wrote: What are your final thoughts on that version? Like I mentioned before I'm not good tester as during my run first my dad got seriously sick and then he died. This made me consciously focus on different things than being sexually irresistible, mainly supporting my mother. That being said I enjoyed other versions of DMSI more. I won't throw away version numbers as I don't remember them now, but I think 2.4 and 3.2 worked great on me. I think 3.3.1 would do well given the chance. What I can say for sure is it made me much stronger than I thought I would be in this situation. Wish I could be of more help here. Funnily enough after I ended DMSI my female flatmate became much more friendly with me, we started watching Game of Thrones together as well as some other things which was surprising as we mostly keep to ourselves.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty. ~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4 |
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