Apex-Predator Evolutionary Log - AM6 RE-RUN Stage 2 - Letting go

[Dee]

I have bad spelling and grammar and I didn't proof read, no time, sorry.

Completed AM6 and took a month off, I just started on it again.

What can I say?

Gradual change is like gaining or losing weight, mostly other people who haven’t seen you in a long time point it out, if you not weight conscious and take a ton of smartphone images.

Regardless, I feel as though there are two people within me, one guy that is who I should be and another who is acting in accordance to the manipulations of family, society, religion, education, culture etc.

Not sure if it’s the different egos they say people have like parent ego, child ego, adult ego or just ME minus the BS. I spoke to some female Dommies from the BDSM scene about dominance and many gave me this opinion that you either born one or born submissive to which I replied what if you were born one but got conditioned into been a pussy….. am awaiting replies. Point been I began getting flashes from my life about my leader qualities from my child hood “gangs” to my teenage music band, to my business’s employees. Each time there was a situation to be a beta I disassociated myself from that situation and created another where I controlled the reality.

Negativity



It seems that “negativity” is the BS excuses people give themselves as excuses and convince others people that it is “reality”. I watched an interview with the president of Gambia in Africa and they asked him about the employment problem in his country (with negative annotation’s to his competencies as president) and he said the most profound words that stuck with me. He said that there are employment problems everywhere in the world even in the wealthiest countries if lazy to work you can’t blame anyone, he said that even though he provides free education in his country there are many people who create opportunities for themselves regardless of education level.

Negative self delusion



Why are the words profound you may wonder? In my druggy days I had many interesting friends that would get income support and swear that they were no opportunities, some even in London a city that will give money in the form of grants, university loans, business grants, training for any trade etc would say that if they don’t sell “food” (drugs) they will starve to death and so will they families. I mean come on, in England a place where the Government pays you to go to school and gives you the education for free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The sad thing is they believe that’s reality and feel justified. Sure am not in that situation to have been born in an “poor” place in a rich country where the word “poor” really means you can’t buy the luxuries you want and the only reason you will go to bed hungry is because you mismanaged your money or government aid most possibly on drugs.

Power of Realities;

The reason I stated the above is to show the power of “reality” which exists only in the “head”, may a better word is mind set. So I saw a young man listen to the excuses of failures and they justifications for it and “buy into it”, so a young boy drops out of school because of an older schoolboys excuses for doing so. He believes there’s no future for him there, even if he passed the world is against him, his poor by the design of some higher power and his only hope is crime.
The lazy dad’s son asks him why they poor and he says it’s because rich people are greedy pigs and money is power and power corrupts, money is the root of all evil. And his son tells his son the same thing.

Independent thinking vs Subjective thinking;

Yes! I am free to judge human nature objectively then apply my “reality” to it. All my fears and insecurities were not mine to begin with, they were other people’s, people who convinced me that was “reality”.

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A short more experienced guy told me he didn’t get any luck with women because women like tall men (his reality), then he applied his imagination and intellect to it and after a few supporting ideas, I believed that was the reason he didn’t get any luck with women.

The only problem is I was short too, but I joined him in his “reality” in a world where women didn’t like short men. So all the mating ritual signals I got from women in my “reality” was friendly women been nice to me, while in my friends “realities” they likes me, yeah they told me but I thought they were wrong, why? They didn’t know what I did, women don’t like short guys.

So in the presence of tall guys even some of my friends, insecurity and suppressed jealousy, so many girls would be around me for me but of course in my head they were there for the tall guys. And there is a twist to the story, because more people are fucked by the negativity (excuses) of others my taller mates, they had there insecurities.

My reality vs the world;

Some people have more influence over our minds than others, some people let themselves be affected by anyone’s opinion, (I think I was one for some time at some point). The most important lession or most powerful change I got from the first run of AM6 is to control my reality, not control it but create it, keep it positive keep it clean and not live in someone else’s reality no matter how appealing it may be.

Am sure you have heard the riddle. If a tree falls in the middle of nowhere does it make a sound? I found the answer, disagree if you will, but in my “reality” it’s a fact, just like it’s a fact that life is hard in the experience of a poor man in a world where people buy dog houses that cost more than family homes.
The tree doesn’t make a sound because EARS are needed to create sound, sound exists only in the mind/brain. Meaning what exactly? Everything you experience as “reality” exists only in your head, the colour pink doesn’t exist for dogs, because they can’t see colour.

That said, all these PUA guys attempt to create false “realities” in your head also known as “marketing” to buy they products, nothing wrong with that, only think is the contradictions of “realities”. Some PUA guy said women only like alphas then I see the most beta boarder line gay guy with a hot women and think to myself………. Well, depressing, take it personal, confused shit. Another PUA guy says women like dominate men, then I see a submissive guy with an hot alpha female women and I think to myself ……

Reality beliefs for Lifestyles;

Now am more like This is my “reality” now and that’s the way I want it to be later, this is what I have to do to create it, this is the mind-set I need to maintain it, and fuck everyone else’s “reality”, I expect people to try to manipulate me into living in they world and been subject to it by all means, including moral and emotional blackmail, fuck it if they don’t want to live in my world am an introvert anyway, I won’t miss anyone.

No man is an island they say, it now sounds to me like a “reality” hijacking term, of course, no man is anything else but a man, but to humour you with that term, I said, all I need is a harbour and I can buy all the things I need to survive including “company” if need be, if I eat a small piece at a time, I can have my cake and eat it too, I mean cake like life as an expiry date, no point having a full rotten cake you didn’t eat because of some “reality” hijacking belief/excuse, why do people have to be so negative and focus mostly on the problems and not the solutions to problems.

So fuck them, let me keep they “realities” no matter how logical/real they may seem. I will only buy into their “reality” hijacking beliefs if it helps build my Ideal one.

Your beliefs create your reality;

By the way, am off that Pick Up Artist shit, there is something about going to many clubs and running routines and entertaining women with BS and games for sex that only seemed good in my imagination but wasn’t appealing to me in practice hence the lack of motivation and excuses I gave myself.

Not to say that it isn’t fun and a good lifestyle for many people, Self-Actualisation is been the best that you can be, not been the best of someone else. An artist must paint, a writer must write, a businessperson must make businesses and a pick up artist must pick up chicks.

But with a biggest problem for humanity called “reality hijacking”, an artist is convinced to make music to impress chicks, a Pick up artist is persuaded to create multiply streams to income because women like guys with money and the business man wastes years of working hours working with PUA consultants who convince him to waste more time becoming an artist who can play an instrumental because women like the creative types and business analytical minds are boring women love fun.


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There are still a few people who have influence over my reality and every time we meet I have to rebuild some of my “reality” they destroyed during that meet up. Hopefully next run of AM6 I would have fully fortified my reality against everyone and I mean everyone, even G-D.

There are many ways to skin a cat and success is different for everyone, in my reality, I use my methods to achieve my goals that determine my success to myself.


Thanks for reading. But you don’t really care about me you just looking for “reality hijacking beliefs” to help you rebuild or re-enforce yours from mine/ours


PS, DESIGN YOUR OWN BELIEFS AND CREATE YOUR OWN REALITY