AM6 STAGE 1 - Day 11
AM6 KICKS ASRE!!!!
Am not sure if it’s the Overcome fear, shame and guilt script, but every time I would have sexual thoughts I would think of my mum or sister and that would make me feel ashamed and stop. Like they know what am thinking of kinda thing. Since listening to AM6 this has deceased a lot also I can’t seem to recall thinking about the past this couple of weeks past; when before I couldn't stop and little everyday things would trigger past negative memories.
FACING MY FEARS
I didn't approach anyone today (just had a convo with a female serving at the chicken spot), I didn't feel in the mood, some hot woman sat right opposite me in the train, she followed me to that carriage. I said “ You alright” but she wasn't looking at me and I had my headphones on, so I can never be sure if 1) She heard me, 2) She ignored me, 3) she thought I was on the phone 4,5,6,7,8. Anyway from that moment I lost the will, walk up approaches are cool coz you can leave when you run out of stuff to say but its almost like i can see how it will turn out when am in the mood. Again in the train some blonde MILF was staring at me HARD!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why is it always the older ones.
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Anyway has planned I went out to break more fears, stood in the middle of a busy tube tunnel, only the kids looked back, some people smiled others laughed. Then I walked about affirming and tapping, strange looks, some painted performers greeted me. Then I walked down Tower Hill towards London Bridge and after a while I had the stomach to say my affirmations and reframes out a loud. I didn’t expect it to be so easy, I expected people to have reacted in a life treating way, funny to see how no one really gives a fuck, but I spent my whole life worrying. I didn’t approach afterwards too because I didn’t feel like it.
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They closed down central London for the firework newyears show.
That aside my world view has changed completely, it’s like before I would have to run my every thought and action thru a imagery committee that would judge what people would think about it and that decision would decide what action I would take. Also It seems that it affects my intelligence because instead on focusing at the task on hand I will be worrying about people’s opinions, criticism what they’ll think if I fail or do a terrible job etc. 60-90K thoughts a day most about what people think about me and thought about me in the past, all that has changed now.
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Also I read "The Universe Doesn't Give a Flying Fuck About You" while on train for a motivational boost, its one of the books I have challenged myself to read aloud in a public place. Find it attached, download it (its free), read it and DO SOME EPIC SHIT!!!
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AM6 KICKS ASRE!!!!
Am not sure if it’s the Overcome fear, shame and guilt script, but every time I would have sexual thoughts I would think of my mum or sister and that would make me feel ashamed and stop. Like they know what am thinking of kinda thing. Since listening to AM6 this has deceased a lot also I can’t seem to recall thinking about the past this couple of weeks past; when before I couldn't stop and little everyday things would trigger past negative memories.
FACING MY FEARS
I didn't approach anyone today (just had a convo with a female serving at the chicken spot), I didn't feel in the mood, some hot woman sat right opposite me in the train, she followed me to that carriage. I said “ You alright” but she wasn't looking at me and I had my headphones on, so I can never be sure if 1) She heard me, 2) She ignored me, 3) she thought I was on the phone 4,5,6,7,8. Anyway from that moment I lost the will, walk up approaches are cool coz you can leave when you run out of stuff to say but its almost like i can see how it will turn out when am in the mood. Again in the train some blonde MILF was staring at me HARD!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why is it always the older ones.
Anyway has planned I went out to break more fears, stood in the middle of a busy tube tunnel, only the kids looked back, some people smiled others laughed. Then I walked about affirming and tapping, strange looks, some painted performers greeted me. Then I walked down Tower Hill towards London Bridge and after a while I had the stomach to say my affirmations and reframes out a loud. I didn’t expect it to be so easy, I expected people to have reacted in a life treating way, funny to see how no one really gives a fuck, but I spent my whole life worrying. I didn’t approach afterwards too because I didn’t feel like it.
They closed down central London for the firework newyears show.
That aside my world view has changed completely, it’s like before I would have to run my every thought and action thru a imagery committee that would judge what people would think about it and that decision would decide what action I would take. Also It seems that it affects my intelligence because instead on focusing at the task on hand I will be worrying about people’s opinions, criticism what they’ll think if I fail or do a terrible job etc. 60-90K thoughts a day most about what people think about me and thought about me in the past, all that has changed now.
Also I read "The Universe Doesn't Give a Flying Fuck About You" while on train for a motivational boost, its one of the books I have challenged myself to read aloud in a public place. Find it attached, download it (its free), read it and DO SOME EPIC SHIT!!!
If you can't manage the little you have now, who will trust you with more, if you can't control yourself long can you rule over others for? Its easier for a king to rule a kingdom than himself and who does want an empire? Being unconquerable lies with yourself!
