Have you no shame? - OGSF 5G | EPRHA 2.0

[SargeMaximus]

Sarge, you asked if I can relate to your experience and I wasn't there, so I just wrote what came to my mind first and then drift off into my own musings.

I know what you mean. I do the same if something's weighing heavily on my mind, it's all good.

And yeah I wrote all those questions and all but its just thoughts I see are drifting in my mind, like sort of the ropes that hold all the tension in place. To be honest I don't really want to try to solve these things intellectually atm, I just really enjoy all the time I can have without thinking about everything in excess. Maybe it'll get me to a point where life seems useless, but that's not how it feels now. I don't want to spend the rest of my life solitude, nor do I want to spend it strenuously chasing something. Nor do I really want to decide right now how I do want to spend it. But that Emerson quote feels quite right, thanks Leonidas! I do want to engage with everything, but I want to do from a joyful place instead of escaping or attempting to fill the void.

Anyway, enjoy your day everyone!

E: It seems I perceive my own analytical mind as negative, and I don't want to engage it too much atm.

Nothing wrong with your analytical mind, it has it's place. But no worries bro, enjoy your day.