Day 24
Cool, so I just got out of a session with my female sex coach and I should say; for the last two weeks since I started on a program she recorded for me she is always excited to see me and the professional mature women is gone out the door. She acts like a horny teenage girl in love, we really kick it though.
Alpha/beta Progressing
What’s awesome is she a hypo dominatrix and she really into the dominant role and like women dominant relationships. But I seem to have become more alpha and “overwhelm” her female energy.
An example of this is the fact that she was supposed to record the session and send them to me but I got the coaching at haft price so I felt I didn’t deserve to ask for her to record it, but after 2-3 months I have changed so dramatically that today she said she couldn’t because she was using her laptop that didn’t have the software and I pushed her to download audacity and she recorded the session.
“Life is harsh only for those who fail to assert themselves” read it somewhere.
I seem to have changed my mind about the dynamics of relationships a lot, some ones always has to take the lead and nature choose a man. But today men give all the power always to hot women making alphas seem even more attractive than normal.
I have been looking at these guys who are into polygamy and some of them have 3-6 hot loyal girlfriends/wives then there’s guys shy to even talk about sex with avg looking girls and take they shit in a relationship, somethings gotta give.
Approaching syndrome
So I started off a few months ago feeling like I was going to die when reading the “How to be an alpha male”. I mean my stress levels where thru the roof. I was picturing my skinny, big belly, scruffy looking, and insecure short tiny self-approaching these hot, superior, chased after goddesses. You can imagine the outcomes that naturally came out of it.
But now I approached this girl and asked where I can get heroine from just because I was bored and wanted to see how she would react. I can honestly say I have overcome this issue, I am far from mastering it but when I feel the fear I get happy it makes me feel alive and gives me fuel to do the thing I fear. I now see myself as a person who deals with his fears and doesn’t shy away from them.
The bus stop girl
I need to work on my voice and accent, I speak low and people find it hard to understand me. But away way there was this blond that I saw on the road taking my walk. She crossed the road and went to the bus stop (I think she sensed my intention?), I crossed and when to speak to her. I had to repeated myself as she didn’t hear me, but she smelled of booze and it was like 9pm (bad time to practice this stuff on weekdays on roads).
Anyway I need to learn body talk, first she gave me the once over, from toe to head, then she started looking into her bag and didn’t see what for then she started fixing her hair. It was like she was really nervous or something, but because she didn’t look at me expect when answering I took it she wasn’t interested and the time of night it was ……… Been insecure about my accent and not dressing the way I start to based on my budget makes it really hard to view things objectively.
But I have seem women behave strangely to me before, one girl because so confused, one time my mates girl started singing and looking at me and all sorts. Am not sure what happened with her but she was acting strangely.
What to do next
At first I was in it just to speak to women and break my barriers but now I feel I walk away too soon as I misjudge everything going on and I have overcome this approach issue.
What must I do next see long I can speak for until the person walks away to learn all the signs?
If you can't manage the little you have now, who will trust you with more, if you can't control yourself long can you rule over others for? Its easier for a king to rule a kingdom than himself and who does want an empire? Being unconquerable lies with yourself!
