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Just a thought: It feels good to feel good.

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Been trying to allow myself to become more present to the moment. To not give in and let thoughts of the past or future take control. If I can remain as present as possible, I can then allow the script to kick in and get out of my own way.

Eckhart Tolle is someone worth reading. The Power of now is a great book.

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Just ordered some new headphones as my current ones are a bit bad on one side. My earphones are kind of the same so I got some nice new ones from amazon. Good brand and good quality.

I reckon I'm getting a mini new tid effect because since putting the order through I've been getting some good luck today.

Got given a free bus ticket from a woman at stop literally seconds before stepping on the bus.

LM saved me from getting my ass into some major fire at work. Basically a system made a decision which had my name attached and if they didn't notice it, I'd be in major shit. But common sense prevailed and now they didn't do anything towards me on a technicality. Phew.

Work went smoothly and I've been repairing a strained work relationship with colleagues who used to ignore me but we hung out last night on a work do and we ended up bonding a bit.

Nearly stepped on a hedgehog on the way home this evening as it was dark and it blended it in to the floor. I watched it for a little while as it scurried off to safety but he seemed to be intrigued by me haha. Until today I've never seen one up close in the flesh.

So I hope this trend continues and I keep getting more luck and good feelings.

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Been a while since I updated this

I wanted to give a whole month to see if there were any drastic changes between last post and now because although certain things were changing it didn't feel like a whole lot was happening.

That's the thing.

You don't sense anything happening day by day because it is a seamless transition. The modules work away in the background quietly but effectively, leaving you to improve without seeing it. Day by day reporting felt more like a chore than a diary entry.
So after almost a month I can say I feel I'm at the stage where life is tuned up somewhat. I am getting rid of old demons, went through some explicit yet still emotionally trying mental states and I have made diet changes which looking back now, would never have happened on conscious will power alone.

I've also been doing something quite effective in allowing me to become more like myself and that is to just accept all parts of you, good and bad. To give self love to the ego and when you begin to feel anxiety or depression or shame or guilt, to just give love to those parts instead of ignoring them or repressing them. Those parts of us are just screaming out for love and even the toughest among us need to feel loved in some way. Do that I can assure you, you'll feel better. Morals can be good but when you're trying to repress every "bad" thing about you, it's like your harming yourself. I treat the subconscious as another part of me and I give it and myself love when I can.

I might wait out until the end of may (3 months run is up) and post a final entry and see what has changed again.
Then it's on to maybe running a different sub.

LM