LTU5 - Laying the Foundation

[SaltyMeatballs]

Thanks @ncbeareatingman 

[dissonance]

I now use sleepphones, and tape them with that medical tape. Sleepphones are much more comfortable, but still slide around my head, so the speaker moves from the position of my ear. I just use that medical tape on the sleepphones now, and its perfect I sleep fine. I agree those earbuds are uncomfortable unless you sleep on your back only

[EvolvingPhoenix]

I now use sleepphones, and tape them with that medical tape. Sleepphones are much more comfortable, but still slide around my head, so the speaker moves from the position of my ear. I just use that medical tape on the sleepphones now, and its perfect I sleep fine. I agree those earbuds are uncomfortable unless you sleep on your back only

dissonance, THANK YOU for telling us about these. I can't afford to buy a pair rn, but I intend to eventually. Thanks for bringing Sleepphones to my awareness.

[dissonance]

I now use sleepphones, and tape them with that medical tape. Sleepphones are much more comfortable, but still slide around my head, so the speaker moves from the position of my ear. I just use that medical tape on the sleepphones now, and its perfect I sleep fine. I agree those earbuds are uncomfortable unless you sleep on your back only

dissonance, THANK YOU for telling us about these. I can't afford to buy a pair rn, but I intend to eventually. Thanks for bringing Sleepphones to my awareness.

Yeah, they are pretty required buying imo. I thought everyone on the forum knew about them. I guess not; thinking in retrospect, I recall they aren't mentioned that often lol. There should be a sticky post or something saying "IMPORTANT SUB USAGE TIPS" or something and include the SleepPhones in there, along with other tips etc.

[SaltyMeatballs]

@dissonance I actually owned a pair of wireless Sleepphones sometime back but ended up breaking them. Due to twisting and turning during sleep the very thin wire attached to the speaker via solder had come off so I was only getting sound to one side. I only had them for a couple of months. I don't know if it's worth getting new ones.

[SaltyMeatballs]

Just realised how I've felt little to no stress this entire week which is very unusual. At the back of my mind I have this thought that my life will work out just fine. That somehow I will get through any problem. There's a sense of ease/flow which I can't really explain. It's liberating.

[SaltyMeatballs]

Woke up in the middle of the night...

Discovered that I was only getting sound to one ear. The earbuds have become short wired so I was only getting exposure from the left side. I wonder if this decreases the effectiveness of the sub. I was playing the hybrid track.

[Benjamin]

Yes it will slightly as the subliminals are maximized in stereo.

[SaltyMeatballs]

Thanks for letting me know @Benjamin

[SaltyMeatballs]

It's been a while since I posted. Intense resistance had consumed me since starting the hybrid format 3 weeks ago. Crawled back into my comfortable shell as my demons, insecurities and fears bubbled to the surface.
Junk food, porn and video games continue to be my main distractions to facing this resistance. Productivity absolute zero.

I can sense that I am playing the victim role, thinking that I don't have power to change, opting into autopilot and making little to no effort to consciously push myself and challenge these deeply embedded limiting beliefs.

I've been releasing a lot of past traumas. I can't help but just cry sometimes, especially on weekends. Seems like hybrid is penetrating my psyche to depths I didn't think would be possible with subs. E3 Doing a good job.

Suicidal thoughts also coming and going. I'm not bothered and seldom plan to take action on them.

[Shannon]

You do realize that hybrid (moar power!) isn't always the best choice. Try ultrasonic for a few weeks and compare your results.

[SaltyMeatballs]

@Shannon I think ill have to coz its way too intense. Although lately, im noticing a huge improvement in terms of self esteem and confidence. I feel like im carrying significantly less emotional baggage. Im pleased with the results so far, will be updating journal with more insights.

[SaltyMeatballs]

Day 50

Will begin cycle no.9 tonight. Hybrid format seems like overkill so ill be returning back to masked.

Today was paticularly difficult. Suicidal/negative thoughts hitting me left right and centre. Emotionally difficult past events bubbling to the surface. Feels like im back to square one.

Managed to get through the day nonetheless with the aid of high intensity exercise and a cold shower. Feeling much better now.

[Shannon]

Masked? Why masked, instead of ultrasonic?